Didn't mean to come of with a 'tude or condescending, my bad. I've got a loooong history of setting my own self interest aside for someone else. It's the way I was raised (or not raised, depends on how you look at things). So, the advice you dudes gave me, to someone with my background, seems really, really harsh. You can call me a pussy, but it doesn't matter. I'm just learning to be more in control, to set my boundaries. To say, enough is enough. I'm not saying you dudes are heartless, that wasn't what I wanted to achieve. It just seems clear what you guys would do, while In my head, I'm going back and forth time and time again. Am I not the one who's wrong? Poor girl, etc... Basically, shit like breakups tear me apart to the point where I doubt every fiber of my existence.
Basically, it doesn't fucking matter. I'll end it, I've had enough of feeling like a piece of overthinking shit because I'm writing myself off for someone else's happiness once again. Lesson learned. Again.
It's alright dudes. Appreciate every word, I just wish it didn't come across as if I was trying to tell you guys that you are a bunch of heartless twats. Love XOXO
