GAF I'm so pissed at myself.
A few days ago I was feeling like forever-alone-GAF and was thinking with the wrong head. So I decided to text my ex-gf who I hadn't talked to in like years to say hi.
Turns out she's still totally into me and we decided to hang out tonight. Now I'm thinking clearly again and realize that I'm being stupid and don't want to be with her.
However, I can't just cancel the plans last-minute like this since that would be pretty cold. And she's not a bad person and doesn't deserve that or anything, she's just not the type that I'm interested in dating. Now I think I've given her false-hopes into dating me and ugh this sucks. So that's my answer, that's how I'm spending NYE. With a girl who I don't really wanna be with.
I've been walking around all day just like "FFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUU".
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