This is bizarre way to enter the thread - but how did you guys... discover what was happening in your lives?
I try and do this; I make these lists from time to time and I find they focus my mind, but I had no idea that this lack of motivation was a.. sign of depression?
I know self diagnosis is easy, not to mention dangerous, but... well I've had three days off work, spend Saturday night and Sunday with my girlfriend - but today I've been alone all day and haven't managed to motivate myself to do anything.
It's not that I've not wanted to; my job is easy (retail) and I can't get better at it outside of work itself. I'm 24 and I know I'm "better" than my job - but I don't know what to do. I don't know what I want to do career wise and that pressure is kind of crippling me, it's prevented me from doing absolutely anything today.
I'm sorry for bringing a stupid problem into the thread - feels like it's a pretty insignificant one compared to some of you guys, but it felt like this feeling (which I've been having on and off for a year) could be maybe something beyond the realms of "frustration."
Hi Guys Feel kind of strange posting in here, but I think I'm at my limit.
Around 18 months ago or so I started feeling very odd, slowly, like I was living my life in a bubble and I couldn't concentrate on anything at all, and when I could I would get distracted by other shit in my life.
So I make an appointment to talk to my Doctor and he thinks its because im a tad overweight, and I needed to lose 20 pounds. I had to argue with him that I didn't think that was the case, and he finally referred me to someone for ADD testing. (My family has a history of it) I was tested positive for ADD-PI and was put on 20mg of Adderall-XR. It worked fairly well and my productivity has gone up, but I still cant shake this strange feeling of not feeling like myself.
I currently hate my job. I am a sysadmin and I feel like I babysit 300 computer users everyday. Today I had to explain to someone how to scan something into a computer. I feel completely abused in this role, and that my talents are being wasted in this bullshit of a hole.
I am almost done with my bachelors degree(3 more classes), but I find it harder and harder to get the motivation to do the school work, and that even if I do graduate this job is going to keep on making my life awful.
I felt pressured by my longtime girlfriend to move in together to a house that I didn't really like, and I was pressured by my longtime best friend to let him move in with us. The whole situation stresses me out, and I never feel like im going home to anything anymore. I am constantly listening to them bitch about each other, and I never feel like I can just relax in my own space.
I feel constantly down and depressed, and I am not sure on how to make any of this better.
Any advice on what to do would be appreciated.
Heya! New faces are always welcome. I think everyone feels a little weird posting at first. There's no contest to see whose problems are objectively the worst or anything; if they're causing you problems, they deserve some attention, no?
So I figured out I was depressed by literally making a list of all the bad stuff and all of the good stuff going on in my life. I remember it really vividly - sitting in my dorm room and just writing stuff out. I felt like absolute garbage, but I could not, for the life of me, come up with anything in my life to explain it. Everything was going so well! So I saw a counselor at school and got a referral to a psychiatrist.
Apologies for spamming it, but here's the inventory we use in the hospital here:
PHQ-9 It's a commonly used screening tool for depression. You get a score, and you'll have an answer to question 10. It doesn't not give you any diagnosis, but it's helpful for asking, "could this be depression?" or "could this be really bad depression?" At which point you should definitely see a doctor.
I've kept journals throughout my years with depression. I've found that really helpful. sometimes just trying to figure out how to explain what's going on in your life can give you those "ah-ha" moments. Like if you hang out with some friend a lot, and every time you do, the next day you're writing about how you feel worse, maybe you shouldn't hang out with that person?
You can have ADHD AND depression, YuriLowell. If your physician isn't really helping, you should probably see someone else. Some family docs get really stuck on some theme - like weight loss solves everything, or everyone just needs to drink more water, or...something. Surprisingly, not all doctors "believe" in depression, or think it's a cop-out or something. It sucks, but there you go.
You certainly have a lot of sources of stress in your life right now. It might help to talk to someone - psychologist, therapist, whatever - to see if you can get a better handle on things. I'd be stressed out if I were you, too. And that could easily push ME into depression. Try the PHQ-9 and see if it sounds like depression. In any event, it sounds like you've got a lot going on. I try and enlist some help to keep yourself healthy.
