Finale Fireworker
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I think another part of my anxiety is that I actually remember being a really young kid. I have lots of vivid memories of physically not being able to do things or not understanding a stimulus.
I remember not being able to figure out how a key worked because I kept putting it in upside down and it never occurred to me to turn it over.
I remember not being able to dial a phone number because I couldn't remember how many numbers I'd already put in, even when copying it off a piece of paper.
I remember constantly breaking things because I had no concept of pressure. I would snap things made of wood and crack glass and bend metal because I would hang on it or lean on it or just be too rough with it in general.
I remember constantly slamming my fingers in doors because I never moved my hand out of the way fast enough, even though they never should have been there in the first place.
So because I was such a stupid and helpless kid, I have such low expectations of what a kid should be physically or mentally capable of doing. I constantly relate it to whether I would have been able to do it at age 6, 7, 8, 9, etc. The answer is usually no because I was a moron.
I remember not being able to figure out how a key worked because I kept putting it in upside down and it never occurred to me to turn it over.
I remember not being able to dial a phone number because I couldn't remember how many numbers I'd already put in, even when copying it off a piece of paper.
I remember constantly breaking things because I had no concept of pressure. I would snap things made of wood and crack glass and bend metal because I would hang on it or lean on it or just be too rough with it in general.
I remember constantly slamming my fingers in doors because I never moved my hand out of the way fast enough, even though they never should have been there in the first place.
So because I was such a stupid and helpless kid, I have such low expectations of what a kid should be physically or mentally capable of doing. I constantly relate it to whether I would have been able to do it at age 6, 7, 8, 9, etc. The answer is usually no because I was a moron.