Sorry for that. I try to be respectful of that. I can kinda understand that as I lived part of my childhood and my whole teenage years with heart problems and just reading about heart diseases usually cause serious distress to me, to the point of me becoming sweaty, not being able to breathe well and and ultimately starting to feel I'm going to pass out. Obviously it's not exactly the same as there isn't that kind of PTSD things going on as there would be with women who've had abortion, but there's enough similarities for me to kinda be able to relate to that.
I appreciate your sensitivity to this. Honestly.
I don't regret my abortion; I'd do it a thousand times over if I had to. But it did leave me with a form of PTSD, not because of the guilt over the procedure itself, but because of everything that followed. People's reactions to it in the year immediately following it were... hard. My mom's words were the hardest to swallow, but having a panic attack in the middle of class in college was the biggest wake-up call that I wasn't okay. The class was having a discussion similar to the ones we have here, but hearing aloud in person that people thought I should be thrown in jail was horrifying. I can't speak aloud that I've had an abortion, and being able to type it out has been a recent development. My procedure was 10 years ago this summer, but only in the past year or so have I been able to admit via text that it happened. I don't know how long it'll be before I can actually say the words, because I'm so terrified of other people's reactions. It's like the language center of my brain just shuts down and my voice stops working.
I don't trust my own decision-making anymore as a result of the things that were said to me. I'm afraid to take risks, and I'm terrified of intimacy. When men touch my shoulder while talking to me just to be friendly, I get nervous, because if I show any interest and a relationship goes anywhere, I'm terrified of the same thing happening again and all of the abuse coming down on me again. That's how bad it is.
(As a side note just because this is a video gaming forum, so many Yakuza fans are baffled when I say I can't stand Majima. His reaction to his wife's abortion is the reason why, but it's so hard to explain that to people.)
There are a couple of things that makes me doubt it is as simple as that.
1) I don't think you can compare something pulled out from one's rectum to something pulled out of uterus. Those are completely different places. Rectum isn't made to hold anything for 9 months. You have to do more complex things to have access to uterus and to remove anything from the uterus than what needs to be done if something is stuck in rectum.
2) A foreign object often is hard and its shape is more simple. You can take hold of any part of a Matchbox car and the rest will follow. A fetus (as we are talking about a second trimester abortion - that was what the video was all about) has limbs and more complex form in general. The limbs and even the head can create situations where the fetus will get stuck.
Now, I can see the video could be misleading as it doesn't really talk about second trimester abortion in its earliest weeks but the doctor specifically mentions 20 weeks and says his example happens in a late term abortion. Also I think the fetus is supposed to die already when the first suction is done and whatever cutting will happen happens after the fetus is already dead. So when that video shows the animated fetus still moving while doing the cutting, yeah, I guess that could be seen as propaganda. But still, to compare the thing to pulling out a Matchbox car out of someone's ass (I hope you don't explain this as "just making a hyperbole" this time) is at the very least misleading too - if not even a soft form of propaganda.
I think he meant more in concept as opposed to the actual technical procedure of it, because what he said was that you open a person up and lift the object out; that's all. Matchbox car in the butt was my analogy, not his. Maybe a better comparison would've been a C-section, but for some reason a Matchbox car in the butt came to mind first. idk what that says about me LMFAO I promise I don't put Matchbox cars in my butt.