I think this was the last nail on the coffin.
I couldn't stand this anxiety anymore so I called her and decided to keep insisting until she answered me, I tried several times till she turned off her phone.................. but it seems she regret it because two minutes later she finally called back. We talk for about 10 minutes and she was only saying sorry over and over and over again, but everytime I asked her "What the heck is going on!!?" she only sighed and said sorry over and over to the point she started crying, I started crying too saying "it's okay, seriously, just tell me exactly why you have been acting like this with me this whole time!?" I even told her that I can't barely concentrate on my daily activities because of this. She only said that she feels impotent and very sorry for having me living with all this uncertainty, but that is not because of us. Suddenly she said she needed to hang the phone but that she will message me back in an hour or two... And surprise, it's been almost 4 hours since she said that and she hasn't message back. I called her few minutes ago and another surprise, she turned off her phone and it seems she also deleted fb messenger (or probably blocked me, fml). Seriously, if I wasn't that worried with this, now I am at the fullest. And very pissed off too to be honest.
Thank you for your advice. This definitely will not end well but I gotta be prepared for the worst now. When I was talking to her, she said very vaguely that we can talk on saturday but judging by the way she said it, it probably was just for the sake of saying something.
Yeah I seriously cannot believe the amount of mistery and suffering with her. Like, come on, this is starting to get mentally dangerous for both of us when everything can be solved if she just had a few minutes to talk! I guess soon I would be another lonely soul on the "break-up season" thread.
Thank you very much for your words of support, guys. It's going to be a looong night for me with this situation. This weeked is going to be a decesive one. I still have hopes that this is just her going through a very very difficult depressive state but that perhaps she still wants to continue on this or she really will end everything, even though I would feel like shit knowing she is going away but still feeling pretty down. I'm just hoping for the best even if the best doesn't look too bright right now.