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The Most Sorrow You've Ever Felt

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I've been living in it for about 3 months straight, December till the end of February. Easily the worst time in my life, no question. Elaborating would be a huge uninteresting wall of text, though, so I'll just say I had a really bad time in the army. Now it's a lot better thankfully.

Really in any such period, whether it's a second or months, it'll end eventually. That's all there is to it.
 
Probably when one of my friends threw a major league baseball at a mentally challenged kid and busted his lip open. He then proceeded to laugh about what he had just done.

That shit fucked me up. A lot of conflicting emotions stirred inside me when that went down... but I mostly just felt like a piece of shit for not really doing anything.
 
Einbroch said:
Dad dying when I was 17.
This. The only thing that helped was expecting his death and crying it out every other night for a few weeks/months in advance. As time goes by I still get so sad whenever I realize how much I'm missing him.

Also some stupid self esteem and autophobia issues, I need to man up as they are baseless and meaningless for the most part.
 
Mista Koo said:
This. The only thing that helped was expecting his death and crying it out every other night for a few weeks/months in advance. As time goes by I still get so sad whenever I realize how much I'm missing him.

Also some stupid self esteem and autophobia issues, I need to man up as they are baseless and meaningless for the most part.
Sadly it was probably better that my dad died when he did. Fucked up as that may be to say. His alcoholism was spiraling out of control even by his standards and he was inching closer and closer to physical abuse instead of just the psychological.
 
Nothing really major yet, but I've been depressed for so long I can't imagine how I'd deal with something like the death of a family member or my best friend. Don't know if I'd be able to take it.
 
Going through it now, and trying to cope. The wife left me after almost 8 years together. Came out of nowhere, she had some kind of nervous breakdown and seems to be suffering from depression... holding so much within her about things as well as a big history of emotional family problems from before we met have haunted her for a long time. She also recently underwent some health crisis that freaked her out big time and she never was the same after.... so she just decided she had to leave and basically packed up a bag and wanted to leave with nothing to live alone away from everyone she knew and no family nearby.

We keep in contact, she is working a simple job in another state and we decided to stay married for now while she takes some time to try and work things out.... but it's so hard. I love her dearly and have been for months trying to work with her and help her do what she has to, to make herself feel better. I just don't know what is going to happen but it's hard to be in our big ol home now alone after so long with her.

I try to keep myself busy to help try and get my mind off of her because I miss her, and worry so much about her current well being. I spend time with my hobbies more and also hanging out with friends as much as I possibly can.
 
23 years old and I finally had some decent income and met a wonderful girl that I still swear to this day was my soul mate.

She fell pregnant after we dated for about 9 months and I was over the moon! I was living the dream...

Got a phone call one night at around 11pm. It was her father calling to say that she had died instantly in a head on collision with a drunk driver.

Cue: 14 years of drug abuse and emotional retardation as my way of coping.

Doing alright these days though. Time does heal all wounds. That's probably the only (albeit corny) advice that I can give.
 
My Dad who I was close with died of a heart attack and 2 months later my older brother who was my one of my best friends and I looked up to like crazy died in a car crash. Worse fucking time of my life. This was 2 1/2 years ago.

What I did to deal with it? Got really pissed and hated the universe. Did a lot of talking with family and friends to deal with the grief. Sucked it up and handled it the best I could to be there for my family and my niece. It's corny as hell but time does help and even though I miss them both like crazy the grief and pain has mostly gone away. Came to the conclusion that if there is any fairness in this bonkers fucking reality we live in I'll see them again in some sort of afterlife, if not, well then I guess I'll just deal with that too.
 
I've been fortunate enough to not have anything terrible happen to me yet.

However, the thing that probably got me the most was when my best friend's father passed away after a long battle with leukemia. We came home to an answering machine message telling us that he had finally lost the battle, and it broke me. I was more upset for my friend than for his father, but it got me really bad. We were probably about 11 around the time.
 
So far, I haven't had to deal with an unexpected death of someone close to me, so I'm grateful for that. Though with my brother having just joined the Marines, that possibility has become more real.

I guess the worst feeling I've had is a recent one. I got my grades back from my first year of college, and saw that I almost flunked out of Georgia Tech. I'm currently on academic probation. It's completely my fault (laziness), but if I don't get my shit straight, then I'm really gonna feel bad for years to come.
 
Losing my very close uncle to cancer, he was the pinnacle of great health and was the smartest guy I knew. Watching him go from healthy to laying in a coma on a hospital bed broke my heart.
 
Heh, now you may consider me silly after reading this story, but this is the one point in my life where I felt the stupidest and saddest. It's one of those things which literally had no repercussions whatsoever in my life but would the first stop if I ever got a time machine.

Context: I was young, 12-13ish probably. I leave by the seaside and I used to collect dead sea urchins. I collected all sorts of shells but sea urchins were my favourite. They're pretty and I had hundreds of them:

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Now the big ones are fine and all that, but I loved me the small baby urchins. I had managed to find myself a few which were a few 3-5mm across, and I used to keep them in a little treasure chest which I had got from a Kinder Surprise.

Then, some time later, I found a secret! Underwater where I used to dive for them, there was a small sandy patch amidst all the rocky seafloor, and I used to find lots of these shells in there. One time I just dived in, and got me a random fist of sand and dirt, took it up to land and I, luckily, had found a tiny little sea urchin in there! Yay! Repeat process 3-4 times and I stumbled upon my prize. A small sea urchin, which was, I kid you not, less than 1mm wide. It looked exactly like a green/hollow piece of sand. Holy shit, this was instantaneously my most prized possession, together with 2 or 3 slightly (millimetrically) larger shells. So those go on some cotton balls in the aforementioned treasure chest, to be displayed proudly in my collection.

Fast forward a couple of weeks, and I realized I had a microscope somewhere (I've always loved science). Long story short, urchin goes under microscope and I crush the damn thing with the microscope itself while I'm focusing. I've never felt so stupid in my life.
 
When my older sister died in a car accident when I was 12.

When I was diagnosed with a disease that will be with me for the rest of my life at 15.

When my older brother died in a freak accident when I was 17.

In 2008 when I had to drop out of college because of my disease and will probably never finish.
 
The day my son was born and we were told he had serious heart problems. I don't cry but I could feel it welling up and I had to get out of the hospital, spent the afternoon with my family but I can't recall a thing that was said, it was such a blur.

9 years and 3 big operations later, he's doing quite well but I'm the one who has to be strong, to carry him down to theatre each time, support my partner and reassure my family.

Should the worst happen one day, as selfish as it is, I would go home and OD.
 
josephdebono said:
Fast forward a couple of weeks, and I realized I had a microscope somewhere (I've always loved science). Long story short, urchin goes under microscope and I crush the damn thing with the microscope itself while I'm focusing. I've never felt so stupid in my life.


I like you. This is quite a unique story of sorrow.
 
When my life hit rock bottom about two and a half years ago. I had lost my fiancee to another man, I was drowning in debt, I wrecked my car, my grandmother died of cancer, and my best friend Willow (my cat of 14 years) died. All of that happened in the same month. I lost it. I started drinking about a bottle of wine a day, I didn't shower, I called in sick to work a lot. It took me a good few months to get back on my feet.
 
I was 13 and my half-brother shot him self. He was older and more of a father to me than my actually dad was. I felt a lot of guilt because it. I replayed everything I did with him, everything I didn't do with him and all the times I was a piece of shit little kid. " I could have done this, I shouldn't have done that" All those things I thought would change him deciding to do it. I know now nothing would have but at that time I really thought it was partially my fault. I honestly dont remember how I dealt with it. I was basically numb until my 2 year of college. It gets better with time. Its the only advice I have.
 
Thunder Monkey said:
Sadly it was probably better that my dad died when he did. Fucked up as that may be to say. His alcoholism was spiraling out of control even by his standards and he was inching closer and closer to physical abuse instead of just the psychological.
In my case it was probably better for him too, he was bed-ridden for the better half of the couple last years of his life due to him being a chain smoker for decades. To this day I still loathe the sight and smell of cigarettes.

pubba said:
23 years old and I finally had some decent income and met a wonderful girl that I still swear to this day was my soul mate.

She fell pregnant after we dated for about 9 months and I was over the moon! I was living the dream...

Got a phone call one night at around 11pm. It was her father calling to say that she had died instantly in a head on collision with a drunk driver.

Cue: 14 years of drug abuse and emotional retardation as my way of coping.

Doing alright these days though. Time does heal all wounds. That's probably the only (albeit corny) advice that I can give.
You've just made me realize how insignificant most of my worries are.
 
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