Doesn't that kind of imply that I'm doomed to Hell? To avoid Hell, I'd have to love God, which I can't. For starters, I don't even think that this god exists in any fashion except the minds of believers. And second, even if I did, his character is awful. He's a demonstrably evil bully whose doesn't behave according to the attributes he touts - making him a hypocrite - and expects me to be happy (or forcefully ignorant) that billions suffer in Hell.
Do you honestly believe I can just decide to love someone like that? Would I even want to? Just to save my own skin? That's the height of selfishness. I can't do that.
I'm more moral than your god, and I bet you are, too.
People often say "why God won't physically show himself and prove once and for all that he exists" and use it as a proof that God doesn't exist, because surely he as a maximally great being could, should and would do that.
But I think that what you wrote demonstrates at least one reason that's not going to happen. It would be very likely that when suddenly encountered by God, lots of people probably wouldn't be happy at all with it. That's why our walk with God should be based on faith. The trust in God should come from a very deep place from within. Otherwise the first thing we would do is to accuse God of being a dick to us, to who we love and to the rest of the people. Like for example I could imagine myself claiming him to be petty if he's not ok with me lusting over women. I would say it's not hurting anyone and it feels good to me. Then I would probably say he's responsible for my lust anyway since he made me the way I am, and as I've been overly sexual at least from when I was only six years old, then how I'm supposed to suppress a thing I've lived with ever since I was a little boy. And in the end all I'm doing is trying to create my own rules and telling excuses.
And if it turns out that he has rejected someone who I've thought had been a wonderful person for their whole life, I might say God is wrong because I knew that person better. Why would he be a dick to someone who I liked? Who
I liked! Plus, he's a genocidal tyrant anyways, so I'm right. Right?
I'm in love with my ego so much that a sudden encounter with God might not be good to me at all. It may be that being able to come in terms with God through more philosophic angle is better for me. And even then, encountering God could be an awkward situation because even when I might think God is now ok with me, it might turn out he'll point out all the hypocrisy and stubborness there still is within me and I might get angry because of it. The only thing I really can count in is that even though God might be very pleased with some aspects of my life (like I'm generally trying to be kind towards people), he probably still has plenty of or at least some issues with me. Because who am I to say "yeah you are right in that I'm a kind person but you are wrong in where you think I'm not good?" As if the ultimate reality beyond our physical lives is based on what we think is the most comfortable thing right at this moment. There needs to be this certain type of humbleness and acceptance of an authority (which I admit always seems to sting my ego a bit) which I think is hard to come by in any other way than through a faith-based understanding of God.
It's easy to call out God for things we think are not fair, but what if we'd have the power of God? Things would go astray the day this new God-person would have his first day of feeling extreme sense of anger, sadness, lust, hate etc. Sure we are all nice people when we are nice, but I'm sure there are not one person who hasn't had a day when he's done something that he's regretted a ton later. Or not even regretted but just done something very bad. And in the context of being a God without the need to physically go and physically do those things, but where a mere thought is enough to cause your will to happen, how many times we have thought bad things? At the very least we'd have restricted the free will of people during the days we feel good, as we'd probably stop someone doing something we think is bad. How far would we go in restricting the free will?
I think that if we expect God to show himself for us to believe in him, we should expect us to throw a tantrum at him and reject him because we generally seem to believe we are better than him. So, it's better for God to reveal himself in a different way. Or, to say it better, it's better for
us to have God revealing himself in a different way. Otherwise we would more likely follow our egos and make ourselves be detached from God forever.
And to be on topic, I think that is what Satan is. Satan is our ego thinking he's too big and shiny to stay in his place, not understanding it is a logical impossibility to take the place of God and not understanding what separation from God really means.