I'm sure psychologist you're seeing has already told you but hiding from social interactions can get you into a really horrible loop of a negative self-fulfilling prophecy. Stopping that stupid cycle is the most important thing. I feel like I was able to break the loop with the help of a few different things.
- regular support from a kind psychologist. If the one you're seeing isn't helping, maybe the two of you aren't clicking right and you should try seeing someone else.
- starting small. Social occasions seem horrible because you think they will be, and remember them as being horrible, and freaking out about how horrible they will be just makes you more anxious and the event seem more horrible. If you start getting positive experiences at small social occasions your brain will be less prone to automatically freaking out at the next occasion. I recommend just doing stuff with people you trust and feel comfortable around, and slowly adding in more people. If your room mate brings a friend over, pull them into the group you and your room mate have rather than feeling like you are the one invading.
- Don't forget that you notice embarrassing social things you do way more than anyone else does. Those shaking hands, short breath and sweat? More than likely no one else has seen them. Try recording yourself on camera next time you are panicking and have a look.
- You can try things like progressive muscle relaxation and other meditation type activities to get yourself to relax and 'turn off' the fight or flight response.
- Sometimes it helps to try going into a new environment, where everyone else is new to the environment as well. I'm talking about a hobby group or something (In my case though I went on exchange). I'd recommend talking to your psychologist about this first though.
- It might help to try a different kind of medication.
- Whatever you do, don't use alcohol as a dumb crutch. It will continue to be a crutch and you'll not really be getting over the anxiety issues at all. You can do it by just being you, I swear.
Good luck!
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I used to be afraid of going to social events, and then having panic attacks at home thinking I was missing out. I'd have panic attacks at social events and failed my driving test twice due to the same problem (I was terrified of being tested by a stranger). It's not impossible to get out!