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Bell's Curve or when the penny drops
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Ian Bell walked the plank to the front of the college classroom. He smiled broadly before he began.
All of you know me...
The classroom of five friends and a dodgy seminar tutor laughed. The urbanites were dressed for a new Autumn. There was a dress wearer with a woolly jumper underneath; a knee length 'coater' with the remnants of a baked bean stain; a mini skirt wearing clubber, who had wrangled on a pair of tights, still awake from last night; her boyfriend beside her who had also braved the cold winds with a t-shirt; the professionally fitted suit wearing tutor and Mirah, who dressed like a fashionista, today all in gypsy brown with a cool black shades. Mirah chewed her bubble gum and rocked her long legs to and fro.
Bell shrugged. A demonstration, he said taking a breath.
Mirah pulled her shades down, then took it off and rested it on her perfectly straightened forest black hair pile. She twirled her fingers in a circle motion then started jotting down a few choice words into her deliciously cool ipad, about one Ian Bell.
My name is Ian Bell. Possibly the smartest person attending this College. I don't really know. Some of you think that I may be arrogant, or at least... immodest. Well that's just me. Biographies are supposed to be a truthful reflection of your self. So here's I! I have ten A*s in GSCEs; and have 5 A*s at A level. The last time I had an I.Q. Test; I was around 155. Top 1 percent. My father makes a couple of hundred grand a year, as does my mother, so I'm also lucky to have had a privileged upbringing-
Ian! Mirah said causing Ian to stop his speech midway. Ian saw her studied poise, the questioning glance. Pseudologia fantastica. Remember? she mouthed.
Of course. I... as you all know... He began honestly enough. I am of course none of those things. So why did I just tell you that? Truth is I dont exactly know
I just start off speaking then go on a tangent. And that becomes a reality. Fictitious and Im completely aware that it is fictitious but it just rolls off the tongue. My therapist says that it is perhaps because my life by its self is not good enough. Which is strange because I dont have a therapist.
He got a laugh out of his audience.
Like everything else, Psychologists have only gone and given it a name. Pseudologia fantastica. Pathological Liar in layman terms.
Ians voice, normally so well projected, lowered in power and enthusiasm as his shoulders too gave way. He shrugged.
How many times have you lots heard of a pathological liar? Eh. I will say one truth though. Its embarrassing. Suffering from that.
A silent pause filled the room as the penny dropped.
What do you mean suffer from it Ian? Can you give us some examples? The bespeckled tutor asked. His fingers had a mind of its own, and were currently playing with a black ball point pen.
Weve all told white lies, yes? Think of the ones, that you tried desperately to wriggle out of. Now imagine having to do that everyday. Then imagine, having to be that person, who is supposed to be super intelligent, but fails at it. Who is supposed to be rich, but walks around in tatters. And then imagine when the penny drops when he realizes that he isnt fooling anyone
Ian looked at the pale new mopped floors.
Any other questions?
Is Mirah really your girlfriend?
No, Ian said laughing.
Of course I am! Mirah burst in.
For Gawd sakes Mirah. He was clearly
trying to be jovial.
Ian placed his hands on the teachers desk behind him and pulled himself up to sit on top of it. The truth is. Im Mr Average. Average grades, Average intelligence, Average life. My real I.Q. score is around the 100 mark. Right at the top of the Bells curve. Nobody is actually supposed to be at the top, as it is a hypothetical where your I.Q. result is equivalent to your age, giving you 1 when you divide the two together, and off course you then multiply that by a 100 to give a I.Q. score. (Age/I.Q. test result) x 100= I.Q. Test result.
Mirah raised her hand. Being Average doesnt mean you are dumb though. It should mean that you have the most in common with the most people. You should be a social highlight if anything.
Well you would say that though, Ian replied. I mean thank you for that.
Melanie, jumper beneath a dress, raised her hand. The truth isnt necessarily easy though. Everybody lies. How do we know you arent trying to be something special, by telling us that you suffer from what was it-? Pseudolog-
Pseudologia fantastica, Mirah added.
Pseudologia fantastica. Maybe it is just another effort to special ize your self, I mean?
Ian Bell smiled. Then that smile journeyed into a laugh. Well
Melanie smiled along with him. I dont get it, whats so funny?
Aesops fable, Mirah added. The boy who cried wolf?
Melanies eyes lit. Ahh. Okay. Even when liars tell the truth, they are never believed. The liar will lie once, twice, and so then gets screwed when he tells the truth
I actually dont think its too bad Ian. I just think of you as like the story teller in our group you know.
Thank you
Ian said, hiding his hands in his jean pockets. I think thats my fifteen minutes.
Mirah pulled up the seat beside her, as her sunglasses came down again. You did well, Mr Bell
I wish I had your ability to be such a natural in front of a crowd. I just completely melt.
Ian smiled. Well, I guess there is that. I never really get nervous.
Close up, it looked a tougher smile then he let on. Mirah reached for Ians hands under the table. There was a distinct, very private tremor in his hands. One that he could not hide under the embrace.
Mirah looked up at Ian Bell, open mouthed as he looked at another student, script in hand, walk the plank to the front of the classroom to talk a little about her self.
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End.
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"Tell me when your heart stops," Myrah asked.
"What?" Ian replied in a whisper. "It's over. I'm not on trial anymore."
Myrah lowered her shades to the tip of her nose. "How very telling... because that's exactly the thing babe. You were never on trial."
Ian's heart beat at a quicker pace. He tried to steady his hand.
"It's alright..." Myrah spoke, now beneath a whisper.
Ian's heart began bleeding, the shakes grew worse, visibily so. Myrah looked on at the person getting giddy on stage. She kept a tight grip of Ian's hand.
Ian lost complete control of his trembles. "I think I'm having a heart attack... trust me.."
"It'll pass. Trust me."
"I'm not lying..."
"I know you're not, Ian Bell. Just tell when me when your heart stops..."
"Do you know what's happening to me..?"
"I think so. Just keep breathing. We can go outside if you want."
Ian sat firmly in his seat. And tried consciously to control his breathing.
Myrah googled
Panic attack on her ipad, and then showed Ian.
"Tell me when your heart stops..." Myrah said pulling her shades back on as she put her head on Ian's shoulders. "Everything's going to be ok."