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OK. I've been doing coke for years. Every night, it leaves me feeling like there was a record-high pollen count the previous night (I already have bad allergies), but it has always been worth it.
Now, I'm not sure. OK, morning showers typically are made up of me blowing my nose and coming up with bloody palms. I've become accustomed to that. But recently, I haven't even enjoyed the weekends.
Sometimes I buy the coke, sometimes I don't. I always contribute my stuff on the weed and alcohol pot, just like everybody else that's a regular, but the coke is something that is there or it isn't. Meaning, if one guy doesn't have it, nobody does. Meaning more specifically, at least lately, if I don't have it, nobody does.
Personally, I find coke to be a very subjective drug. I know a lot of people say it's the greatest thing ever regardless of the situation, but I find that, in practice, what you get out of coke depends greatly on the state of mind you're in when you do it. When you're feeling used, doing coke is more of a detriment than being sober.
But I can't help but feel that all of this might be subjective. I can't sleep. I'm in agony, and I'm dead tired, but I can't possibly sleep with all of these mixed emotions in my head.
Is there a way to view it from the standpoint that I'm not being used? These guys are all good friends, but they haven't chipped in on the coke in half a year. However, they do chip in on everything else.
Am I perhaps being paranoid, and just neglecting that coke may be the lowest priority for everyone but me?
Now, I'm not sure. OK, morning showers typically are made up of me blowing my nose and coming up with bloody palms. I've become accustomed to that. But recently, I haven't even enjoyed the weekends.
Sometimes I buy the coke, sometimes I don't. I always contribute my stuff on the weed and alcohol pot, just like everybody else that's a regular, but the coke is something that is there or it isn't. Meaning, if one guy doesn't have it, nobody does. Meaning more specifically, at least lately, if I don't have it, nobody does.
Personally, I find coke to be a very subjective drug. I know a lot of people say it's the greatest thing ever regardless of the situation, but I find that, in practice, what you get out of coke depends greatly on the state of mind you're in when you do it. When you're feeling used, doing coke is more of a detriment than being sober.
But I can't help but feel that all of this might be subjective. I can't sleep. I'm in agony, and I'm dead tired, but I can't possibly sleep with all of these mixed emotions in my head.
Is there a way to view it from the standpoint that I'm not being used? These guys are all good friends, but they haven't chipped in on the coke in half a year. However, they do chip in on everything else.
Am I perhaps being paranoid, and just neglecting that coke may be the lowest priority for everyone but me?