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[Shao Kahn Brewing a Stew]

What is your username referring to?

 

[ColdPizza]

Welp, that's enough internet for me today. I'm very sorry you had to endure this.

 

[D4Danger]

I thought this was going to be some funny story like you came home drunk and got locked in the shed or something but this is the sort of thing they put on the news.

 

[efyu_lemonardo]

I'm 23. Its fine. It wasn't good, but its got better recently. She's not in the best place herself either.

Your mother is criminally liable as well, just to be clear.

 

[pablito]

Such a terrible situation. Sorry you had to live through that.

Do you have any words for him for when/if you come face to face?

 

[Palocca]

I wish you the best OP. I hope you get the help and closure you need to be able to enjoy life.

 

[blame space]

Jesus dude that's horrible.

 

[Mixolydian]

Holy god man. I'm so sorry that happened to you. As a victim of abuse, I'm just enraged right now. And good on you for saying something. That's not an experience to keep bottled up.

Best of luck.

Ugh..

 

[Jay Sosa]

No. Maybe I should be. I was very much so. But she didn't have a good time of it herself, he wasn't very nice to her either. And such awful resentful emotions aren't helpful. I don't mean in the sense of it being easy to forgive her, I don't think I have. But it would be pointless to maintain an endless stance of bitter hatred towards her.

Oh no doubt about that, It would do neither of you any good.

 

[TheOnlyOneHeEverFeared]

What is your username referring to?

That's Harry Potter. Its a quote I've always enjoyed from it.

I want him gone. Not dead, I want him locked up with the key thrown away. I think my mother has punished herself enough.

I have nothing to say to him. I'm over simplifying. But he has ruined my life for 23 years. I don't want to be the vengeful person. You can't take it back. You can';t change it. I'm still a simmering pot of rage. But I know if I give in to that, he's gonna win cos thats obviously what he wanted. I am not broken. I am alive. Thats what matters.

 

[johnsmith]

I am so sorry. I really hope you are able to move past this somehow and live a happy life in he future.

 

[daemonic]

Such a horrific thing for anyone to go through. I don't post much here but just had to say that I'm glad you survived the worst OP and are well enough to share it with us.

 

[entremet]

Have you considered therapy, OP?

 

[Plum]

As the son of someone whose worked with kids I've found that so many times when a children is "sick" something much more horrible is going on behind the scenes. Such a shit situation all around.

It's incredibly shocking what happened to you, I audibly let out a "what the fuck" when I read it and I rarely ever do that. So good to hear that he didn't affect you as badly as he might have wanted, and I wish you the best.

 

[neoemonk]

Yeah...

Confinement as a punishment didn't seem that bad compared to some of the things I had to do, but I was thinking in terms of minutes, not months. That's crazy shit, and I'm sorry you had to go through that.

 

[TM94]

Legit one of the craziest things I've ever read.

And certainly the craziest on GAF.

 

[Dr.Acula]

As the son of someone whose worked with kids I've found that so many times when a children is "sick" something much more horrible is going on behind the scenes. Such a shit situation all around.

I remember in Jr. High I had bad chicken pox and was out of school for a week, one of my teachers came by with cookies or soup or something. People who work with kids and do things like that are real heroes.

 

[SubScorpianZero]

I would not let your mom off so easily if I were in your situation.

I am speechless, sorry to hear. This will be something you will have to deal with for the rest of your life, I hope it will just be a negative memory that you learn to deal with and live the rest of your life in peace.

 

[TheOnlyOneHeEverFeared]

I'm not broken and I'm not dead. I was watching Captain America Civil War last week. And I realised, well not in that specific moment, but something I've been contemplating, that hows I know I've beaten him or I'm going to I can sit there and enjoy this movie. And other movies. And I can sit and have a cigarette and enjoy it. If he'd won I'd be dead. Or be too terrified to move against him at last.

I have let him beat me all these years. I'm not social. I have aspergers. I have PTSD. I destroyed my body with self harm. But I'm still here.

 

[Yonafunu]

This is sickening. Your father is fucking scum.

But OP, why were you and your mother running? What were you hiding from.

 

[D i Z]

Goddamn! OP, how you've made it through this so far and as well as you have is beyond me. Respect.

 

[Sabercrusader]

I...was really not expecting that when I read the thread title.

I'm so very sorry for you, OP. I can't even imagine what that was like. I'm seriously trying to picture it in my mind and I just can't.

Hopefully you get the justice you deserve and that it helps you come to terms with it.

 

[TheOnlyOneHeEverFeared]

This is sickening. Your father is fucking scum.

But OP, why were you and your mother running? What were you hiding from.

From him. After he ran. We moved to a different country. Cut all ties basically, far as possible. That was just after I did my GSCE's.

 

[mantidor]

I'm not sure such thing exists but maybe there are support groups of people who have gone through similar situations? It might help in the way face to face therapy doesn't.

 

[Plum]

I remember in Jr. High I had bad chicken pox and was out of school for a week, one of my teachers came by with cookies or soup or something. People who work with kids and do things like that are real heroes.

Unfortunately they're in short supply these days. The few that could care are too overworked and too bogged down my bullshit bureaucracy to be able to do anything. I'll never forget some of the things I've seen and heard come from my relatively peaceful countryside school, it really opens up your eyes.

 

[Quotient]

May i ask what country you were in when this happened? I just can't imagine schools in say Australia just accepting you were 'sick' when you haven't turned up to school in months.

 

[GeordieMark]

That is a seriously shocking story. Hope you and your mother get some justice. I can't fathom how awful that experience must have been.

 

[ampere]

Damn dude, I certainly understand a little better what you meant by abusive family members.

That sounds really hard and I hope you are working through it. Solitary confinement like that will be rough on anybody no matter how tough, so the fact that it was hard for you is not a sign of weakness and it's not your fault. Thank you for sharing your story with us.

 

[TheOnlyOneHeEverFeared]

May i ask what country you were in when this happened? I just can't imagine schools in say Australia just accepting you were 'sick' when you haven't turned up to school in months.

The U.K. Not saying exactly where.

 

[LurkerPrime]

You have my sympathies OP, what a heartbreaking tale. I can't imagine going through it. I hope you can find justice against your family, because such atrocities shouldn't happen to anyone.

The one big question I have is, how did you stay warm during cold or rainy nights, let alone stay healthy during that ordeal in 2005? (as you say, please ignore this if you don't want to answer) Like, I got chilled one day while at work and spent the next week incredibly ill, freezing to death unless wrapped in blankets, so I can't imagine surviving outside, imprisoned, in any sub-optimal condition.

Anyways, stay safe and enjoy the life you have ahead of you. I'm glad you've found some peace in spite of all this. Above all, thank you for the insight into your life and your pain; it's incredibly difficult to share such personal details, I have no doubt.

 

[Netherscourge]

This is like the 3rd story today I've read of kids being locked in isolation by their parents...

WTF is going on with these parents?

 

[Brakke]

The bit about keeping track of time by Pokemon releases got me. Most of my memories from when I was a kid blend together except for a handful of a calendar anchors, also mostly video game releases, that I use to delineate "eras" in my mind.

Thanks for sharing your story, OP. That's a horrible situation and I'm glad you feel comfortable enough to talk about it and take action now.

 

[Krejlooc]

I'm not broken and I'm not dead. I was watching Captain America Civil War last week. And I realised, well not in that specific moment, but something I've been contemplating, that hows I know I've beaten him or I'm going to I can sit there and enjoy this movie. And other movies. And I can sit and have a cigarette and enjoy it. If he'd won I'd be dead. Or be too terrified to move against him at last.

I have let him beat me all these years. I'm not social. I have aspergers. I have PTSD. I destroyed my body with self harm. But I'm still here.

I'm so glad to hear that. Seems you've taken the addage that "Living well is the best revenge" to heart. You sound like a very strong person.

 

[Catvoca]

Wow, I can't imagine what that must have been like. When you started I thought you were going to say you were locked in the shed for a few days, weeks maybe, but for nearly a full year? That is horrific. I'm glad to hear you're doing better now at least.

My family were aware. They didn't do anything. Well, they gave me books to read. Or gameboy batteries. But by and large he told them I was wicked and not to go near it, and they didn't.

If you don't mind me asking, when you say he said you were wicked, did religion play a part in this thing? I know you've talked about your struggles with religion in the past so I was just curious.

Edit: forgot to say, it's quite brave of you to share this much, even if it's just online. You should be proud of yourself for being able to talk about this stuff and confront it, it's commendable.

 

[TheOnlyOneHeEverFeared]

Well I'm only sharing with gaf. And I'm not planning on discussing it with anyone face to face. I don't find it very helpful. I always feel like they're judging.

 

[PeakPointMatrix]

What. The. FUCK!?

That garbage of a human needs to fucking PAY.

 

[FyreWulff]

The only thing I don't understand is how did your mom and the rest of your family just let him do that? How in the hell? What you wrote is not an excuse for them. You mother should also be prosecuted too. And other thing is, when you did you start seeking legal action over this? Is your dad a fugitive of some kind? I am sorry if I sound insensitive, but this sort of stuff boils my brain.

Read the book "A Child Called IT". Abusive people like OP's dad tend to be very controlling, domineering, and emotionally manipulative to the point where everyone around them just goes into survival mode, and the other family members won't help the targeted family member because they don't want to be in the same position.

And eventually their made up reality about their target is accepted as fact by both the family and their target.

 

[efyu_lemonardo]

Well I'm only sharing with gaf. And I'm not planning on discussing it with anyone face to face. I don't find it very helpful. I always feel like they're judging.

I doubt people are judging you, it's more likely they're shocked.

 

[T-Rex.]

I'm sorry that happened to you man. If you ever need anyone to chat to I'm happy to lend an ear.

 

[ampere]

Well I'm only sharing with gaf. And I'm not planning on discussing it with anyone face to face. I don't find it very helpful. I always feel like they're judging.

That might be so. It's hard as humans to not judge things we hear.

It's possible some sort of a therapist or counselor would help you work through things, but if you don't want to talk to someone in person maybe you could use a self help book by someone who had a similar situation?

I remember the book "A Child Called It" was about a boy abused by his mother and how he deals with it, maybe that could help you? edit: on second thought probably not a good book for someone with PTSD to read.

 

[FyreWulff]

That might be so. It's hard as humans to not judge things we hear.

It's possible some sort of a therapist or counselor would help you work through things, but if you don't want to talk to someone in person maybe you could use a self help book by someone who had a similar situation?

I remember the book "A Child Called It" was about a boy abused by his mother and how he deals with it, maybe that could help you?

I wouldn't suggest the OP read A Child Called It without a counselor or support to talk about it or at their suggestion.

edit: i don't mean this post to look snippy, but that book is rough as hell

 

[Cosmo Clock 21]

When did you realize something was wrong with the way you were treated?

 

[Messofanego]

Have you seen the film, Room? What did you think of it, accurate to how it felt like?

 

[entremet]

I wouldn't suggest the OP read A Child Called It without a counselor or support to talk about it or at their suggestion.

edit: i don't mean this post to look snippy, but that book is rough as hell

You're probably right since the OP said he has PSTD. Trigger warning for real.

 

[TheOnlyOneHeEverFeared]

When did you realize something was wrong with the way you were treated?

When my mother started finally standing up for me.


And yes I did see Room. I really liked the movie. I was a bit older than the boy in there though.

 

[ampere]

I wouldn't suggest the OP read A Child Called It without a counselor or support to talk about it or at their suggestion.

edit: i don't mean this post to look snippy, but that book is rough as hell

Yeah you may be right. I found the book very hard to read and I don't have PTSD.

 

[bryehn]

Uh...your parents should be in jail. This is a horrible story, you should seek hep, even if you feel fine now.

Christ man...

 

[braves01]

What did you do for personal hygiene? Was there a bed pan you used?

 

[TheOnlyOneHeEverFeared]

What did you do for personal hygiene? Was there a bed pan you used?

No. I suppose it would have smelt bad in there. But I didn't notice. I think I peed in one of the watering cans once but it made him angry.

 

[Murder. She Wrote]

How is your relationship with your siblings? Have they been supportive? Did they ever apologize or feel bad about the choices they did or did not make regarding your situation?