Shantae
Banned
I am always struggling to keep my head above water it seems like...I'm still paying a loan I had to take in order to get some repairs on my car. Financially my life just sucks and there's always something new. But now, this new problem is just the worst, because it's not just a financial stress, but it really makes me uncomfortable, and I'm crying so much.
I hate bugs, just hate am so scared of them being too close to me. We confirmed last night that we had bed bugs for sure though in at least one of the rooms, and earlier this morning, we confirmed that my bed had them too. My family and I didn't realize we had them, but I feel like we should have noticed the signs sooner. At first I didn't think my room was infected, because I didn't notice any bites, at least... I didn't realize the itching i had on my ankle as caused by bites at first. This has been going on for weeks, so god knows how long we've had these fuckers in our house.
We hoped we could find some answers online on how to deal with this situation, but none of them sound pleasant, and it just stresses me out so much thinking we might have to endure this nightmare for weeks, even if we get an exterminator. That's the first thing every google result seems to tell me also, hire a professional. That leads back around to my mentioning the financial trouble I'm already in, and from what I keep being told, I'm looking at at least $1000 which is something I simply do not have.
I do even know where to begin with this madness...I feel like we made a mistake, because someone told us to get those mattresses out, because they were infested. Which is the first thing we did...I was not gonna sleep on that mattress after I saw what was crawling around the edge. We took the mattresses out front, and i threw away all my pillows. I don't trust any of that shit anymore. After that was out of my room, I started cleaning, and vacuuming around the room, and spraying bed bug spray. With the exception of seeing a bed bug on the wall before I looked at the mattress, I hadn't really seen them around other parts of the room, but it's also hard to tell cuz of the shitty carpet in our place. However, after I got the mattress out, I started unplugging all game systems, and removing wires around the edges of the wall hoping to expose dark corners that anything else could be nesting in and I haven't seen anything. Paged through books I had near my bed too, and just cleaned cleaned. We steamed parts of the floor, and sprayed bug spray all over the room.
Another thing that sucks though is reading online makes it sound like all of these things around wrong...that i'm not supposed to move things cuz it just causes them to find new hiding places...that im not supposed to try and sleep anywhere else because they'll just seek me out to bite me in where ever new i sleep. I have no idea what to do, or what order to do stuff in. It's stressing me out so much. Even after showing and wearing clean clothes, I'm constantly feeling that paranoid itchy feeling, when I'm mostly sure nothing's on me. I haven't slept in over a day, and I'm stressing out so much.
Bed bugs might not be as big a deal in the grand scheme of shitty things in life, but I am so uneasy around bugs, and knowing they've been around me all this time biting my ankles on my bed is just freaking me out. I need to get rid of them,but I'm afraid I don't have the means or ability to do so. I know this thread is just ripe for people to mock me, but I'm feeling so stressed, I can't stop crying. Always a new problem in my life, and I can never catch up with fixing the old ones. Probably doesn't help that I'm stuck at work right now on no sleep, and super uneasy about even returning home. Any procedure we do to get rid of them is gonna be hard to deal with because we have a cat who never leaves the house, and a puppy that the cat hates. Got no where else to stay if we have to leave the house for a few days.
I hate bugs, just hate am so scared of them being too close to me. We confirmed last night that we had bed bugs for sure though in at least one of the rooms, and earlier this morning, we confirmed that my bed had them too. My family and I didn't realize we had them, but I feel like we should have noticed the signs sooner. At first I didn't think my room was infected, because I didn't notice any bites, at least... I didn't realize the itching i had on my ankle as caused by bites at first. This has been going on for weeks, so god knows how long we've had these fuckers in our house.
We hoped we could find some answers online on how to deal with this situation, but none of them sound pleasant, and it just stresses me out so much thinking we might have to endure this nightmare for weeks, even if we get an exterminator. That's the first thing every google result seems to tell me also, hire a professional. That leads back around to my mentioning the financial trouble I'm already in, and from what I keep being told, I'm looking at at least $1000 which is something I simply do not have.
I do even know where to begin with this madness...I feel like we made a mistake, because someone told us to get those mattresses out, because they were infested. Which is the first thing we did...I was not gonna sleep on that mattress after I saw what was crawling around the edge. We took the mattresses out front, and i threw away all my pillows. I don't trust any of that shit anymore. After that was out of my room, I started cleaning, and vacuuming around the room, and spraying bed bug spray. With the exception of seeing a bed bug on the wall before I looked at the mattress, I hadn't really seen them around other parts of the room, but it's also hard to tell cuz of the shitty carpet in our place. However, after I got the mattress out, I started unplugging all game systems, and removing wires around the edges of the wall hoping to expose dark corners that anything else could be nesting in and I haven't seen anything. Paged through books I had near my bed too, and just cleaned cleaned. We steamed parts of the floor, and sprayed bug spray all over the room.
Another thing that sucks though is reading online makes it sound like all of these things around wrong...that i'm not supposed to move things cuz it just causes them to find new hiding places...that im not supposed to try and sleep anywhere else because they'll just seek me out to bite me in where ever new i sleep. I have no idea what to do, or what order to do stuff in. It's stressing me out so much. Even after showing and wearing clean clothes, I'm constantly feeling that paranoid itchy feeling, when I'm mostly sure nothing's on me. I haven't slept in over a day, and I'm stressing out so much.
Bed bugs might not be as big a deal in the grand scheme of shitty things in life, but I am so uneasy around bugs, and knowing they've been around me all this time biting my ankles on my bed is just freaking me out. I need to get rid of them,but I'm afraid I don't have the means or ability to do so. I know this thread is just ripe for people to mock me, but I'm feeling so stressed, I can't stop crying. Always a new problem in my life, and I can never catch up with fixing the old ones. Probably doesn't help that I'm stuck at work right now on no sleep, and super uneasy about even returning home. Any procedure we do to get rid of them is gonna be hard to deal with because we have a cat who never leaves the house, and a puppy that the cat hates. Got no where else to stay if we have to leave the house for a few days.