I can honestly say that I've been asked 1,000,000 times why I play games. And I normally just shrug and say "It's a hobby". But that's a lie.
Because when I'm in game I'm at home. From the flames of Catacylsm to the icy mountains of Tamriel. Anywhere I venture is the place I love and know. My entire life people preached that I could be anything that I wanted to be. But when I told them that I wanted to be the Captain of a ship... A SPACE ship... THE space ship that saves humanity...
That I wanted to be Commander Shepherd...They told me I need to get a grip on reality. And to them a grip on reality means the American dream. Working 9-5 crammed up in a tiny cubicle, having 2.5 kids, a two-storey suburban house and a white picket fence. I'd divorce once and I'd have debt into my early 30s because I took some bullshit university degree that's supposed to help me in the end. This isn't reality - this is just a dull outlook on it.
Now I understand it's human nature to attain greatness, but I can do that as Commander Shepherd. I don't need a degree. And if I want to go on an adventure I don't ever have to leave the comfort of my own home. Yet people spend an entire salary to travel and I can't help but laugh. I've single-handedly stopped a reign of ancient Wyverns from destroying a nation - but before I could do that I had to learn their language, become a master in swordsmanship, smithing, archery, defense, magic, speech, hunting and thieving. Not to mention I had to take down an entire fleet of assassins along with a brigade of smugglers before I could even start my lessons in Dragonspeak. I've always enjoyed an adventure but I hated pawning my limbs to afford an 18 hour car ride.
And aside from being told I can enjoy a white picket fence at the end of my career all my years as a student was a balance between fractal formulas and believing I'd never be able to love. Which is literal insanity. I've saved Princess Peach. I wanted to be 'the guy' and I became 'the guy'. I saved Bandage Girl and I've been Link for generations just to save Princess Zelda.
But yet I'm the 'eternal virgin'. I'm the guy who's 'never going love'. And sometimes this shit doesn't make sense to me. Why people assume that I need to be out doing something and away from home to have fun when I have my own reality grasped between my hands. I have my own world at my fingertips.
If I screw something up I can rewind time. I can't do that in real life but when I'm in game I'm free to do what I please when I please. I'm free to enjoy things the way I want to.
I can build my own kindom and lead my people to freedom because I'm the mind behind the game. I'm the one who enjoys these games.
I am a gamer and I always will be.