Was it hard to convince the three doctors who's approve you needed for the procedure?
You have to account for your suffering, different times at different doctors. That can be very hard but luckily talking about euthanasia goes easy for me. Especially the talks with Lieve Thienpont (psychiatrist) were really enjoyable. She gave me the feeling, for the first time, that I got recognised in who I was, both in my power to fight it and the suffering I had to endure.
The biggest fight was the waiting. It's a long procedure, which I do understand because it's not a decision you take light hearted.
The further along you are in the process the more intense it becomes. When will there be an medical advice, and what will it be?
Your euthanasia is planned for this summer. What are you going to do 'till then?
I have no big wishes anymore, no travel plans or anything. I just really want to do the things that my friends and the people I care for want to do with me.
Ever since I was able to talk about euthanasia with the people around me, and especially now that I know I will leave this summer, a huge burden has fallen of my shoulders. I have always had a hidden agenda, and had to keep quite about it, but now that I can talk about it I feel so relieved.
I am almost freed from my pains and internal struggle, but I know ofcourse that for my friends and family who is left behind the mourning has just started now.
So I want to do everything I can to be there for them. It would be egoistic not to be there for them and sharing our last moments together.