I went to the University of Maryland, for Electrical Engineering.
So one kinda awful thing I did awhile back.
I got into a relationship with a guy, and he was cool. I was into him, but he was fucking head over heels over me. Always telling me how beautiful I was, how amazing and brave I was for doing what I do(this was when I was doing Individual Augmentee missions and deploying to Iraq), he always treated me super great. Cooking, surprises, just wonderful. I enjoyed this a lot, I lied, said I love you to him a bunch of times. Really I just loved being fawned over like that. He talked about marriage and kids a lot, and I always tried to change the conversation. I was perfect to him, so I intentionally became unperfect. I tried being a major bitch and he just chalked it up to stress. I went out drinking all the time, he didn't care. I tried "cutting him off", he was fine with it. So I lied to him and said I had been cheating on him to get him to leave me alone.
The really shitty thing is that less than 2 years later I was pregnant from an actual random hook up from a guy who has made no effort to be around his daughter and signed away all of his rights.