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I really don't want to be a downer but I'm going to be a downer. Rant about depression.

John2290

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God ain't real don't go down this path no matter how desperate you are.
Satan? Is that you?

P Previous poster. Nah, legit read the bible, well at least the majority, and learned nothing from old men who made analogies to make a point about something they wanted to say specifically and know nothing of todays world. Basically like trying an internet forum from the 00's. I believe in God but not the one from the bible or any other majour religion.... and hey, God, if you're reading this and you have the time, man, I could really use some of your divine wisdom right now. Bro, c'mon, you made me in your image, like.
 

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nobody in this thread or anywhere on the planet has any idea if god exists or not

we're so far away from explaining the nature of reality that the pursuit itself is almost pointless, a blind alley from which there's no return

start eating better and working out regularly, maybe some casual hook ups or relationships, clubs, whatever

stay anchored to reality
 

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I was about to call a mod to close the thread but this is actually helpful, thanks for the slap in the face. I needed it. I'll get back to struggling, sure what else is there at the end. We have it it so damn good and me pissing in the wind isn't gonna change a damn thing. Thanks man.

Sounds like what you wanted was company for your misery. That ain’t helpful, either for you or the company. Dig up.
 
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Satan? Is that you?

P Previous poster. Nah, legit read the bible, well at least the majority, and learned nothing from old men who made analogies to make a point about something they wanted to say specifically and know nothing of todays world. Basically like trying an internet forum from the 00's. I believe in God but not the one from the bible or any other majour religion.... and hey, God, if you're reading this and you have the time, man, I could really use some of your divine wisdom right now. Bro, c'mon, you made me in your image, like.
Make a sincere prayer to the One and Only Logical, Rational, and Reasonable Creator of all existence.

The Creator with no beginning or end, hence the Necessary Existence that allowed existence to exist in the first place.

Make a Sincere prayer to the One and Only Creator the same way Chris Pratt and his wife did in the hospital when they made a sincere prayer to the one and only creator and were answered to.

You make this sincere prayer for yourself and don't let anyone stop you from doing so.
 
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Scotty W

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I’d like to take this opportunity to whore out one of my own posts: Aaron Carter. He teaches that you can have everything and be far worse than miserable.

 

Tesseract

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Make a sincere prayer to the One and Only Logical, Rational, and Reasonable Creator of all existence.

The Creator with no beginning or end, hence the Necessary Existence that allowed existence to exist in the first place.

Make a Sincere prayer to the One and Only Creator the same way Chris Pratt and his wife did in the hospital when they made a sincere prayer to the one and only creator and were answered to.

You make this sincere prayer for yourself and don't let anyone stop you from doing so.
damn right
 
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John2290

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Sounds like what you wanted was company for your misery. That ain’t helpful, either for you or the company. Dig up.
I think ya hit the damn nail on the damn head and your right. /Thread close... aside for fun.

Honestly, don't need help and I've made it through much worse than this right now, like someone said above, just gotta push through and this thread actually helped, particularly the people who slapped me to my senses. Hopefully, I'll find that fun soon. Thanks to all above, at least I'm thinking i need to slap my self back to my senses. Cheers lads and ladies.
 

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I think ya hit the damn nail on the damn head and your right. /Thread close... aside for fun.

Honestly, don't need help and I've made it through much worse than this right now, like someone said above, just gotta push through and this thread actually helped, particularly the people who slapped me to my senses. Hopefully, I'll find that fun soon. Thanks to all above, at least I'm thinking i need to slap my self back to my senses. Cheers lads and ladies.

Good shit lad
 

John2290

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Try eating some steak. And im not trying to be funny. You would be amazed how much mental health has to do with what we eat.
Fuck, I'd kill for a steak right now but the prices for anything decent are insane cause of lockdown. Minute steaks or five quid for one piece of meat with plenty of fat. They take full advantage of these lockdowns and hike the prices up, almost double just on minute steaks.
 

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yeah depression will beat you up good if you let it

be mindful of the seasons too, and other sneaky factors

north east coast winters will make your mood plummet just by default

one of the top 3 things that can help chop the head off depression is to wake up wanting to do what you like to do

the other two are cocaine and hookers
 

Tesseract

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yeah depression will beat you up good if you let it

be mindful of the seasons too, and other sneaky factors

north east coast winters will make your mood plummet just by default

one of the top 3 things that can help chop the head off depression is to wake up wanting to do what you like to do

the other two are cocaine and hookers
and this is why trip is perma lord commander
 
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John2290

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yeah depression will beat you up good if you let it

be mindful of the seasons too, and other sneaky factors

north east coast winters will make your mood plummet just by default

one of the top 3 things that can help chop the head off depression is to wake up wanting to do what you like to do

the other two are cocaine and hookers
:D I'll skip the cocaine and send me a hooker in the post.
 
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Papa

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Fuck, I'd kill for a steak right now but the prices for anything decent are insane cause of lockdown. Minute steaks or five quid for one piece of meat with plenty of fat. They take full advantage of these lockdowns and hike the prices up, almost double just on minute steaks.

Buy the cheap one, grind it up fat and all and make a burger
 
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OP you sound pretty tough to go through what you’ve mentioned and hinted at. Might as well keep on going. Never know what can happen, just have some good meals along the way and anything else enjoyable you can think of.
 
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triplestation

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:D I'll skip the cocaine and send me a hooker in the post.
here you go my main man enjoy

 

CloudNull

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You feel super down and frusted because your brain adapted to the drug use. I've been in your situation, nothing else works so just tell Christ how you feel. Why is something so simple so hard to do for people? I was close to death in 2017 but I'm still here and it's all because I asked Jesus for help.
I'll post again later.

Almost topped myself years ago. I had a super fucked upbringing that took years to face my demons. The lord was the only thing that saved me and made me stop being a social pariah. Ask him for help.

Your brain is fried from the endorphins abuse. Find ways to get endorphin rushes in non drug related manners.
 
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Make a sincere prayer to the One and Only Logical, Rational, and Reasonable Creator of all existence.

The Creator with no beginning or end, hence the Necessary Existence that allowed existence to exist in the first place.

Make a Sincere prayer to the One and Only Creator the same way Chris Pratt and his wife did in the hospital when they made a sincere prayer to the one and only creator and were answered to.

You make this sincere prayer for yourself and don't let anyone stop you from doing so.

Awomen
 

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Fuck, I'd kill for a steak right now but the prices for anything decent are insane cause of lockdown. Minute steaks or five quid for one piece of meat with plenty of fat. They take full advantage of these lockdowns and hike the prices up, almost double just on minute steaks.
Where you live Ill buy you one
 

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John2290 John2290

Damn bro, 2CB is some shit. Been there done that.

My advice? Sober up and quit hanging around drug-addled low lifes, even if they are your only friends. Exercise and maintain a proper diet. No excuses, no running away from your problems. Face that shit head on. It will never go away if you don't.

Socially inept? So are a lot of people here. Start interacting with others in your personal life; be it even the clerk at your local Walgreen's. Just ask him how his day was or something. It's a muscle you have to learn to flex.

Don't kill yourself. Don't be a bitch. Keep your chin up.

Much love. Tough love.
 

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If you’re in the sticks go and connect with nature. Make the most of being out of a town/city - so many people would love the life you could be having

Get outside and do shit, fill your lungs with country air. Walk, run, move and get outside, take some pictures of random shit and explore.

One of the best pieces of advice I ever received was to play the fuck out of the cards you’ve been dealt.

Also stop going over the past and what you did and how much drugs you took. Who gives a fuck? It’s not like you’re the first person to abuse their body or mind. Get over this shit and leave it in the past. Stop using what you did as a crutch and an excuse. The only thing holding you back is you. Make better choices to live a better life.

Move on with your life and give it some meaning, which right now would be caring for your sister and being there for her.
 
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BigBooper

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Tell your sister to fend for herself for 8-10 hours a day. Go to a farm or construction crew and ask for a job. Work it. Don't quit after getting a few hundred bucks to spend chasing the dragon.

You are living in a spiral of self destruction and it sounds like you've been in it your whole adult life. Spending all day sitting around getting paid to care for your sister is not going to help you get out of that. You need to start building something you can be proud of.

Quit the excuses. It's up to you, and no one's fault but your own if you fail.
 
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