If this is not a troll... and really, at this point, I have no ability to make a guess at that one... I can actually understand the desire to say all of the things he's said in this thread. You hold things like that inside of you, and they just eat away at you. As embarrassed as you may feel about telling others about those things, doing so can be a release, especially if (again, if real) he's never told anybody about these things before. When I came out about my situation, the first things I did was jump onto a message forum I'm a regular on and spill my guts about what I was going through. I had to tell somebody, because I couldn't keep all of that bottled up inside of me any longer, but doing it in that way allowed me to tell it to people that, if things went horribly wrong, I could easily cut off all contact with.
The question is, OP, if you're legit, where you go from here. If spilling your guts pushes you to wake up tomorrow and change your life, then no matter how creepy this thread might be for some, it's a positive step for you. If you just go back to doing nothing about making yourself better, then this whole thing has been ridiculous.