Zurick
Banned
Hey guys. My grandfather passed this week. Friday morning. I'm doing the best I can with what little time I have to get this done and I'm short $2500 at the moment. I got a little under 20 hours to get this finished and the cash isn't the problem. It's the sudden requirement for a larger sum of cash in a short amount of time. I started a GoFundMe and it's been going well. It's why I'm only $2500 down now. I don't like to ask people for money but for my grandfather I have zero pride. He was both my best friend and father.
He was like a father, and my best friend and I had my head so far up my ass for so long that I didn't help push him towards this sort of stuff. When I finally pulled it out, and started to do my end I didn't want to do this because I thought that by doing it I would make it inevitable which is completely irrational since I'm not even superstitious. I didn't want to make it real. He was doing great a month ago and if you would have asked me then I felt I had years left with him. I didn't. I found out yesterday that he was dealing with cancer on his kidneys, lungs, brain and heart. I can't even imagine the pain he was hiding from me on a daily basis and looking back the signs were there. He even hid it from his doctor. He had a strength that I'll just never have. He did so much out of love and strength that it's not possible for me to measure up to him. I feel selfish since he was in his 90s, but I still just wanted and still want more time with him. He never asked me for anything in life except to be buried with his wife and I'm trying to do that. I feel like I'm a failure right now and I know it's not all on me but if I didn't spent so much time on WoW I could have handled this with him a lot sooner.
Now I sit here typing this, exhausting all of my resources and now I'm trying to lean on the gaming community that has helped me through so much in my life mentally. When Gazillion closed and I was laid off from Marvel Heroes on Thanksgiving I didn't know what was next and I did what I usually do by putting myself in a corner and pretending things were ok but he was there to pull me out of the dumps and I returned it by driving for lyft/uber so I could be there for when he needed me and the longer he was looking fine the more comfortable I got that he would be around until 100. He believed it. I believed it. It didn't happen. It felt sudden to me. It feels sudden to me. He was hospitalized at the start of this month with Pneumonia and he was released. He beat it but they found a mass on his lungs then. They didn't want to do a biopsy because of his age so they got him back on his feet and he came home fine and dandy. Monday he went back in. This time into ICU and I knew something was off. Over the next few days they said he was improving and they were optimistic. They moved him out of ICU feeling he was fine, and he gave them a thumbs up. That night he lost all brain functions and slipped away around 6am EST. I got the call during my first job of the day and I never felt emotions like I have right now still. I just want to honor his last wishes, and I wish you guys could have met him. He was truly a remarkable person.
https://www.gofundme.com/f/qp4y8-bury-my-grandfather
Even if you can't contribute financially, sharing this would be huge.
Thanks.
He was like a father, and my best friend and I had my head so far up my ass for so long that I didn't help push him towards this sort of stuff. When I finally pulled it out, and started to do my end I didn't want to do this because I thought that by doing it I would make it inevitable which is completely irrational since I'm not even superstitious. I didn't want to make it real. He was doing great a month ago and if you would have asked me then I felt I had years left with him. I didn't. I found out yesterday that he was dealing with cancer on his kidneys, lungs, brain and heart. I can't even imagine the pain he was hiding from me on a daily basis and looking back the signs were there. He even hid it from his doctor. He had a strength that I'll just never have. He did so much out of love and strength that it's not possible for me to measure up to him. I feel selfish since he was in his 90s, but I still just wanted and still want more time with him. He never asked me for anything in life except to be buried with his wife and I'm trying to do that. I feel like I'm a failure right now and I know it's not all on me but if I didn't spent so much time on WoW I could have handled this with him a lot sooner.
Now I sit here typing this, exhausting all of my resources and now I'm trying to lean on the gaming community that has helped me through so much in my life mentally. When Gazillion closed and I was laid off from Marvel Heroes on Thanksgiving I didn't know what was next and I did what I usually do by putting myself in a corner and pretending things were ok but he was there to pull me out of the dumps and I returned it by driving for lyft/uber so I could be there for when he needed me and the longer he was looking fine the more comfortable I got that he would be around until 100. He believed it. I believed it. It didn't happen. It felt sudden to me. It feels sudden to me. He was hospitalized at the start of this month with Pneumonia and he was released. He beat it but they found a mass on his lungs then. They didn't want to do a biopsy because of his age so they got him back on his feet and he came home fine and dandy. Monday he went back in. This time into ICU and I knew something was off. Over the next few days they said he was improving and they were optimistic. They moved him out of ICU feeling he was fine, and he gave them a thumbs up. That night he lost all brain functions and slipped away around 6am EST. I got the call during my first job of the day and I never felt emotions like I have right now still. I just want to honor his last wishes, and I wish you guys could have met him. He was truly a remarkable person.
https://www.gofundme.com/f/qp4y8-bury-my-grandfather
Even if you can't contribute financially, sharing this would be huge.
Thanks.
I am absolutely not doing this to whomever I leave behind. I'm ok with being given to science and will be taking steps to get that done.
