Royce McCutcheon
Junior Member
Melting Pot GAF, 2017 has been a real interesting year with Lord Trump presiding over the USA. It has emboldened the silent racist and justified the vocal ones. What's on my head is the way I've had to adjust in public to these changes. When I say hiding my Blackness, I mean doing things and behaving in a way that makes all the white people around me comfortable, something that was essential for me to learn going into my job. During the Obama years, I gotta say I felt pretty damn good to be black, had a nice strut to my step when he got into office.
Ever since trump got In, I can't get out of my head that at least half of America voted for this man. So when I'm out and about, I feel as if I'm in a place that doesn't want me. It's led me to quite a passive state of mind where in mousing around out in public, trying to feel/seem as small as possible. Like I'm one shoulder bump away from "Get over here nigger". It's not fear I don't think. I just want zero problems, and it feels like just by being alive, I've become a problem. I look like a stereotypical "Thug", I'm 6'3 with dreads and arms tats, been stopped and frisked more times than my hands and toes. I've had to walk around stores making sure the people watching me don't see my hands in my pockets. It feels like that all the time now. Idk GAF, is it paranoia if they are actually out to get you?
Ever since trump got In, I can't get out of my head that at least half of America voted for this man. So when I'm out and about, I feel as if I'm in a place that doesn't want me. It's led me to quite a passive state of mind where in mousing around out in public, trying to feel/seem as small as possible. Like I'm one shoulder bump away from "Get over here nigger". It's not fear I don't think. I just want zero problems, and it feels like just by being alive, I've become a problem. I look like a stereotypical "Thug", I'm 6'3 with dreads and arms tats, been stopped and frisked more times than my hands and toes. I've had to walk around stores making sure the people watching me don't see my hands in my pockets. It feels like that all the time now. Idk GAF, is it paranoia if they are actually out to get you?