So umm, i don't know if this count as rape or not, but it's definitely a sexual assault.
It's happen during my college year, around 2006. Near my living place, there's a mosque (yeah, i'm a muslim). There's a guy who live there, taking care of mosque, patrolling the neighbourhood, reminding someone not to get drunk. Basically, all around good guy at first glance. Let's call him Mr. M
I usually come to the mosque, hanging around, talking with my friend who join the organization. He was there, and he usually pretty cummy to everyone.
Once, i was tasked by my friend in magazine to interview him to use as one of the feature in our magazine since he is quite famous (I was a writer in my uni). So i interview him. We talk about his activity, about all the good thing, about him doing his job to keep the place free.
After the interview done, a security guard come to me, and tell me to be careful and don't be alone with him at dark room. At the time, i didn't really understand what he mean by that.
So, later on,maybe a week or two, i was coming home late from campus activity. I come to the mosque to pray, and i meet him, Mr. M.
So, we talk a bit, and he comment about my glasses (thick glasses). Saying that he know a good massage technique to help my eye getting better.
I accept his offer. Nothing wrong with a massage after all. So first, he start on my shoulder, arm. It was okay. Then he start going down into my groin area.
I was baffled, panic. I try to push him, but he said, it's okay, okay.
He make me lie down, while he keep massaging my penis. He sit above me and probably spitting on me or something. I don't know. I was closing my eye at the moment. I cannot open my eye, my mind cannot process the whole thing. I feel something wet on my eye. I feel sick. He keep doing it until i ejaculate in my pants. it was embarassing.
After that, he ask me if my eye getting better. I ask him why he did that to me. He said that it's all in good intention, and that i shouldn't be thinking dirty when he massage me. I get away from that place, and take a long shower.
I feel dirty.
I told the story to my parent and friend, though i only told them that he suddenly grab my dick. I never told him that he massage me a long time till i ejaculate.
Sometime, i still meet him at street. Sometime i wonder if i should report it. But i have no proof, and i don't the the cops or any other authorities going to listen to me anyway.
Been thinking of punching him or expose his act to a guy of him if i ever meet him again. Fuck, maybe i should punch him. Probably going to close that chapter in my life. I probably won't need to feel shitty about it if i punch him.
