Hey
AeneaGames
so ... hum ...I'm not familiar with personal talk and english is not my native language so I may be clumsy with my words so please in advance I apologize.
I had cancer too when I was young, and I know it can be hard on the body and the mind.
And contrary to Reggie our body is never ready for it.
I spent a few month in Radio/chemotherapy, so I know how it is and if you want to talk and lighten a bit the burden don't hesitate to talk to me, I'm still young and may not be the best for it, but I can listen and share my experience with you if you think it can help.
Cancer also took my father 3 years ago and I've never been the sensible kind but if you are wondering how it will affect your family I can also share my experience as someone who lost a family member.
If I can give you one advice, that is also a regret on my part, is to spent as much time (and good times) as possible with your loved ones.
It will be better for you and for them, fresh good memories eases the pain.
And I know that it can happen, but if you feel guilty about being sad or depressed it's normal you just need to talk it away to whomever you want, even a stranger, I know it can be hard to talk about it to those directly concerned about it.
I hope I haven't been too negative and if you want to know with time your loved one will just keep the good memories, no matter how much bad times there were.
Most people would tell you to stay strong and everything but I disagree allow yourself to be weak, to cry, to hate, that will help you.It didn't help me to keep everything inside, to stay strong, because it hits you harder.Just be you with you qualities and flaws.You don't need to embelish things for the others,now is just about you.