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Mental Health |OT| Depression & Co.
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Getting a new pdoc sucks. Mine stopped taking my insurance, and the office people sucked, so I found a new one. And had to drag through all the shit that got me there...ugh. Isn't it enough to say my meds have been working for two years, write me a scrip? No, let's trawl through all the trauma and shittiness for an hour.
Ugh.
Ugh.
Out of Working Order
Member
Thanks. I know I matter to my family, but it doesn't change the fact that I don't want to be here anymore. I could take a vacation with that money - it is something I've thought about. But again, I don't want a holiday - I just want to be gone.
It's good that you enjoy helping others, and your time in prison has given you a new outlook and allowed you to find something you enjoy doing in life. I hope you continue to find something in it.
Thanks, I wasn't sure if I was alone in feeling like this. Guess I'm not which makes me feel a little bit better.
I went to the study thing on Monday and long story short she cant help me . I'm not suffering from schizophrenia so I don't qualify for the study and because I have health insurance I don't qualify for the clinic. I have to figure out a way to get my moms insurance card without her knowing why .
she confirmed that have some sort of mood disorder that sounds like depression to her . Circling the drain is the way she described current situation. I left out the whole suicide idealization part because she would have to inform the authorities if i had told her. Is the any sort tests or scan to confirm that do have some sort of mood disorder ?
she confirmed that have some sort of mood disorder that sounds like depression to her . Circling the drain is the way she described current situation. I left out the whole suicide idealization part because she would have to inform the authorities if i had told her. Is the any sort tests or scan to confirm that do have some sort of mood disorder ?
ImpassionateGods
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After all the progress I feel like I've made, I'm going back to the way it used to be. I was restarting a new knitting project due to a horrible mistake that ruined the previous effort(which somehow didn't effect me at all) and I started and restarted again and again because I couldn't get it right anymore. On the fifth consecutive failure, I thought to myself "I wish I was dead". There was no hesitation, no precursor, no nothing. But in that moment I was burning with it. I started slamming the needles into my leg and then shut down so badly I couldn't even manage to watch tv. Everything was pointless all over again.
It's probably a combination of my fucking family and our usual fucked up vacations and the future bearing down on me. I can't shelter myself from anything right now.
It's probably a combination of my fucking family and our usual fucked up vacations and the future bearing down on me. I can't shelter myself from anything right now.
Femmeworth
Banned
Between Hitokage's death and finding out that the situation with my father is worsening, tonight is not a good night.
Sub_Level
wants to fuck an Asian grill.
By fucked up vacations do you mean a lot of bickering on trips? Thats a pain but a pretty common family dysfunction. Do you mean plans falling through?
ImpassionateGods
Member
My dad is verbally abusive and escalates everything on vacation and we only rent a one-floor house so there's no place to escape to. My mom shuts down and becomes filled with such resentment about absolutely everything that it sucks the life out any room that she's in. My sister hates the beach so everyone gets ready at a snails pace, declares it too late to go to the beach, and then attacks her for ruining the vacation. I usually end up as the mediator. Maybe it is just normal bickering. I don't know.
Sub_Level
wants to fuck an Asian grill.
The beach thing is definitely normal bickering, someone wants to do something but someone else doesn't want to do it and lack of compromise leads to lack of fun. Been there. The verbally abusive dad and resentful mom sound serious if they are recurring traits though. Might try being frank and talking with your parents about it. Maybe you don't open up to them often, some people barely communicate with their folks, and maybe if you have in the past it has been inconsequential and they have been dismissive, but worth a shot.
Sounds like an understanding friend.
Posting about your current mental wellbeing isn't always the smartest idea but there are definitely times when one feels it is necessary to do so and occasionally it does benefit. I've also come to the conclusion that people who give you grief over your courage to talk about what can be very scary and upsetting topics aren't worth my time. I've had people who were not understanding or particularly sympathetic to my problems and for some reason I used to put up with it. And it's a crock. Someone who genuinely cares shouldn't have an issue with who I am or what I say about my position in life. Instead of getting angry with you because you're posting this stuff publicly, he should be asking what's up with you and seeing if he can help. If you then refuse any help and close yourself off, then maybe he has a right to be annoyed. And you know that Mental Health GAF is a place where you should feel comfortable talking about these things, and that everybody here would rather hear what you have to say than have you suffer in silence.
Sub_Level
wants to fuck an Asian grill.
Posting on facebook probably isn't the best way to facilitate getting help but nothing wrong with it either. Venting takes a lot of different forms. Personally I found it best to delete my fb and deal with my issues privately (which has taken a few years), but fb can be beneficial as a way to conveniently talk to friends, share your life (including the bad parts), learn of events, e.t.c.
No offense to your friend, but he/she really has no say in what you post unless you let them have a say.
It's just throwing a pity party. I found a little note he made to himself in the past that said "Pity is a form of abuse."
So, it's just a cry for attention, which is dumb on my part. I'll keep my grievances and problems between myself and my therapist and leave my friends out of it.
FINALFANTASYDOG
Member
Editing this a month later $3000 more...
Bloody hell, I just spent the past 5~ hours organizing my closet and realized I've spent close to $10,000 on ridiculous looking High-art clothing in the past 5 months and I still don't feel satisfied feel like I have clothes I can wear.
The feeling that I wasted so much on art clothing, but I just buy another $1000 non-artistic outfit that will be the answer to me being attractive and gaining love. I was extremely frugal before about 3 months ago then I went on a $600~ spending spree and things escalated from there.
This and the stock market is literally going to ruin me. I'm feeling the urge to make an order for another $800 on clothing that I can use in everyday life ($200 shoes and Dolce + Gabanna pants are the big ticket items there)
For my own notes egregious examples of clothing I've wasted money on:
$650 - Replay - a too small pastel mint leather jacket
$400 - A ridiculous Nozomi Ishiguro pants + shirt that looks like it came from hot topic(bought because I love the brand and it was on clearance time sale.... once got home and tried it on realized will never wear.):
$400 Walter van Mint Pastel / grey pastel pants.
$400 - Comme des garcons stretchy pants
$350 - A Comme Des garcons pink bathrobe tux top
$350 - comme des garcons pink / pastel blue wind breaker
$300 - Kanda pastel style pants(brought them because the designer talked to me...)
$300 - Walter Van Lighting flash Blazer
$300 - Walter Van Easter pastel blazer
$300 - A written afterwards pastel bag
$300 - Two Plain Vivenne westwood shirts
$250 - Comme des Garcons Green Micky Mouse Short Sleeve Dress Shirt
$300 - Two Other comme des garcons pink + pirate dress shirt
$180 - Green Fuzz balls attached to it Comme des garcons dress shirt
$200 - Comme des garcons Purple Shoes
$200 Vivenne westwood green backpack
$200 - Vivenne westwood mint pastels moccasins.
$200 - A blazer with cartoon vegetables and fruits on it
$220 - Comme des garcons blazer that was stored in a warehouse and is too dirty to be cleaned....
$450 - 12+ RIdiclous remake items brought at a remake store because Feel like when I got in store need to buy stuff and because the individual goods where cheap.
$200 Kit Neale Pear apple pants + tote bag.
$200 Another Nozomi Ishiguro sweater that is way way too small for me
$170 - Comme des Garcons overlarge sweater (is that way by design)
$140 2 impluse buys shirts that I didn't realize are really really meant for curvy female bodies.
$110 Pear of Black white polka dot sweat pants that look ridiculous and I will never wear
$80 - Stupid looking backpack that has a real pink bowtie I used once and realized looked stupid(purchased it because I like the idea when I saw it in a shop)
$200 - 6 T-shirts I brought in different shops because store clerks really chatted me up and I felt like I needed to support them
$170 Acne studio generic white pants
$120 Paul Smith Dress shirt
$120 - Two trips to an outlet when I first arrived in a city buying items I won't actually use.
$500 4 Comme des garcons dress shirts...
$350 - Vivenne westwood pants
$350 - Vivenne westwood top
$200 Shoes
$210 - Y3 Pants
$ 300 Comme des garcons jacket
$ 320 - N hollywood Jacket + matching pants
$ 150 Dolce And Gabana Jeans
$ 150 Dolce and Gabana Jacket.
Probably a bunch more small things that I'm forgetting.
Bloody hell, I just spent the past 5~ hours organizing my closet and realized I've spent close to $10,000 on ridiculous looking High-art clothing in the past 5 months and I still don't feel satisfied feel like I have clothes I can wear.
The feeling that I wasted so much on art clothing, but I just buy another $1000 non-artistic outfit that will be the answer to me being attractive and gaining love. I was extremely frugal before about 3 months ago then I went on a $600~ spending spree and things escalated from there.
This and the stock market is literally going to ruin me. I'm feeling the urge to make an order for another $800 on clothing that I can use in everyday life ($200 shoes and Dolce + Gabanna pants are the big ticket items there)
For my own notes egregious examples of clothing I've wasted money on:
$650 - Replay - a too small pastel mint leather jacket
$400 - A ridiculous Nozomi Ishiguro pants + shirt that looks like it came from hot topic(bought because I love the brand and it was on clearance time sale.... once got home and tried it on realized will never wear.):
$400 Walter van Mint Pastel / grey pastel pants.
$400 - Comme des garcons stretchy pants
$350 - A Comme Des garcons pink bathrobe tux top
$350 - comme des garcons pink / pastel blue wind breaker
$300 - Kanda pastel style pants(brought them because the designer talked to me...)
$300 - Walter Van Lighting flash Blazer
$300 - Walter Van Easter pastel blazer
$300 - A written afterwards pastel bag
$300 - Two Plain Vivenne westwood shirts
$250 - Comme des Garcons Green Micky Mouse Short Sleeve Dress Shirt
$300 - Two Other comme des garcons pink + pirate dress shirt
$180 - Green Fuzz balls attached to it Comme des garcons dress shirt
$200 - Comme des garcons Purple Shoes
$200 Vivenne westwood green backpack
$200 - Vivenne westwood mint pastels moccasins.
$200 - A blazer with cartoon vegetables and fruits on it
$220 - Comme des garcons blazer that was stored in a warehouse and is too dirty to be cleaned....
$450 - 12+ RIdiclous remake items brought at a remake store because Feel like when I got in store need to buy stuff and because the individual goods where cheap.
$200 Kit Neale Pear apple pants + tote bag.
$200 Another Nozomi Ishiguro sweater that is way way too small for me
$170 - Comme des Garcons overlarge sweater (is that way by design)
$140 2 impluse buys shirts that I didn't realize are really really meant for curvy female bodies.
$110 Pear of Black white polka dot sweat pants that look ridiculous and I will never wear
$80 - Stupid looking backpack that has a real pink bowtie I used once and realized looked stupid(purchased it because I like the idea when I saw it in a shop)
$200 - 6 T-shirts I brought in different shops because store clerks really chatted me up and I felt like I needed to support them
$170 Acne studio generic white pants
$120 Paul Smith Dress shirt
$120 - Two trips to an outlet when I first arrived in a city buying items I won't actually use.
$500 4 Comme des garcons dress shirts...
$350 - Vivenne westwood pants
$350 - Vivenne westwood top
$200 Shoes
$210 - Y3 Pants
$ 300 Comme des garcons jacket
$ 320 - N hollywood Jacket + matching pants
$ 150 Dolce And Gabana Jeans
$ 150 Dolce and Gabana Jacket.
Probably a bunch more small things that I'm forgetting.
ImpassionateGods
Member
I actually managed to guilt trip my dad into being nice for the first few days but then it wore off. He's highly irrational in his thought processes and doesn't even realize his own actions so if you call him out too much he thinks he's being persecuted. My mom doesn't usually have much cause to be happy,so I try to be there for her, but sometimes I think not a single one of us is truly a good person(except my sister). I think about moving out sometimes, but it would be like abandonment because they all need me.
BUNTING1243
Banned
We all make mistakes and say dumb things man! Learn from them and realize it makes you better. Also no one remembers embarrassing things you've done as long as you do.
FINALFANTASYDOG
Member
Have 3 pants and one pair of shoes with a cost of $673, these are all clearance items last item left. Too use to game collecting my mind goes wow this is $2200+ retail value items for only $673! and can justify it in my mind, but as my previous post above shows have way too much clothing already... and already spent $450 on two shirts today.
Literally have everything filled in and just need to hit the order button
Anyone have any suggestions for shopping addicted folks?
Literally have everything filled in and just need to hit the order button
Anyone have any suggestions for shopping addicted folks?
I'm nowhere near your level but I too have succumbed to the dangers of instant gratification before. My advice would be to put your money somewhere where you can't touch it. E.g. Long term bonds or investments. Only leave enough in fluid medium to get you through 2, 3 months at a time.
Burger_Baron
Member
Same here. Just stay away from those mood-traps and find something else to do. I too have asked some advise from those threads and have been pretty unsuccessfull with girls too. I have been on a date or four, but they usually don't go to anywhere from there. It feels like as if nobody is interested to spend time with me or be with me. And it's not even the relationship I feel bad for, it's the posts and stories that you are hearing from people. Like they are doing all kinds of crazy and funny stuff, having the time of their life. The feeling that they are so happy and contended with it all, that they have that someone to call to, that someone to brace to, that someone who will catch you when you fall, and that someone who will laugh at your shitty jokes.
And what comes to people, I don't know why they don't want to spend time with me. I mean, I think they are having good time with me, because they are generally enjoying it, laughing at my jokes and so on. And even when when I'm leaving, they are like "No, I refuse to let you leave!"
For instance, couple months later I had a date with this chick who was the perfect girl. Perfect body und perfect mind. We were talking for 6 hours about all kinds of stuff while having coffee, throwing subjects at each other, challenging one another. I mean, we were both so enthutiastically conversating, that I thought that "This is it. This is the turning point I have been waiting for. The love of my life."
And after that, nothing. Her interest to talking and meeting me dropped right after she left that day. I tried to ask her out again and talk with her but all I got was yea's, maybe's and hmm's. I was so sure that this would be the love people are talking about so much, the girl that people write songs about, and yet... all I was left with was sour taste and confusion. It was so weird. I mean, most of my friends make it look so easy, they just decide that " Oh, I'm single. Better to hook some chick up and start dating." And in the next 2 weeks they already have a pretty dame next to them in their life. And the reason cannot be in me can it? I mean, one of my friends (who happens to be female, if it counts) was utterly suprised when I told her that I haven't never been in a relationship, or kissed, or even hugged a girl before.
...oops, might have been carried away a little bit too much over there, let me TLDR:
Dating is weird and hard. It looks and sounds easy, but it is strange and brutal. If you want to really start to date, the main rules are that the girls are looking for the perfect man as much as you are looking for the perfect girl. So you need to impress them. Number 2 is that you need to enjoy it. If you feel like you "need" to start dating rather than "want" to, then you should at least reconsider it. Nothing forces you to be dating girls, be it community or instincts.
Regards, 20y old chap with no idea how gurls work.
Obligatory:
Yeah, I avoid the relationship thread and the LGBT thread now. I don't think a lot of conversations and attitudes in the latter.
I have been consumed by my cynisism, especially since the last few revelations with this "relationship" I've been in. I've truly become bitter, cold, and angry...
I have been consumed by my cynisism, especially since the last few revelations with this "relationship" I've been in. I've truly become bitter, cold, and angry...
Out of Working Order
Member
20 years old - you're still young yet. You have time.
It's when you're 28 like me and don't understand dating when you're fucked. I've never even had a date.
I am trying to get my head around the fact I'll probably never have a girlfriend or get laid. It's one of my major struggles in life and the primary reason I am depressed. It's had a knock-on effect on everything else in my life, from my confidence, to my social skills, career (or lack of), fucked up emotions and development, and poor motivation. It all seems so pointless being alone. 'Alone' not just in the sense of having no girlfriend, but feeling completely alienated from your peers and society in general.
It's not normal or healthy to have these feelings suppressed and emotional needs not met. But every day I awake and it's the same nightmare.
It's when you're 28 like me and don't understand dating when you're fucked. I've never even had a date.
I am trying to get my head around the fact I'll probably never have a girlfriend or get laid. It's one of my major struggles in life and the primary reason I am depressed. It's had a knock-on effect on everything else in my life, from my confidence, to my social skills, career (or lack of), fucked up emotions and development, and poor motivation. It all seems so pointless being alone. 'Alone' not just in the sense of having no girlfriend, but feeling completely alienated from your peers and society in general.
It's not normal or healthy to have these feelings suppressed and emotional needs not met. But every day I awake and it's the same nightmare.
Sometimes that is life...
I am come to the conclusion in my life that "love", "relationships", and "companionship" are not a need, they are a "would like to have" or a "want". It's just reality that no, there is not someone out there for everyone and yes, some people do go through life alone. It's a truth that has to be accepted.
I feel like I'm at my ropes end. Shit temp job. Broken car I can't afford to fix. Bills constantly stacking up. Fat, black, gay and ugly. I just deleted a large portion of people off of Facebook after not having talked to most of my friends for several months. No one seems to care or even ask if I'm OK. It feels like I'm truly alone in this world. I don't think I make it through the year honestly.
God, I'm so embarrassed. My mom has asked me multiple times within the past few weeks if I'm depressed, and every time I just freeze up and deny it. I know that depression isn't something to be ashamed of but I'm pretty ashamed of the fact that I can't even get myself to admit to someone else that I think I am out loud. It also means that I'm probably doing an awful job of hiding the fact that there's always a constant feeling of immense sadness nagging at the back of my head.
A Fish Aficionado
I am going to make it through this year if it kills me
It's very uncomfortable to tak to your parents about mental illness, but sometimes you have to do it to get help
I wish my father noticed that I'm not fine. I want him to know about the many things that will not let me be happy. Some of my problems have to do with him and my family and I really wish they would change their attitude towards me. I also feel the need of his full support, because as of now I feel that I only can count on his economic support as long as I don't fuck up, but emotionally he doesn't know what I'm going through.
But, at the same time, I feel that I have to hide my feelings because my problems would just make him angrier and I don't want to disturb him. He may not even change and would make my life more miserable than it already is. And I just can't let go yet. I'm still dependent on him and things won't change in a few years until I finish my career and get a proper job.
Sorry for this rant guys, I'm just feeling lonely in this battle. I have friends supporting me and everything but when I'm at home everything falls apart. There is no one I can completely trust here and I have to be extremely careful with everything I do. I just can't tell anyone here about everything yet. Ugh, I hate keeping secrets but this is what I have to do to protect myself.
But, at the same time, I feel that I have to hide my feelings because my problems would just make him angrier and I don't want to disturb him. He may not even change and would make my life more miserable than it already is. And I just can't let go yet. I'm still dependent on him and things won't change in a few years until I finish my career and get a proper job.
Sorry for this rant guys, I'm just feeling lonely in this battle. I have friends supporting me and everything but when I'm at home everything falls apart. There is no one I can completely trust here and I have to be extremely careful with everything I do. I just can't tell anyone here about everything yet. Ugh, I hate keeping secrets but this is what I have to do to protect myself.
I just got back from taking my NREMT exam and well, I dont fucking know. So far a few people from my class have passed it and a couple have failed. It's an adaptive test so there's no real way to see how I did or how they did. It's either pass or fail. It was a lot less stressful than my final exam for class but the questions were different. They seemed easier on some but then some I dont even remember learning certain terminology.
It took me to 111 questions and I keep seeing on another EMT forum from people passing in the 60-90 question ranges. Only a few have passed with higher amount of questions than me. I just want to be able to pass and continue on with my life. Im tired of working where I'm at and I want to be able to actually live a decent life with this. Not to mention everything I plan on doing in my career path is contingent on passing this test.
It took me to 111 questions and I keep seeing on another EMT forum from people passing in the 60-90 question ranges. Only a few have passed with higher amount of questions than me. I just want to be able to pass and continue on with my life. Im tired of working where I'm at and I want to be able to actually live a decent life with this. Not to mention everything I plan on doing in my career path is contingent on passing this test.
My friends, and even mom, have asked if I was gay because I've never had a girlfriend. "You're so good looking I'm surprised no girl's snatched you up." I wasn't offended, I thought it was kind of funny actually. Though I don't have a desire for having one, and I don't mind being 'alone' like I used to. It's kind of refreshing actually. That sounds depressing, but I really am fine and comfortable with it.
OriginofHysteria
Banned
Hey guys, I wanted to contribute in this thread and hopefully try to get out of this rut I'm in. These past couple months have been absolutely horrid for me. I've been financially struggling, I'm not happy at my job and the job search has stressed me out to no end. Then last weekend my girlfriend broke up with me and I regrettably threw away a valuable opportunity in something I was interested in because of it.
I finally opened up to my friends with my problems for the first time ever and it did feel nice. But I just can't help feeling hopeless at everything I'm feeling right now. I pulled into the parking lot at work today and just started randomly crying for 5 minutes because I was thinking of my ex. Then when I stepped into the office I battled so hard to to get emotional again and I've just been distancing myself from everyone.
I just want something to happen in my direction. Like just a moment where I know everything is going to be okay.
I finally opened up to my friends with my problems for the first time ever and it did feel nice. But I just can't help feeling hopeless at everything I'm feeling right now. I pulled into the parking lot at work today and just started randomly crying for 5 minutes because I was thinking of my ex. Then when I stepped into the office I battled so hard to to get emotional again and I've just been distancing myself from everyone.
I just want something to happen in my direction. Like just a moment where I know everything is going to be okay.
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Deleted member 752119
Unconfirmed Member
Any advice on what to expect with Wellbutrin XL (generic version)?
I've been a bit down, moody and unable to focus for a while so I finally mentioned it to my doctor when getting something else checked out. I started on the meds saturday--150mg for 5 days then up to 300mg. I didn't feel any different the first two days, but woke up headachy and a little lightheaded/nauseous this morning.
I've been a bit down, moody and unable to focus for a while so I finally mentioned it to my doctor when getting something else checked out. I started on the meds saturday--150mg for 5 days then up to 300mg. I didn't feel any different the first two days, but woke up headachy and a little lightheaded/nauseous this morning.
jufonuk
not tag worthy
been getting more panic attacks almost starting recently.
I was coming back from the cinema yesterday started to get all tense and hot in the car.
(I was going through an area I didn't like an felt dizzy like I was falling), started sweating and my hands felt like I was wearing tight latex gloves. after we passed the area I kind of calmed down,
today on the Tube (London underground) the train carriage was hot and packed and the shaking movement made me feel weird, I wanted to get out the train, and started to nearly go on full panic attack...
I had to keep myself calm and try not to freak out..
but they are coming more now and I don't want them, I thought I had them under control
I was coming back from the cinema yesterday started to get all tense and hot in the car.
(I was going through an area I didn't like an felt dizzy like I was falling), started sweating and my hands felt like I was wearing tight latex gloves. after we passed the area I kind of calmed down,
today on the Tube (London underground) the train carriage was hot and packed and the shaking movement made me feel weird, I wanted to get out the train, and started to nearly go on full panic attack...
I had to keep myself calm and try not to freak out..
but they are coming more now and I don't want them, I thought I had them under control
Question about Zoloft here. I've been taking 100mg for a few years for depression and anxiety. I'm lucky to have no side effects but I still suffer from anxiety (albeit less than if I wasn't taking it). So I was thinking of upping my dose but my doctor says that anything above 100mg doesn't make a difference for anxiety and is only useful for schizophrenia. Is that true?
I take 150 mg and my doctor didn't say anything about that. I also take 300 mg of Wellbutrin, so the two together balance each other out...
I, too, and fortunate not to have any side effects from my medicine, with the exception of the brain zaps if I don't take them for a few days.
Thanks, guess I'll do some more research on that. I'm definitely not switching doctors cause he's a pretty damn good one with great knowledge and he sincerely cares about his patients.
Darkmakaimura
Can You Imagine What SureAI Is Going To Do With Garfield?
I really hate how some people see suicide is selfish. I've been hearing this all day due to the tragic circumstances around Robin Williams. Nobody is saying suicide is something you should do, but calling it selfish is wrong and does not help anyone. Sorry for the rant but wanted to get that off my chest.
asthmagasm
Member
This might be a weird request, but does anyone know where to get Mind Over Mood worksheets? I need more for a specific chapter and I'm not sure if my therapist made modified versions for himself or if there's a specific resource he got them from since he has all the chapters.
That idea is bullshit, so I do agree with you. These are people who think one must live, and anything against that is a spooky badbad. I think on how one chooses to die is very important, and I am all for assisted suicide. Now, people label that term and link it with the same misconceptions with suicide in general; that one is supporting an easy way out, that one is not helping but hindering, what have you. The truth is, assisted suicide is something that should be encouraged, especially to those who not only feel but have empirical proof that their life will in fact get worse; not in feeling, but in state. Dementia, terminal cancer, MS, all of that.
People who feel suicidal should get help, but at the same time, it should also be acknowledged that for some, depending on the context and opinions of outsiders, suicide should be considered. There was a fantastic documentary about this called Choosing to Die, and it's a wonderful documentary showcasing the experiences of those who take their own lives. Their reasons are valid and their situations can be understood the same way we tend to look at other animals in suffering. These people choose to opt out as they have enough verifiable evidence to showcase the lives they value are vanishing.
This becomes a very sticky situation as we equate all of these layered into a one size fits all model. "Oh, you look happy, how can you be so sad?" "Oh, you're just being selfish, you have to hang on!". All of that jargon does nobody considering suicide any favors.
sadceph2001
Member
Have you found Zoloft helpful in treating your depression? Just started Sertraline (five days in) and I'm really starting to feel the side effects now that I'm on 100mg. I was told that things are going to get worse before they get better, but I didn't anticipate everything being so amplified. Suppose that's the reason the doctor was hesitant in prescribing it for patients under 18.
Last night I saw two friends on Twitter talking about how they lost respect for people who committed suicide. Made me sick.
On zoloft as well, 50mg but am upping it to 100mg on thursday, i got put on it because i developed a fear of vomiting and stopped eating i became severely underweight and was hospitalised, i have felt a bit better since taking it and gained a good amount of weight, still need to gain more though. im just hoping upping it to 100mg will help me more, im scared of side effects, i have none from 50mg so i dont know if i will get them at 100mg
my biggest fear now is if i end up vomiting, i will be set back to square one and end up filled with anxiety about eating and having to be hospitalised again..... i just want to be normal, its making me suicidal.
my biggest fear now is if i end up vomiting, i will be set back to square one and end up filled with anxiety about eating and having to be hospitalised again..... i just want to be normal, its making me suicidal.
I've been in that scumbag friend position. I dislike the posts of one person on my facebook. He's dealing with social anxiety, because of his weight. He's obese, with a lot of health issues because of it. Posts either about his serious personal issues or about eating junk food. It's mostly the combination that pisses me off. I know it's a harsh thing to say and it's not even remotely easy to change things like that, but I have no respect for people suffering from obesity, who are aware of it and do absolutely nothing about it. Nothing will change until you take the first step. I have a few obese and ex-obese friends and a lot of them are trying their best to change and I really respect that and help them in any way I can, support them in what they do, because they sure need it. Ignoring an issue or making a joke out of it is not a solution.
I personally would never write personal depressing stuff on my social media. Maybe once or twice on twitter, when I'm feeling really down, as people cheer me up then, but generally, I try to be a positive person and give other people positive energy, then they give me positive energy back. It's a little bit of the 'fake it till you make it' logic, but it works for me - pretend to be happy at first and maybe you will actually become happy. There's no need to infect my depression onto others.
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Sadly, we probably need to brace ourselves for a lot of this.
That and condescending "helpful advice" from people who don't actually know anything about depression.
*ughh*
It's been a while since I posted an update, but here's the latest.
THE GOOD
I'm no longer getting a divorce. In fact, our relationship has never been better. Just in time for our 10th anniversary. I've made some really good new friends as well recently. We avoided foreclosure by getting our loan refinanced ($400 less a month)
THE BAD
I still don't have a full time job. I'm having to borrow money from her dad just so we can have food to eat. I've been lucky to scrounge together the last two mortgage payments by selling things.
THE UGLY
Her car died this weekend. Catastrophic failure ($5500 -- internal engine stuff, something about a exhaust cam actuator and everything inside being broke) We need her car since she's the only one with a full time job. If she takes mine (it has a slow leak) it'll make interviewing difficult (I could try public transportation, did it a long time ago) We can't afford a car payment either, so I'm dreading giving her the news.
If I can make this final trial payment, I could let things slip a month, use that money to buy a used car possibly. And hopefully someone will get me a job soon.
Anyone in the Charlotte, NC area able to help with a deal on a used car or job lead?
THE GOOD
I'm no longer getting a divorce. In fact, our relationship has never been better. Just in time for our 10th anniversary. I've made some really good new friends as well recently. We avoided foreclosure by getting our loan refinanced ($400 less a month)
THE BAD
I still don't have a full time job. I'm having to borrow money from her dad just so we can have food to eat. I've been lucky to scrounge together the last two mortgage payments by selling things.
THE UGLY
Her car died this weekend. Catastrophic failure ($5500 -- internal engine stuff, something about a exhaust cam actuator and everything inside being broke) We need her car since she's the only one with a full time job. If she takes mine (it has a slow leak) it'll make interviewing difficult (I could try public transportation, did it a long time ago) We can't afford a car payment either, so I'm dreading giving her the news.
If I can make this final trial payment, I could let things slip a month, use that money to buy a used car possibly. And hopefully someone will get me a job soon.
Anyone in the Charlotte, NC area able to help with a deal on a used car or job lead?
I can't say I know the feeling because I've always been able to trust my parents 100% with anything, but I do know the feeling of things getting to me and seemingly needing a "cry for help", which sounds a lot like your second sentence. Like you said, I can certainly imagine it's immensely difficult during the times when there's no one else around, and I wish I had better advice for you than "Talk to GAF" when it's seemingly the only possible outlet. On the same hand, I'd be very careful of keeping things bottled up. When I was going through my early years in high school, I made a pretty terrible decision in what I assume was a cry for help that landed me out of school and in a local courthouse.
Be very careful with how you're feeling. If things seem to get too tough and you're having a particularly hard time, I would suggest just telling your mother if you father doesn't seem like a viable option, but even then, I'd still recommend telling him too, if only to get things out in the open and not seem like you're sneaking around.
As always DepressionGAF is here to chat with you whenever you need to share, so hopefully we can we can be there to keep you moving forward during tough times!
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