I went through a break up with a chick after two in a half years. It sucked but were tried to remain friends. For that reason we sort of ended up getting back together....you know, but in that weird way. Hanging out every day, still fucking a lot, even still going over families houses for holidays. When it would come to one of us getting close to saying "I love you" we always would bite our tongues. Like I said...weird situation.
So I end up meeting this other chick during this time and she was super cool, we were both really into each other. So for the longest time I would hold off having sex with this chick, because I didn't want to be that asshole dude banging two chick at once. I know...morals. It got to a point where I would spend the beginning of the night at one girls house and then lie saying that I had to leave cause I had work early the next morning, but then go over to this new girls house to spend the night. Still...I fucking felt so bad and would fool around with the new girl, but would never go all the way. Btw, which resulted in the worst case of blue balls I have ever experienced. At the time I thought it was just a saying, but no....blue balls is an actual thing and it's fucking horrible. Anyway, the old girl started to become more and more of a bitch so I eventually said, "fuck it", and banged the new (much hotter) chick. Which felt horrible in my mind....but amazing to the rest of me.
Shortly after the old girl end up breaking up with me and I acted like I was all sad.....but I really wasn't, I was more relieved. And I started seriously dating the new girl.
Fast forward a year in a half after dating the new girl and I get a phone call from the old girl. She is telling me how she has reached this moment in her life when she feels like she needs to change (I don't know maybe she became a lesbian). And she wanted me to know that I was always such a good guy and that she was such a bitch. She thought that she should tell me that she cheated on me twice while we were dating.....Needless to say I no longer felt bad for fucking this new girl while I was kind of seeing the old girl.
Sorry for the long rant. I guess what I am getting at is try not to be hung up on this girl. Yeah, you should spend sometime recovering and shit. Just don't wait, thinking she will come around or something. Don't be hesitant to get back on the horse and find a new someone. Maybe.....bang some other chicks along the way.