Anyone else on antidepressants? I got diagnosed with major depression a few days ago, and got given meds. Was told I've had it since I was a kid (not surprised), but it's kind of funny that I only went to the doctor for stomach issues, and then came out with a prescription for antidepressants (well, the stomach stuff, too). I guess I'm thankful he noticed and started asking me a bunch of questions.
I'm actually very surprised how they've already made everything seem just a smidge brighter, like I have it in me to actually be able to do things I want to do. Hell, I even cleaned my room and read. I even sat down to start writing. Small, but a huge deal for me.
I've basically been living like a slob because I just didn't have the energy (or will) to do anything, at least until it got extremely inconvenient (strange smells, no more room to walk, no more place to leave dishes, etc). That stuff was easy to get away with because I'm mostly a shut-in. I always joke I'll be one of those deaths that doesn't get discovered until months later.
Most of my recent years have been me just existing, my thoughts eating away at my time unless I numbed them with video games or Netflix. But they started to affect that, too. Sometimes I'd even have days where my mind was nothing but a chain reaction of daydreams haunted by regrets, and an eventual crash where I'm just reminded how much of a failure I actually am. You know, fun stuff. Felt like each thought was an hour, then the whole day would be gone, or it'd be morning. Time and dates blurred together for me.
But, yeah, it's going to be five days soon since the diagnosis/pill, and I haven't had a bad thought since then. I'm... really impressed. I hope it lasts, but I have no point of reference to know what to expect. I don't expect the world, obviously, but pessimist me has been happy with the results so far (My prescription was for three months to start with).
In other news, it's been about a month since I went vegetarian. It's been such an easy change that it's hard to believe it's been a month already. Feels like only yesterday that I said, "fuck it," after a terrible experience with a hamburger.
I think my favorite thing I made was eggplant lasagna. Ugh, my mouth is watering just thinking about how good it came out. If only it weren't such a pain to make because of our small oven, haha. Never even had eggplant before I decided to try making it into a lasagna. Glad I did!
I've also been making batches of tomato soup lately. So easy and filling, though I eat it with bolillos, heh. Kinda kills the healthiness of it, but whatever. Roasting the tomatoes and onion with s&p plus Cayenne pepper, and adding roasted garlic when blending... omg.
Roasting garlic is nirvana. Can't wait till I have to roast more just for that amazing smell that permeates the whole house.
Before this I had never had tomato soup. I know, I know. My mom refused to ever feed us canned soups, and the mentality just followed me. Plus, since we're Mexican, we just ate other kinds of soups. Tomato soup is super easy to avoid, too.
Anyway, I'm rambling. I left this post open for about two hours before deciding to hit post. No going back!
