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Well, looks like I have cancer.
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I can understand why you're experiencing so many conflicting emotions. When you've been suffering for an extended period of time, a life-threatening illness can almost seem like a relief. It has the potential of letting you off the hook.
I don't have any answers there but I hope you're able to find some sense of peace in your life, some purpose.
I don't have any answers there but I hope you're able to find some sense of peace in your life, some purpose.
Ah, it's good you were in the all clear! Different doctors have different ideas is what they should tell people, but, imo doctors probably should have kept it a bit more under their hat in this case...
It's funny, my primary care doctor (who's internship was in oncology) who picked up my cancer, he told me straight up as soon as he got results that I had lymphoma, and told me where my lumps were. I'm a medical science student so he often tells me the full picture. My haematologist, the first day I met her, told me that it could also be sarcoma and to not panic about cancer yet until my biopsy results came in, and only talked about the one lump that was poking out of my neck. I remember feeling really talked down to that time but, I know she was trying to calm me down while we went through the biopsy/diagnosis stage (and, she didn't know my background of study/what my primary care doctor had told me)
It's funny, my primary care doctor (who's internship was in oncology) who picked up my cancer, he told me straight up as soon as he got results that I had lymphoma, and told me where my lumps were. I'm a medical science student so he often tells me the full picture. My haematologist, the first day I met her, told me that it could also be sarcoma and to not panic about cancer yet until my biopsy results came in, and only talked about the one lump that was poking out of my neck. I remember feeling really talked down to that time but, I know she was trying to calm me down while we went through the biopsy/diagnosis stage (and, she didn't know my background of study/what my primary care doctor had told me)
Well, they kinda did.
When you tell someone to 'get their affairs in order' you're clearly expecting a certain result from the biopsy.
tryptobphan
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Like the rest of NeoGaf, I just want to echo my sentiments and sympathy to you and your family. I'm glad I read this update, but I don't know what to make of it. I hope the doctors are able to determine why your health is degrading and possibly find a way to help you.
How long have you been on NeoGaf? I rarely post, but I just wanted to come out of my "lurker" mode to wish you luck and hopefully good news will come to you and your family.
Those damn doctors and their Kojima ruse.
Seriously though, I'm glad to hear things aren't as dire as predicted. I only just saw this thread today but I've followed your posts in the mental health OT and have been rooting for you all the way. I hope you're able to determine what is making you ill soon and get to work on crushing it.
I'll definitely pick up your book too!
Seriously though, I'm glad to hear things aren't as dire as predicted. I only just saw this thread today but I've followed your posts in the mental health OT and have been rooting for you all the way. I hope you're able to determine what is making you ill soon and get to work on crushing it.
I'll definitely pick up your book too!
Jo Shishido's Cheeks
Member
Still want to read your book OP, get cracking!
Oveja Negra
Member
Wow, I'm glad it's not cancer, dude.
I would be pissed as hell too if a doc tells me something like that without being 100% sure about the diagnostic.
Great news, anyways
I would be pissed as hell too if a doc tells me something like that without being 100% sure about the diagnostic.
Great news, anyways
Otakumegane
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You should still make regular trips if you believe to be at high risk.
timetokill
Banned
Dude...
Sounds like you BEAT CANCER SO BAD IT'S LIKE IT NEVER EXISTED WOOOOOOO
Seriously though I'm glad to hear you don't have it, as seeing this thread come up again had be worried. But hopefully they'll figure out what it is.
Sounds like you BEAT CANCER SO BAD IT'S LIKE IT NEVER EXISTED WOOOOOOO
Seriously though I'm glad to hear you don't have it, as seeing this thread come up again had be worried. But hopefully they'll figure out what it is.
RoyaleDuke
Banned
To everyone reading the update, and giving me their well wishes, pledging to buy my book(once it releases, should I make a progress thread?), and genuinely expressing relief at my recent news.
Thank you to everyone who has said so many kind things, I am pretty much going things alone here and things are complex between my family and I.
GAF has been there through so much of the rougher spots of my life, and to see the community come forward like this, to have people reach out to me through private messaging and steam...
Thank you.
God Bless you, and God bless Evilore and all the hard working moderators of this community.
I will remember this forever.
Damn dude, I'm glad you are okay, they did tell me I wouldn't have to get another endoscopy and colonoscopy until I'm 50 most likely.
Thank you so much, Alienous. I remember you from the MGSV and MGS gaf threads.
I am too, drinking some beers at the moment.
Trojita, my secret favorite poster and doge.
You get a signed copy for free. <3 Along with most if not all of the people here.
I know right, if I was an extremely petty person, I'd be super butthurt.
I was just thinking of that episode too. I love Archer.
LANAAAAAAA.
I hope they find out what is wrong too, I'd like to be able to eat regular food.
You are so baller you drink milfs, not milk, not alcohol.
Milfs.
Spare a glass homie damn, I've never had sex and I'm thirsty.
Thank you to everyone who has said so many kind things, I am pretty much going things alone here and things are complex between my family and I.
GAF has been there through so much of the rougher spots of my life, and to see the community come forward like this, to have people reach out to me through private messaging and steam...
Thank you.
God Bless you, and God bless Evilore and all the hard working moderators of this community.
I will remember this forever.
Damn dude, I'm glad you are okay, they did tell me I wouldn't have to get another endoscopy and colonoscopy until I'm 50 most likely.
Thank you so much, Alienous. I remember you from the MGSV and MGS gaf threads.
Wow. I'm so glad you don't have cancer.
I am too, drinking some beers at the moment.
Trojita, my secret favorite poster and doge.
Dawg will always be my doge. <3 Thanks though Trojita.
You get a signed copy for free. <3 Along with most if not all of the people here.
I know right, if I was an extremely petty person, I'd be super butthurt.
I was just thinking of that episode too. I love Archer.
LANAAAAAAA.
Dangerzone.
I hope they find out what is wrong too, I'd like to be able to eat regular food.
You are so baller you drink milfs, not milk, not alcohol.
Milfs.
Spare a glass homie damn, I've never had sex and I'm thirsty.
Thanks buddy, <3.
lunchtoast
Member
That reminds me when my dad went to the doctor due to losing strength in his legs. Just starting with the basic checkups the tech says it might be lou gehrig's disease (it wasn't). Why would you tell someone the worst outcome when the testing hasn't even started yet? I was so upset when they told me this.
Disheveled_Zen
Member
Glad the tests came back negative, that must of been a great relief to you. Keep pressing on with life. Science gets better by the day and hopefully soon they can figure out what else is keeping you sick.
ShadowKingpin
Member
We are all here for you, brother. I am truly sorry to hear about what you are going through and hope like hell you win.
Edit: Sorry I got to this late. My Internet keeps going in and out, so I didn't get to change my post in time. I am so happy to hear that you are Cancer-free!!!
Edit: Sorry I got to this late. My Internet keeps going in and out, so I didn't get to change my post in time. I am so happy to hear that you are Cancer-free!!!
BladeoftheImmortal
Member
Finish your book, still.
Englebert3rd
Unconfirmed Member
That's great new, OP!
My question is how is your diet? What do you normally eat? It could be that it's an allergic reaction to something.
My question is how is your diet? What do you normally eat? It could be that it's an allergic reaction to something.
Always-honest
Banned
Very happy to hear that. Congrats.
That's why i asked when you would get the results.
Having cancer and getting treatment is in no way any fun.
Best to wait until the results are in.
Enjoy, life is short anyway.
Felt apprehension about what the latest news would be when clicking back on this thread but it turns out to be good news! On the whole, at least. It blows that you're still ill, and I hope the docs are able to get on that shit pronto, but it's a major step up from cancer.
Really happy for ya, man.
Really happy for ya, man.
Raiden1018
Banned
Thank God...
This thread was so sad for me lol
Man, I don't know you, but I'm so glad you got those great news.
Hope you use that shitty experience to make the most of your life.
RoyaleDuke
Banned
So another update 11/09/2016, things are getting really interesting.
I found out that my mental health is getting worse, so basically one day I will wake up and either not remember who I am, what version of me that I am, or the person that I actually am.
So far my mental case is so complex, that they haven't really given me too many labels officially, even though the notes and everything for the last 2-3 years is there, therapist changes, psychiatry not working, and an extremely unhelpful psychologist later I still don't have a proper diagnosis beyond a litany of labels that no one will confirm or deny.
My Systemic RA is slowly being leaned on as the culprit for me being sick but I won't know since medicaid refuses to pay for Rheumatologists and some important Radioactive die tests I need to take for my stomach and bowels. At the rate it is going, they estimate 4 years maybe less, possibly more but in excruciating pain.
My esophogus is partially eroded which sucks, but with tons of medication that increase my risk of having heart issues by an astronomical amount it might heal somewhat.
The only other news is that I am on the road to potentially getting Disability and SSI, but I am not hopeful they will accept me so I will probably have to figure out a way to fight that too.
So TL;DR I'm sick and getting sicker and medicaid and this fucked up country aren't gonna help me get better.
Either way, I made a thread for my novel.
I found out that my mental health is getting worse, so basically one day I will wake up and either not remember who I am, what version of me that I am, or the person that I actually am.
So far my mental case is so complex, that they haven't really given me too many labels officially, even though the notes and everything for the last 2-3 years is there, therapist changes, psychiatry not working, and an extremely unhelpful psychologist later I still don't have a proper diagnosis beyond a litany of labels that no one will confirm or deny.
My Systemic RA is slowly being leaned on as the culprit for me being sick but I won't know since medicaid refuses to pay for Rheumatologists and some important Radioactive die tests I need to take for my stomach and bowels. At the rate it is going, they estimate 4 years maybe less, possibly more but in excruciating pain.
My esophogus is partially eroded which sucks, but with tons of medication that increase my risk of having heart issues by an astronomical amount it might heal somewhat.
The only other news is that I am on the road to potentially getting Disability and SSI, but I am not hopeful they will accept me so I will probably have to figure out a way to fight that too.
So TL;DR I'm sick and getting sicker and medicaid and this fucked up country aren't gonna help me get better.
Either way, I made a thread for my novel.
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