Shorty said:
you sure it was mdma? If yes what did it do to you?
Yeah moderation is key. too much of anything will fuck you up.
Nope, can never be sure with that shit.
I started at about 14 and quit when I was 20. During those times I can't really remember who I was before starting or during. It's like I lost a sense of self. I still can't remember anything about myself from those days but I can remember things I've done. It's really strange, it's like you lost what a normal person would consider a normal thought process.
People would tell me that I was a funny guy and that I just changed into some delusional, pretensicous shell of what/who I was. I know the first time I tried 4 Blue Omegas, had a bad trip and then it all started to fall down hill after that. I started thinking real negative thoughts and I mean some really crazy shit but I continued the use as it changed my preception of what was normal? Nothing like drugs to escape a shitty life:lol
I was using coke, crack, K, G, shrooms, pot, booze, meth and occasionally sweet lady H too but E was my weapon of choice. I'm sure these other drugs helped fuel the fire but I'm sure E was the main culprit. It had to have fucked my serotonin levels up as that's the only thing I could think of on what's "wrong" with me.
It's been hard to get back to "normal" but I'm trying... but god damn the thoughts of another hit have never stopped, 5 years later.