I have nobody to really talk too. I'm in my mid 20's and I'm a loser, a dead beat self centered loser. I'm not a neckbeard, I have friends, no I'm worse. I was booted from my home with my parents because I refused to pay rent and treated them like dirt. I refused to get a real job (i worked at Walmart for many years, only overnight though) and treated everyone like they owed me something.
I found a rat-hole apartment and a roommate who I sometimes get high with. For the past 2 1/2 years I've been lieing to my parents about what I'm doing, I tell them I was promoted to Manager at Walmart (I was fired for coming to work high) and I was getting my life in order and all I needed was some "help". Took me a bit, and a ton of pleading, but, my family took the bait hook line and sinker. I used that extra income to buy cigs and booze, and I leeched off welfare.
I really don't know why I said it, but, maybe I felt I did have a human heart after all. My sister is in College. She's overwhelmed with balancing school and work. She has no free-time, and no energy, and no money. She told me she wanted to get me something big for X-mas because "i know you're working hard". I kinda felt guilty, so I offered to my family (she doesn't know) to get her a surface. She'd been talking about it for awhile and my parents thought it was an excellent suggestion.
None of us could afford it. So we pitched in. They gave me the money and I would buy it and hide it till X-mas. I decided to not buy a Surface right away. Instead I used that money to go drinking with friends and ended up with a DUI and a fine. I kinda regret it, no, I really do because I know she's going to be heart broken and damnit X-mas is going to be a bad time.
Not so much a confession as advice help. I earnestly regret what I did, but, i can't come clean because if my parents find out what I did and how I've lied to them for so long, well y'know I won't have any family to talk too anymore.