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Mental Health |OT| Depression & Co.
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been feeling depressed since i got laid off 18 months ago. been poor since then. things haven't gone well with my gf. recently started driving for uber. which sucks cause it takes all my time. last month got my car towed. wasn't looking forward to driving thanksgiving day by myself. got lazy and went out to start driving and found this
seriously, who breaks a window to steal a paperbag full of napkins and a red bull? the best part is i don't even have money to fix this. even if i could find a glass place open tomorrow.
FML.
seriously, who breaks a window to steal a paperbag full of napkins and a red bull? the best part is i don't even have money to fix this. even if i could find a glass place open tomorrow.
FML.
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Sorry to hear about that sarcastor. What a fucking shitty thing to do. Good luck getting it fixed cheaply or through insurance.
We had to put our youngest cat down today. She was only between 5 and 6, but dealt with cancer and related anorexia, weakness and loss of bladder control. I stayed in the room while she passed, which was something I'd never done before (the whole process was new to me), but I felt like I should be there to pet her as she went. Make her feel safe, loved, etc.
I've been surprisingly calm tonight. I think it's because I know she needed to be put down, although it's saddening and I miss her. I will always miss her, but will have scars to remember her by. Still, I don't know if it's hit me. When I went out to the garage and looked at the blanket she's wrapped in inside of her cage, it hit me a bit more. (We'll bury her here)
(When I say scars, it's not that she intentionally hurt me. She was sick earlier in life with a brain parasite, and I got her medicine. She slept on my chest the night she came home, and either had a nightmare or one of our other cats scared her. Anyways, she got frantic and tried to get away quickly and clawed my hands in the process. I didn't care much.)
She was my Mom's baby, and she decided to stay, too. I shouldn't have let her, because it's now haunting her.
We had to put our youngest cat down today. She was only between 5 and 6, but dealt with cancer and related anorexia, weakness and loss of bladder control. I stayed in the room while she passed, which was something I'd never done before (the whole process was new to me), but I felt like I should be there to pet her as she went. Make her feel safe, loved, etc.
I've been surprisingly calm tonight. I think it's because I know she needed to be put down, although it's saddening and I miss her. I will always miss her, but will have scars to remember her by. Still, I don't know if it's hit me. When I went out to the garage and looked at the blanket she's wrapped in inside of her cage, it hit me a bit more. (We'll bury her here)
(When I say scars, it's not that she intentionally hurt me. She was sick earlier in life with a brain parasite, and I got her medicine. She slept on my chest the night she came home, and either had a nightmare or one of our other cats scared her. Anyways, she got frantic and tried to get away quickly and clawed my hands in the process. I didn't care much.)
She was my Mom's baby, and she decided to stay, too. I shouldn't have let her, because it's now haunting her.
Polydeuces
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Got 2 more assignments to do. Hopefully I get an extension from one of them. Gonna explain everything to the prof. Hopefully shes nice.
MisterLuffy
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I'm going to vent. My discrete math teacher sucks, the only good thing about him is that he's really helpful but omg he takes long reading my message from email. What pisses me off the most is when he sent an email to let us know the homework is up for this week, and it wasn't there. I sent him an email telling him that I didn't see it. And it took him 4 days tell me that oh it was a mistake. Now I have 3 days to do homework, and I procrastinate a lot.
I love fighting games, but I hate trying to take it seriously. I've played against the stupidest players who does stupid things to win. It's like my cousin said, what do I get out of it trying to take fighting games seriously. And I can see that. I get nothing out of it, it makes me resent players, who plays like a moron, even more in return. No wonder why I lost interest in smash 4 though I still play it, it's because I'm looking as a competition instead of having fun. I don't know why I'm taking fighting games seriously, I don't go to tournaments and I don't make money out of it.
I love fighting games, but I hate trying to take it seriously. I've played against the stupidest players who does stupid things to win. It's like my cousin said, what do I get out of it trying to take fighting games seriously. And I can see that. I get nothing out of it, it makes me resent players, who plays like a moron, even more in return. No wonder why I lost interest in smash 4 though I still play it, it's because I'm looking as a competition instead of having fun. I don't know why I'm taking fighting games seriously, I don't go to tournaments and I don't make money out of it.
Collete
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I have insurance, the problem is I still don't have the funds or transportation to get any help.
I don't know. It just feels like that reason isn't worth it sometimes. I just don't want to be in pain anymore unable to be normal or anything.
I feel alone a lot though because of this illness...
I like to write fantasy or rambling tales of another world. Right now I'm writing a series that I know no one will care or appreciate...
Yeah I was the one who used to do the bead art.
Well, I'm glad it helped you. That's good to know.
What did you make with the beads?
1-up mushrooms, characters, gifts for friends, a lot of stuff.
A Fish Aficionado
I am going to make it through this year if it kills me
I am a waste. Nothing I do is ever good.
I want to die. I
I want to die. I
Maybe try to lose yourself in that world a bit. I find fantasy worlds a good escape
Hope you feel better. Play any fun games lately?Mind if I ask the USA members how is the mental health help over there? I live in the UK and have had my own issues of anxiety and depression. But I got help through pre cog therapy. They treat what caused illness rather then the depression/ anxiety itself. It helped me out greatly.
Hey_Blinkin
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At 33 and a decade of battling depression I've finally decided to contact my doctor Monday about some antidepressants. He's just a family physician so I don't what he can do and the worst part is I currently have no health insurance. I hope it's not an overly complicated process because it's taken a lot for me to get this far and I'm on a pretty strict budget.
I'm really just looking for a temporary solution until I get my life back together. I've been battling depression for so long that I'm kind of used to it and have founds ways to cope. It's just times like this when I really just feel like I need a kick in the ass to get my shit together again. For the first time in a long time I feel like I know what I want, I just can't seem to make my self get out of bed and work for it.
I'm really just looking for a temporary solution until I get my life back together. I've been battling depression for so long that I'm kind of used to it and have founds ways to cope. It's just times like this when I really just feel like I need a kick in the ass to get my shit together again. For the first time in a long time I feel like I know what I want, I just can't seem to make my self get out of bed and work for it.
I've never been the most 'happy' person, but as of the past three months things have gotten awful, and if/when I ever get out of this state, I'll definitely be more appreciative.
I've had this unexplained pain and pressure in my head for three months now. It used to be localized, now it moves all around the head randomly. I also have this weird pressing pressure on my nose bridge. This is a daily thing. It's not debilitating, but the mental affects haven't been too kind. Last month it caused crippling anxiety, to the point where I couldn't function properly for weeks. I was a complete recluse and mess. I woke up every day thinking I was dying. When I went to the doctors and was told it wasn't anything serious, the anxiety went away and I was left with much more manageable symptoms. Although, they're still always there.
I had a CT scan, went to an ENT, but everything was clear. There's 'nothing wrong with me' but I now have a referral to a neurologist. I trust the neurologist is the last step in identifying whatever this terrible thing is. The problem is, I'm only 19 and I can't really pay for these things myself. My mom's already pretty exhausted for funds, because of this whole thing and I feel terrible for it. It's almost Christmas, and these symptoms are becoming frustrating. It ruins my mood, and has been causing pretty heavy depression. I haven't been properly happy in a while. My symptoms disappeared for six days last week. Six days, and I felt great. But then they came back, and so did my depression. I don't understand what's wrong with me.
After the CT scan, I've gotten better. I'm not as anxious anymore, but I still don't know what's wrong with my head and nor do any other doctors. I'm really afraid of what it may be. I'm pretty sure I'm not dying, but still. Waiting until after Christmas seems like an eternity, but I don't have any other choice. I just hate this uncertainty.
What sucks the most is that I'm bored all the time (Very sure I still have ADHD; I was diagnosed at a young age) and during those six days, I was busy beating Saint's Row 100% and it kept me occupied like nothing else ever had. Now that it's done, I just laze around and swap between reddit and neogaf all day, being incredibly bored. Ugh.
I've had this unexplained pain and pressure in my head for three months now. It used to be localized, now it moves all around the head randomly. I also have this weird pressing pressure on my nose bridge. This is a daily thing. It's not debilitating, but the mental affects haven't been too kind. Last month it caused crippling anxiety, to the point where I couldn't function properly for weeks. I was a complete recluse and mess. I woke up every day thinking I was dying. When I went to the doctors and was told it wasn't anything serious, the anxiety went away and I was left with much more manageable symptoms. Although, they're still always there.
I had a CT scan, went to an ENT, but everything was clear. There's 'nothing wrong with me' but I now have a referral to a neurologist. I trust the neurologist is the last step in identifying whatever this terrible thing is. The problem is, I'm only 19 and I can't really pay for these things myself. My mom's already pretty exhausted for funds, because of this whole thing and I feel terrible for it. It's almost Christmas, and these symptoms are becoming frustrating. It ruins my mood, and has been causing pretty heavy depression. I haven't been properly happy in a while. My symptoms disappeared for six days last week. Six days, and I felt great. But then they came back, and so did my depression. I don't understand what's wrong with me.
After the CT scan, I've gotten better. I'm not as anxious anymore, but I still don't know what's wrong with my head and nor do any other doctors. I'm really afraid of what it may be. I'm pretty sure I'm not dying, but still. Waiting until after Christmas seems like an eternity, but I don't have any other choice. I just hate this uncertainty.
What sucks the most is that I'm bored all the time (Very sure I still have ADHD; I was diagnosed at a young age) and during those six days, I was busy beating Saint's Row 100% and it kept me occupied like nothing else ever had. Now that it's done, I just laze around and swap between reddit and neogaf all day, being incredibly bored. Ugh.
Had a bad anxiety attack today. Was supposed to go out on a date today and was really nervous about it all day. She texts me asking what time I wanted to come pick her up and I just froze. Couldn't move, could barely breathe, head felt absolutely blank. Lasted for about 10 minutes before I was able to start thinking again and I just couldn't do it so I cancelled. Shit like this has just been happening more and more lately and I have no idea what to do.
Polydeuces
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Procrastinated again. Every time I'm not doing my assignment I automatically ridicule myself for not working more. Breaks I take I keep wallowing in my past failures... So tired of my work but I got to pass... Its my main goal until all of my exams are finished.
I don't go on dates partially because I know I would do this. The anxiety I get just from thinking about it is too much... I can't imagine actually going through with it.
Depending what country you live in, I would highly recommend pre-cog therapy.
Sometimes I feel like this medication I'm taking and the therapy I'm doing are a joke and won't do shit for me and, and I'm gonna be alone the rest of my life. It's not going to change who I am ad a person, and ultimately that's what's always been the problem. What's the fucking point?
What therapy are you doing?
Regular psychotherapy I guess + zoloft. I've done 3 sessions so far and the guy seems to know what he's doing, wants to focus on helping me move forward in life, but I just don't see anything less than undoing everything that's led to me becoming who and how I am as a person today saving me from a life of loneliness and unfulfillment.
I found that the same as it seems you do, boring and gets no where. But as soon as I moved to pre-cog therapy I was like wow. They actually discuss and figure out what caused your mental illness rather then trying to treat the illness itself. I still suffer from depression, anxiety and insomnia, but no way as bad. If you can I would try pre-cog as soon as possible. I did it for a year and I felt a changed man.
Dude... I'm sorry to hear that.
You're such a cool guy. I'm sure she was excited for the date. But I know anxiety stuff isn't exactly rational. Are you taking anything for it or taking to someone? Standard question, I know... I just wish I could help.
Anyone know a good internet place for people who have (or think that they may have) dysthmia? It seems that most of the discussion about depression is about major depression, and it's kind of hard for me to relate to people who are suffering to the point where they don't even want to get out of bed.
I've done a bit of research and taken some tests, and it seems very likely that I have dysthymia. I've enjoyed life a bit more now that I've started college, but it would be nice to finally stop dreading the future so much.
Thanks for the help.
I've done a bit of research and taken some tests, and it seems very likely that I have dysthymia. I've enjoyed life a bit more now that I've started college, but it would be nice to finally stop dreading the future so much.
Thanks for the help.
I'm in the US. What's pre-cog therapy?
Dude... I'm sorry to hear that.
Are you taking anything for it or taking to someone? Standard question, I know... I just wish I could help.
Not taking anything right now. A few years back I was taking an SSRI and some kind of anxiety medication, I can't remember exactly what it was. It was all a pretty rushed process, I went in there and he prescribed the stuff right away based on previous therapy stuff and what I told him. Never had a good handle on what they did and I never felt an improvement in anything. After a while I stopped taking them, I really had no idea what they were for. Back then I was a pretty heavy drug user too though so shit was just pretty bad in general. Thankfully that's behind me.
I'm seeing a general therapist right now who's wonderful. No one who's actually able to diagnose anything though.
Edit: Not the same thing sorry
No it is different.
What exactly do you mean by treating the illness instead of what caused it? I was under the impression cbt pretty much ignores the causes of the problem (digging into your past) and focuses on learning how to deal with the symptoms.
A Fish Aficionado
I am going to make it through this year if it kills me
Pretty much. It teaches how to effectively deal with symptoms such as panic attacks and or negative feedback.
I wouldn't necessarily call it a cure either.
Yep, this was essentially my experience with CBT (saw two different therapists) And the bolded was the fundamental flaw for me. Like you, I wanted to address the troubles of my past, as I strongly believe that some of that stuff is what still affects my behaviour now. But the structure was entirely focused on the present. It felt really linear as well. As despite me expressing concerns about how suitable it was for me, there seemed to be a real lack of flexibility in changing their approach to better suit my needs. So I personally don't think it's too great for those with more complex, or long term issues.
Edit: not the same therapy.
In my case it was nothing like that, I haven't a clue if it is different in other countries. I went to a place called Mind (UK) who put me in touch with a local Pre-Cog therapist.
Edit: not the same therapy.
kingwingin
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Friday I called in sick to work to go to the mental health emergency clinic and they are setting me up with 6 counseling sessions for me.
I know I have issues but not sure what exactly but I know I have extreme anger and depression with anxiety.
Last night was my works christmas party and this guy I don't get a long with got way too drunk and started following me around and harassing me. He went to slap me on the back but hit my gf in the head so I yelled at him to back off. He then started yelling and throwing his arms up like he wanted to fight but another coworker jumped in and difussed the situation.
We then went and told my management what happened and their respons was "he's drunk don't get mad about it" "he won't remember it by monday"
This isn't the first time ive been told "don't worry about it" by managment. I've had other people try to fight me, swear at me, ridicule me for my weight and I always get the same respons "it was a joke"
Tomorrow I walk into work and I voluntairuly quite because of harassment and I feel like work is causing a lot of my problems that I have to deal with on my own time.
I know I have issues but not sure what exactly but I know I have extreme anger and depression with anxiety.
Last night was my works christmas party and this guy I don't get a long with got way too drunk and started following me around and harassing me. He went to slap me on the back but hit my gf in the head so I yelled at him to back off. He then started yelling and throwing his arms up like he wanted to fight but another coworker jumped in and difussed the situation.
We then went and told my management what happened and their respons was "he's drunk don't get mad about it" "he won't remember it by monday"
This isn't the first time ive been told "don't worry about it" by managment. I've had other people try to fight me, swear at me, ridicule me for my weight and I always get the same respons "it was a joke"
Tomorrow I walk into work and I voluntairuly quite because of harassment and I feel like work is causing a lot of my problems that I have to deal with on my own time.
I have had Depression, Anxiety when I am around people I don't know and fear of large crowds and Insomnia for ten years now. I couldn't go outside for 5 yrs or even pick up a phone, that is how bad I was. I was first just chucked on drugs and left to be out of it. I then had normal therapy and felt like I was being talked to like a kid. One time my therapist blew up ballons and put faces on them and said "act like these are people and talk to them". That is when I quit that. After 8 yrs of being messed about I did Pre-Cog therapy and it changed my mind. I still get, anxious, depressed and insomnia bit not as much and thanx to my therapy I know how to deal with it. To sort of talk to myself to get over a certain sitaution. Nothing about my life has been easy that had a short term fix.
Since pre-cog I now work in a charity twice a week and I am starting to get my life back together. I can now actually go outside 9 times out of ten and enjoy myself. After 10yrs it feels great.
Don't put up with anything that impacts you in a negative way in your life. It will only get you feeling more down the longer you put up with it. What you did showed you have the strength and courage to stand up to people. I would buy you a pint for that and hope you get a job that treats you like you should be soon. I hope you end up dealing with your illnesses as you did the idiots at your past job.
kingwingin
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thank you for reading my post and responding. I wish I could have found this strength sooner as I'm feeling as down as I can get right now. I'm trying to think positive and hoping I can get some sort of employment insurance since this is due to harassment and I feel like I have no other option but to quit. I really want to go back to school and take electrical engineering and I feel this is the perfect time to do that.
Do it! Go back and study electrical engineering, if it is a subject you enjoy what is holding you back? When I am feeling depressed or having a bad day, I always try to find something positive that can spur me on. Yes it can be hard to think that way sometimes, but sometimes just trying to be positive is enough. Even you thinking about going back to school and doing something you like is a postive. I hope you also sort out what ever you decide to do with you past employers
You're actually talking about CBASP, not CBT. The names are similar, but it's a very different thing.
Polydeuces
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I'll start it... soon lol
Yeah I did start by calling it Pre-cog therapy, but got confused when other people started saying CBT. It thought it was just a different name in the US. Thanx for pointing it out.
I recommend people trying it, if they haven't already and sorry if I have confused any one.
You know to be honest I don't even know what kind of therapy my current therapist is doing with me, or rather going to be doing. So far it's been a lot of him asking me questions about myself, talking about the medication and what to expect, talking about goals etc, and me attempting to give more than one-word responses. One of my (many) problems is that I have a hard time talking and verbally expressing what's on my mind, and that doesn't exactly make therapy easy. sigh.
One of the things I like about my current therapist is that she talks to me like an actual person, I'm not looked at as a problem to be solved. I've been in therapy since I was 7 and she's the first one I've ever felt that from. The rest of them came off as any of bored, detached, aggressive, or overly saccharine. It was especially bad when I was a child and had a really hard time talking about my traumas. Most of them got frustrated and angry with me.
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Mine does, too, which I appreciate. She's really good.
Today is the day I've been dreading since August, because my closest family member finds out if the abnormality that the local hospital saw in their only lung (one was taken out due to lung cancer) is a tumour.
An infection put them in hospital for a lot of the summer, and pneumonia was also a factor, so we're hoping that's what showed and that the hospital misread the CT. They did say that the pneumonia was on the right lung, which is nonexistent and was then. My fingers are crossed.
The lung specialist who did the surgery didn't seem too worried, and said it was possibly just infection showing. So, here's hoping. I mean, when they had a cold and a scan was done there was a worrying shadow, but it disappeared afterwards.
The appt. isn't until late this afternoon, and I've been up since 1:30am. I don't know if I'll go, because I don't know if I can handle it. I've gone to 95% of their appointments and always been there outside of them, but I don't know what to do. My anxiety is really acting up. I rock myself when I think of it, shake, repeat things related to it ("Please, no cancer; Please, no cancer; Please, no cancer") and obsess.
I've been doing this off and on for months.
The positive things that have occurred are this, though:
1) She wasn't too worried before
2) The shadow from before was nothing
3) The doctor follows this case very closely because she did something new to help drain infection from her original surgery, so she likely would've called to tell us if it was something bad. Right?
4) The doctor 'had an appointment' so she moved ours up a week.
5) Before, there was back pain and loss of voice associated with the tumour that was removed. No symptoms have been felt now, apparently.
Dear God, please don't let it be bad. I can't live without this person in my life, but I don't have the cojones to kill myself. I just fantasize about it. I'll just be a mess.
Today is the day I've been dreading since August, because my closest family member finds out if the abnormality that the local hospital saw in their only lung (one was taken out due to lung cancer) is a tumour.
An infection put them in hospital for a lot of the summer, and pneumonia was also a factor, so we're hoping that's what showed and that the hospital misread the CT. They did say that the pneumonia was on the right lung, which is nonexistent and was then. My fingers are crossed.
The lung specialist who did the surgery didn't seem too worried, and said it was possibly just infection showing. So, here's hoping. I mean, when they had a cold and a scan was done there was a worrying shadow, but it disappeared afterwards.
The appt. isn't until late this afternoon, and I've been up since 1:30am. I don't know if I'll go, because I don't know if I can handle it. I've gone to 95% of their appointments and always been there outside of them, but I don't know what to do. My anxiety is really acting up. I rock myself when I think of it, shake, repeat things related to it ("Please, no cancer; Please, no cancer; Please, no cancer") and obsess.
I've been doing this off and on for months.
The positive things that have occurred are this, though:
1) She wasn't too worried before
2) The shadow from before was nothing
3) The doctor follows this case very closely because she did something new to help drain infection from her original surgery, so she likely would've called to tell us if it was something bad. Right?
4) The doctor 'had an appointment' so she moved ours up a week.
5) Before, there was back pain and loss of voice associated with the tumour that was removed. No symptoms have been felt now, apparently.
Dear God, please don't let it be bad. I can't live without this person in my life, but I don't have the cojones to kill myself. I just fantasize about it. I'll just be a mess.
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I just spent nearly 2 hours trying to fall asleep. Once I started to tear up from persistent suicidal thoughts (like the note I would write and my requests) I got up. I don't like going to sleep now, which I cannot pinpoint why. I sleep 9-10 hours.
Well now i am really in trouble i was always really shy and overtime i developed a pretty serious case of social anxiety lost all but one friend, never had a girlfriend, avoid going out...blablba and so on you know the usuall stuff.
I registered on a bunch of dating sites and suprisingly over the next week i have two Dates... scary but also kind off a nice
I never was on a Date in my whole life and i basically have no clue.
I start to wonder what i was thinking using Dating sites :| whis me luck lol
I registered on a bunch of dating sites and suprisingly over the next week i have two Dates... scary but also kind off a nice
I never was on a Date in my whole life and i basically have no clue.
I start to wonder what i was thinking using Dating sites :| whis me luck lol
question - how exactly do you manage depression with people around you that think that "you're an adult now, you got to deal with it and live with the consequences?" or like they think that "despite what you are going through, you still need to get whatever you need to do done"
I am trying but results do not necessarily follow - so what am I supposed to do at all
I am trying but results do not necessarily follow - so what am I supposed to do at all
Who are these people that say "deal with it" ? People that think depression is that easy need to read up on it more.
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