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excuses, some things about me, and me explaining myself. Disability, me, etc.

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I rather have a job right now to fund my gaming and computer habits. Then I rather not go through all the I guess psychology levels of bullying again. Besides schizophrenia(disorganized thoughts and overall terrible cognitive functions) THAT I needed medication to bring me back down and clear some of my thoughts. I also had an issue where one part of my brain was fighting another and it was impossible for me to stop it. I had hallucinations in late 2019 and early last year. Last year the doctor started injecting me with I think a mix of medications for a few months and holy shit I was in the bed for two months sweating and it impossible for me to do anything. It felt like my mind was being released though. Right now I'm better and closer to being back to normal. It's impossible for me to tell you how close. I'm getting there.

Here are a few things about me. I don't care for sports, I don't want a house, I care nothing for cars or any vehicle and I don't want to own one. Also I don't need to be driving. If there was public transportation where I live I never have a car. I don't want kids, and I don't want a girlfriend/wife. I'm married to Zoloft and my gaming PC and it's a pretty good relationship. Video games and computers are all I care about. I don't do or want any of the normal things in life. For some reason people don't comprehend that and go straight to bullying me. I spend 99% of my time on the computer. I use to ignore everybody around me while I was on the computer at one point when I was a teenager.

I'm keeping it short. I don't want a TL;DR situation.
 
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Toots

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I spend 99% of my time on the computer.
As long as you enjoy it who cares ?!

The problem is not to do stuff that makes you feel good, but doing stuff so you don’t feel bad anymore…
For exemple, it’s not bad to do drugs to feel good, but as soon as you start doing drugs to « not feel bad », you need to find some help!
 

p_xavier

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Being alone can be a valid choice, sometimes the burden to be with others, especially with mental illness, is just too much. How rldo you sustain yourself financially?
 

p_xavier

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I live with my parents and receive a disability check.
That's a big stress relief just there. There's lots of work from home job too. My ex is on disability and he's a QA tester for a gaming company, that's something that might be interesting for you.
 

p_xavier

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Don't wish to come across as rude because I know you're going through some things. But you were dating a pensioner when you were 20 and then some dude on disability? You sure know how to pick em.
No, he injured himself while we were dating.
 
Damn dude. For me, that sounds like a pretty empty life. If I’m looking at my phone too much during the day, it really impacts my mood. I couldn’t imagine being on the fucking computer all day long, every day. I guess if you’re satisfied with the life you just described, keep it up. It sounds pretty awful though. I just want more out of life than that, personally.
 
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I don’t think you should be bullied for it, but, just my opinion here, that’s no way to live. Humans need to socialize. You’re going to miss a lot of things in life and probably regret it when it’s too late. It’s unhealthy to just sit on a computer all day long. There’s way more to life than that. I’m not a fan of society myself and I love gaming, but, I could never just stay at home and not experience life outside of it with friends and family and going places. I think you should really give it a try, it’s worth it.
 
I don’t think you should be bullied for it, but, just my opinion here, that’s no way to live. Humans need to socialize. You’re going to miss a lot of things in life and probably regret it when it’s too late. It’s unhealthy to just sit on a computer all day long. There’s way more to life than that. I’m not a fan of society myself and I love gaming, but, I could never just stay at home and not experience life outside of it with friends and family and going places. I think you should really give it a try, it’s worth it.

This isn't why I'm being bullied.
 
This isn't why I'm being bullied.

Well, you said you were bullied and then went in to a description of your life, so, the assumption was that you are bullied because your disability and how you live. Regardless, that wasn’t really the entire point of my response, it was advice on life. Whatever you feel makes you happy, that’s obviously up to you, just giving my opinion that you live a very sheltered life in which you may unfortunately regret when it’s too late.
 
I'm a people watcher and I check out women that would never have sex with me. I'm not the best of looking people. They're habits that I've been at breaking for the last 5 years.

Unfortunately some people think I'm a pedophile. I had time where I was remembering what it like to be a little kid.

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I'm not saying the bullying is undeserved.
 
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IDKFA

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I'm a people watcher and I check out women that would never have sex with me. I'm not the best of looking people. They're habits that I've been at breaking for the last 5 years.

Unfortunately some people think I'm a pedophile. I had time where I was remembering what it like to be a little kid.

**EDIT**

I'm not saying the bullying is undeserved.

You say you have no interest in having a GF/wife, so why spend all the time checking out women? If you're watching women then you're clearly interested, even if it's just a physical relationship.

I don't understand the pedo comments. Do you mean you also spend time watching children because you remember what it was like to be a child, but people think you're being a creepy pedo?
 
You say you have no interest in having a GF/wife, so why spend all the time checking out women? If you're watching women then you're clearly interested, even if it's just a physical relationship.

Zoloft took care of that. It's a habit now.

I don't understand the pedo comments. Do you mean you also spend time watching children because you remember what it was like to be a child, but people think you're being a creepy pedo?

Yes
 
I'm a people watcher and I check out women that would never have sex with me. I'm not the best of looking people. They're habits that I've been at breaking for the last 5 years.

Unfortunately some people think I'm a pedophile. I had time where I was remembering what it like to be a little kid.

**EDIT**

I'm not saying the bullying is undeserved.

How do you know they wouldn’t? Don’t know until you try. Not saying walk up to strangers and ask them to bang you, but, if it’s a situation where you can get to know them, might be worth seeing where it eventually goes.
 
How do you know they wouldn’t? Don’t know until you try. Not saying walk up to strangers and ask them to bang you, but, if it’s a situation where you can get to know them, might be worth seeing where it eventually goes.

I'm 280 pounds, I have actual man tits, and I have a hump in my back. I'm also covered in scars.
 
Who's bullying you currently? Your parents?

Random people I walk by in public atm. I'm a little bit of talk of the town. I live in a rural area and a lot of people know one another.

Last week an old lady let a grocery bag go in the wind and she yelled to me "Go get that bag!"
 
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I'm 280 pounds, I have actual man tits, and I have a hump in my back. I'm also covered in scars.

You gotta be more positive than that lol “there’s someone out there for everyone”. If you see some of the couples out there, it’s something I believe to be true. Not everyone is shallow, there are people out there who love a person for who they are and don’t care about those things.
 

haxan7

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Random people I walk by in public atm. I'm a little bit of talk of the town. I live in a rural area and a lot of people know one another.

Last week an old lady let a grocery bag go in the wind and she yelled to me "Go get that bag!"
Maybe she just views you as a strong and helpful man, so she wanted you to help her out? That scenario sounds different from what I would consider bullying.
 

German Hops

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Random people I walk by in public atm. I'm a little bit of talk of the town. I live in a rural area and a lot of people know one another.

Last week an old lady let a grocery bag go in the wind and she yelled to me "Go get that bag!"
Bullying is never deserved, it's simply allowed.
If granny attempted to talk down to me like that, I would've drop-kicked her old ass.
 
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BigBooper

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Well dude, if you look and act differently from everyone else, they will view you differently from everyone else. Not saying they should be "bullying" you, but given your examples it sounds more like you don't think people should be acting like you're different. That's not going to happen until you change some things.

If you don't like the man tits, stop eating so much until they go away. I don't know what the people watching stuff means, but don't go to a place where children hang out to do it. A lot of the townies around here just sit on their front porch and watch traffic. If it's a small town and you already have a reputation everyone knows, it will be hard to shake it, but at least you can feel better about yourself and hopefully reduce the negative interactions.
 
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Wildebeest

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I dunno. We all like to think that we have a pretty good read on how others think and what they need, but we don't even really understand ourselves. Then some other people are starting off with thoughts that are way different to yours.
 

haxan7

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I would need surgery. I have actual breast tissue. They stick out.
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