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[Ailynn]

Kind of ironic that you quote the bible knowing that the same book calls you an abomination and calls for your death. Also that you defend "truth", while wanting to live a lie "in stealth".

I honestly understand that point of view.

Sorry if I came across strongly in that last post. It just makes me angry when someone creates disparaging false scenarios in their head about people they've never even met or spoken with, and then creates hurtful or damaging videos lying about those people and spreading those lies to millions of strangers stating it is 'truth.'

I'm tired of people being liars in general. I'm tired of blatant narcissism and the act of wanting to lift oneself up in this life at the cost of tearing down others and not caring who it destroys.


Sure, I have wished I could live 'in stealth' so as to not be judged by others...but I do not; I let people know I am reluctantly transsexual. I sometimes wish I had never been born with sexual differentiation and birth defects caused by Diethylstilbestrol. However, I was not...and although my family and I have suffered decades of health issues because of it, we get by just fine because of our faith in Jesus and the love God shows us daily in all the small blessings we receive throughout our lives.

I have wished I was not different from most everyone I've ever met in life. I have wished I could have been born a normal girl...that I could have met someone to become my husband, and I could carry a child and have a family with him. I am at peace now that this wasn't my lot in life.


I try to live a faithful life in Jesus as my redeemer and hold this verse close to my heart...the one I feel fits closest to my situation in life:

"For there are some eunuchs, which were so born from their mother's womb; and there are some eunuchs, which were made eunuchs of men; and there be eunuchs, which have made themselves eunuchs for the kingdom of heaven's sake. He that is able to receive it, let him receive it."
- Jesus Christ (Matthew 19:12)

 

[Mihos]

Deuteronomy 22:5

A woman must not wear men's clothing, nor a man wear women's clothing, for the LORD your God detests anyone who does this.

Leviticus 20:13

If a man lies with a male as with a woman, both of them have committed an abomination; they shall surely be put to death; their blood is upon them.

Leviticus is full of crazy stuff. Doesn't it say to burn down your house if you get semen on it or something like that?

 

[Ailynn]

Deuteronomy 22:5

A woman must not wear men's clothing, nor a man wear women's clothing, for the LORD your God detests anyone who does this.

Leviticus 20:13

If a man lies with a male as with a woman, both of them have committed an abomination; they shall surely be put to death; their blood is upon them.

While I do at times have hormone-driven mild attraction toward men, my sex drive is non-existent and I have never had sex with a man. I am completely at peace in that I will live out the rest of my days without an intimate or romantic relationship.

I am a eunuch relationship-wise, as well as both physically and spiritually.


As far as the clothing issue, I can tell you I felt intense dysphoria living and dressing 'in stealth' as a man earlier in life...and now that I am living as a transsexual woman I feel at peace. I'm not officially diagnosed Intersex, but I was born with physical abnormalities and grew into anxiety and intense depression as my gender dysphoria increased with age.

As someone else mentioned, how does Deuteronomy 20:13 apply toward genuine transsexual people? My belief is that it speaks against people who try to trick others for nefarious purposes, such as the false trans predator Jonathan Yaniv.

 

[MMaRsu]

Hey yall come watch my tutorial on how to paint so much shit on your face so you can pretend not to be ugly!



fuck this clown shit. Keeping women down with makeup instead of letting women realize they are beautiful if they look natural.

I mean not all woman are beautiful, but dont pretend that you are by smearing a lot of paint and shit on your face.

Fucking mask off bitch

 

[OnThePathToWisdom]

I honestly understand that point of view.

Sorry if I came across strongly in that last post. It just makes me angry when someone creates disparaging false scenarios in their head about people they've never even met or spoken with, and then creating hurtful or damaging videos lying about those people and spreading those lies to millions of strangers stating it is 'truth.'

I'm tired of people being liars in general. I'm tired of blatant narcissism and the act of wanting to lift oneself up in this life at the cost of tearing down others and not caring who it destroys.


Sure, I have wished I could live 'in stealth' so as to not be judged by others...but I do not; I let people know I am reluctantly transsexual. I sometimes wish I had never been born with sexual differentiation and birth defects caused by Diethylstilbestrol. However, I was not...and although my family and I have suffered decades of health issues because of it, we get by just fine because of our faith in Jesus and the love God shows us daily in all the small blessings we receive throughout our lives.

I have wished I was not different from most everyone I've ever met in life. I have wished I could have been born a normal girl...that I could have met someone to become my husband, and I could carry a child and have a family with him. I am at peace now that this wasn't my lot in life.


I try to live a faithful life in Jesus as my redeemer and hold this verse close to my heart...the one I feel fits closest to my situation in life:

"For there are some eunuchs, which were so born from their mother's womb; and there are some eunuchs, which were made eunuchs of men; and there be eunuchs, which have made themselves eunuchs for the kingdom of heaven's sake. He that is able to receive it, let him receive it."
- Jesus Christ (Matthew 19:12)

I can't speak for how you feel, and how you have felt for most of your life. I truly feel for your suffering and I'm glad you've found peace. But to deny there's not an agenda to push transgenderism onto the masses is very short-sighted. Laws are being passed as we speak that allow people in power to remove children from homes if their parents don't agree with the fact that their child identifies as transgender. Or that father in Texas that fights against the forced transition of his 7 year old son. Or to eliminate gender as a choice from birth certificates to begin with. We are being bombarded with media that's trying to normalize transgenderism. Now we're seeing drag kids on TV and the internet. If that doesn't ring alarm bells to people, something is very wrong.

I've researched these "transvestigation" videos myself and some go in depth into the origins of what is happening right now. It'll start to click and you'll connect the dots between stuff you've seen but never actually understood the real meaning of. This 'war' goes straight back to the time of Babylon. That's how old this 'war' on our world is. Once you know what to look for, you'll see this agenda all around us. I probably sound like a loon to you and most of GAF, but that's the cost of seeing the truth.

 

[Kamina]

Was it not obvious from the voice, or why was a blackmail even necessary?

 

[Ailynn]

I can't speak for how you feel, and how you have felt for most of your life. I truly feel for your suffering and I'm glad you've found peace. But to deny there's not an agenda to push transgenderism onto the masses is very short-sighted. Laws are being passed as we speak that allow people in power to remove children from homes if their parents don't agree with the fact that their child identifies as transgender. Or that father in Texas that fights against the forced transition of his 7 year old son. Or to eliminate gender as a choice from birth certificates to begin with. We are being bombarded with media that's trying to normalize transgenderism. Now we're seeing drag kids on TV and the internet. If that doesn't ring alarm bells to people, something is very wrong.

I've researched these "transvestigation" videos myself and some go in depth into the origins of what is happening right now. It'll start to click and you'll connect the dots between stuff you've seen but never actually understood the real meaning of. This 'war' goes straight back to the time of Babylon. That's how old this 'war' on our world is. Once you know what to look for, you'll see this agenda all around us. I probably sound like a loon to you and most of GAF, but that's the cost of seeing the truth.

You don't sound crazy at all to me, and I absolutely agree that there is an obvious and deeply concerning push for gender confusion onto the masses...especially onto all our innocent children.

It's becoming so crazy out there that even intersex people and people with inborn sexual differentiation and medically diagnosed true gender dysphoria are being cast aside for not following a certain agenda...one that says that sex doesn't matter and men and women are the same so why not mix everything up? Why not have scary looking drag queens dressed almost like demons read stories to children? Why not normalize all this chaos into the new norm, and make it so that those who used to be considered just regular people (even though they were the vast majority) are now outcast as evil and to be stamped underfoot?

It's incredibly scary and concerning, and it should be to everyone.

Don't get me wrong, I absolutely believe in some conspiracies; there is little doubt there are people out there with nefarious dreams to spread chaos and darkness across our beautiful world...and use the good will of others to push their agenda. The villains of the world are often never people who know they are in the wrong. As they say, the road to hell is paved with good intentions.

 

[OnThePathToWisdom]

While I do at times have hormone-driven mild attraction toward men, my sex drive is non-existent and I have never had sex with a man. I am completely at peace in that I will live out the rest of my days without an intimate or romantic relationship.

I am a eunuch relationship-wise, as well as both physically and spiritually.

That's a very honorable way to live and I'm glad you're at peace with it.

You don't sound crazy at all to me, and I absolutely agree that there is an obvious and deeply concerning push for gender confusion onto the masses...especially onto all our innocent children.

It's becoming so crazy out there that even intersex people and people with inborn sexual differention and medically diagnosed true gender dysphoria are being cast aside for not following a certain agenda...one that says that sex doesn't matter and men and women are the same so why not mix everything up? Why not have scary looking drag queens dressed almost like demons read stories to children? Why not normalize all this chaos into the new norm, and make it so that those who used to be considered just regular people (even though they were the vast majority) are now outcast as evil and to be stamped underfoot?

It's incredibly scary and concerning, and it should be to everyone.

Don't get me wrong, I absolutely believe in some conspiracies; there is little doubt there are people out there with nefarious dreams to spread chaos and darkness across our beautiful world...and use the good will of others to push their agenda. The villains of the world are often never people who know they are in the wrong. As they say, the road to hell is paved with good intentions.

Wow, you seem well versed in this subject. I might learn a thing or two. Good to see there's also a level-headed transgendered people in this whole matter. The loud, crazy side usually drowns out the normal side, which sucks for all of us.

 

[Afro Republican]

There are actually multiple versus in scripture, the complete scripture not the one with removed "books", that deal on this issue. But generally that doesn't go too well in sensitive topics like these.

However, I'm fairly surprised Ailynn actually responded and handled that decently well since I remember an early conversation months ago were someone brought up a similar statement and it caused er some anguish.

Seems you're doing much better these days Ailynn , at least from what I've seen recently.

 

[cryptoadam]

I only saw a few minutes of the video before I had to tap out...as I just found it incredibly obnoxious. The guy's voice is very low while all the other volume is very high, and he's spouting some of the same ridiculous transvestigation conjecture I've spoken about in the past.

Just check out his video listing - He's a conspiracy theorist who makes up ridiculous 'facts' to get YouTube viewings and subscribers, just like so many others. The guy is selling garbage, all falsely in the name of "truth."

He is playing a most dangerous game.

I peeped some of his other vids and he basically seems to think everyone in Hollywood is a closet transsexual and is giving out signals for the devil.

He is definatly a crazy cooky conspiracy theorist or giant troll joking us all.

 

[Bullet Club]

 

[Scotty W]

It seems like she has been living stealth since she was 19 years old. That's pretty much been the dream of most transsexuals over the past few decades.

Really? Why do you think that is?

 

[Ailynn]

Really? Why do you think that is?

Well, the real dream is to not be transsexual at all...but to have been born as the gender we feel we are in our soul.

Genuine gender dysphoria is a horrible thing to experience, and there is often a fear of people realizing someone is trans and then treating them differently than they would have before. Despite what some may think these days, transsexual people have not exactly been treated well almost universally over the years.

If a trans person passes well enough to not be seen as trans by others, usually that person's gender dysphoria should be fairly well controlled.

I hope that makes sense!

 

[Afro Republican]

If a trans person passes well enough to not be seen as trans by others, usually that person's gender dysphoria should be fairly well controlled.

I hope that makes sense!

You would thinks this but the Suicide rate barely changes and in some cases is higher, it just takes longer time to get to that point.

It would be nice if all these organizations and such actually backed research into an actual solution to solve the problem but there's so much bias, red tape, and money involved I guess it just won't happen.

I don't buy the story their "fiance" didn't know though. Someone on Twitter pointed out Nikkie said they had sex, so it's literally got to be impossible for the fake fiance to not have known that they were trans. So I think the new question is why did this YouTube star lie, what else are they lying about and why they would even care so much about coming out when they have millions of dollars in cash for doing nothing but having Vlogs and throwing on some generic makeup.

 

[Ailynn]

You would thinks this but the Suicide rate barely changes and in some cases is higher, it just takes longer time to get to that point.

It would be nice if all these organizations and such actually backed research into an actual solution to solve the problem but there's so much bias, red tape, and money involved I guess it just won't happen.

I don't buy the story their "fiance" didn't know though. Someone on Twitter pointed out Nikkie said they had sex, so it's literally got to be impossible for the fake fiance to not have known that they were trans. So I think the new question is why did this YouTube star lie, what else are they lying about and why they would even care so much about coming out when they have millions of dollars in cash for doing nothing but having Vlogs and throwing on some generic makeup.

I thought about that, too. Maybe it's possible that she was the first and only sexual partner the chance has had? Some people do have a dreadful lack of knowledge of the internal workings of the female reproductive organs. Also, one transsexual's surgeon skills will certainly not be equal to another's.

I definitely agree that when someone who struggles through all the difficult efforts it takes to transition and then have an extremely expensive and painful surgery....only to then discover the surgery outcome was faulty and leads them to further depression and added health issues...it makes sense that this poor person would only become more suicidal.

I just cannot understand how some people in the so called transgender 'community' could ever be against an eventual prenatal cure for preventing future cases of gender dysphoria, or even cases of intersex conditions.

These people obviously have no understanding or empathy for those that have crippling gender dysphoria...and only want to further blur the line between the sexes for their own selfish ideas for a future society that strays further and further away from the natural design God had for humankind. First, the blurring of the sexes...and then, actual transhumanism.