dmagara on r/kappa said:Most of it is saying how he wants nothing more than to be euthanized, he hates his own face, personality and body, and just seems to be a dark place mentally and writes a lot about self hate and regret about his time spent playing games.
Here are a few rough translations:
"I'm starting to go senile*, so I hope I lose all of my memories of playing games. I suppose I would keep memories of going to Kita-Senju, if anything." (*The term is literally "going senile" but it could refer to a state of being befuddled or losing memory.)
"Instead of people talking about games, people talking about people/human experience is how I communicate. I was never 'being human'."
"A life where you lie to yourself and do what you don't want to will lead to ruin. I need to stop living a life of self-disdain or I can't even breathe."
"My clearest memories are of the times I played games and talked about nothing with the regulars at Kita-Senju GAO, and talking with Umehara. I don't give a damn about my memories of playing games. More importantly, I want to learn to communicate better as a human being." <Only semi-positive tweet there
Incredibly sad all-around. It wasn't that long ago when one of our finest SF players in the U.S.A contemplated suicide.
We wish you the best of luck in overcoming life's greatest challenges, Kuroda. We know you can do it!
Link -- Kuroda's Twitter