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[Radec]

dude, there are many people who are much much unfortunate than you are. And guess what, they are still alive and trying to make their lives much better.

Pretty sure you can do the same.

Hang in there.

remember, there's no games, girls, sex, beer, food, dogs, cats when you're dead.

 

[rSpooky]

Just adding my voice in support. Find help, you are not alone, do not let the darkness get you to give up on life. Call the help line , stay in touch with the people here on this forum and take small steps at a time. Find something , anything that you like, that gives you joy grab it , hold on to it and then build on that and you will find another thing, and then another ...

I went through depression and suicidal thoughts as a adolescent and it is no fun , but change is just around the corner, you will find it.

All the best OP.
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[JensenBeeswax]

Stay with us, dude. I'm broke and lonely too right now, but everything we do builds towards something positive.

 

[Altered Juice]

got accepted? you got this! you don't want to throw your life away

 

[Camp Lo]

First thing I had to do this morning was check this thread. I'm glad you're in a better mindset now for the most part OP.

If you ever need to talk or vent, hit me up. Stay safe dude.

 

[twilitesparklemotion]

This.

Co-signing all the posts telling you to call the hotline, but also, people don't revile your face. This may not be what you want to hear: but they probably didn't notice it! They're too busy thinking negative things about themselves. You need to be the one to say hi. Who knows? The person you greeted may feel the same way you did.

 

[FunBoy]

GAF loves you OP.

 

[Alligatorjandro]

Please don't do it OP. Life can be hard but the good times are so worth it. Things will get better.

 

[mjc]

I hope you talk with someone OP, don't throw your life away. You've got lots to live for even if you don't think so right now.

 

[hoverboarder]

This.

Co-signing all the posts telling you to call the hotline, but also, people don't revile your face. This may not be what you want to hear: but they probably didn't notice it! They're too busy thinking negative things about themselves. You need to be the one to say hi. Who knows? The person you greeted may feel the same way you did.

Nailed it. I remember when I realized this, started dating and made friends way easier and I'm weird and not very attractive. Be yourself and approach people and make yourself approachable. I wish you the best, and either way, GAF is here for you.

 

[Mononoke]

Nailed it. I remember when I realized this, started dating and made friends way easier and I'm weird and not very attractive. Be yourself and approach people and make yourself approachable. I wish you the best, and either way, GAF is here for you.

Yeah, it's a huge barrier to break for some folks. But once you open yourself up to the possibility of rejection without it weighing you down, you pretty much become invincible when it comes to meeting people. Yeah, not everyone is going to like you (that's just the way the world is, with such a diverse population). But if you are able to move past that, it's actually pretty easy to just meet random people. You will find, more often then not, most folks will totally be open to talking with another person that starts a conversation.

I think the problem is, most people tend to keep themselves (this differs in cultures/cities/communities of course). But for the most part, the average person is not going to just randomly go around talking to people they don't know. They live in their own bubble just like everyone else that is getting through their day. The problem is, this holds true for you too. But if you are the first one to break the silence and start talking to people, it's actually very easy to make friends.

I do get that it's very hard to do this for some. Social anxieties is one hell of a thing. And even if you don't have an anxiety, it still takes courage to finally open yourself up. Some people do this naturally, and some just learn to adapt quickly with this. But it's very hard for other folks. The key thing here is, You CAN do it. You can CHANGE your situation. It's not set in stone. So when you consider that you can change how you communicate, and that the world is this massively diverse population of people that all have different likes and dislikes and interests, your chances are actually very good of making friends or starting a relationship.

 

[cryptic]

I endured a hard morning following a hard night, I'm settled in my convictions like werther. Two people today pointed out how pathetic this is.It needs to end. I'm quitting both jobs and going to the beach to die where there's no finding me.
Please stop asking me to suffer so you can use me. There's nothing that makes me happy and no desire. Women were never there so they were just the last possibility of something new. Point is, it's not just loneliness, it's everything in view, everything you once loved, quietly leaving and nothing new.
My journals and my book that explain me-which wasn't capable of being edited- won't be legitimate until I'm dead. People should know what they do and who they kill.

 

[ffman]

Please don't do it cryptic. We all care about you.

 

[Vampirolol]

I endured a hard morning following a hard night, I'm settled in my convictions like werther. Two people today pointed out how pathetic this is.It needs to end. I'm quitting both jobs and going to the beach to die where there's no finding me.
Please stop asking me to suffer so you can use me. There's nothing that makes me happy and no desire. Women were never there so they were just the last possibility of something new. Point is, it's not just loneliness, it's everything in view, everything you once loved, quietly leaving and nothing new.
My journals and my book that explain me-which wasn't capable of being edited- won't be legitimate until I'm dead. People should know what they do and who they kill.

There is always something new. Please, don't do it.

 

[DJMicLuv]

life sucks and is frivolous wasted time.

Life's pointlessness is either terrifying or liberating. You have the right and the ability to choose which it is and write your own story. You are more free than you realise. Go and enjoy life, it's possible, I learnt how after being where you are and know that you can too. Define your own existence and don't be afraid to lose everything to know how little it all really means. There's no meaning to life unless you find your own, no one else can do that for you. I hope you decide to stay around and learn to enjoy the miracle of existence, your birth was so unlikely, you only get one chance on this earth so decide to enjoy it on your own terms and be happy.

 

[jmdajr]

Hang in there. Might take some time but things can get better. Don't check out.

 

[daveo42]

1-800-SUICIDE

Please call them. Don't make a permanent solution for a temporary problem.

Please call man if you haven't already.

We only get one shot at this life and then that's it. Nothing else. Times get tough and things turn for the worse, but with the lows come the highs. We just have to weather them and rely on those around us, like family, friends, and even this crazy site. Call them, PM me or anyone else in this thread, talk to your family. Just please...don't go through with it man. I don't know you who are personally, but I am damn sure that there people in your life that do care about you and that there is still a lot left to live for.

 

[twilitesparklemotion]

I don't think this will trigger cryptic any further. I think I found this on Mental Health-GAF: it's an article in the New Yorker about jumping. Particularly helpful was this quote:

As he crossed the chord in flight, Baldwin recalls, “I instantly realized that everything in my life that I’d thought was unfixable was totally fixable—except for having just jumped.”

 

[Deified Data]

Life's pointlessness is either terrifying or liberating.

This. When you realize that everything's inherently pointless, you realize your life has been just as productive as everyone else's. You're then faced with the daunting task of giving your life meaning, but that becomes so much easier when you're no longer constrained by ideas of what society considers meaningful. Find your own meaning, OP.

 

[zruben]

a friend of mine actually tried to take his life and his sister caught him and saved him.

a couple of months later, his life did a 180º when he got into a cheap painting class in a local museum.
new hobby
new feelings to explore
new motivations
new people in his life (that lead to a new job)

don't give up yet. something as simple as a painting class saved him, you just need to find your painting class.

 

[dysonEA]

I know this is not popular with GAF, but I know it helps those who feel the way you do:

http://harvest.org/knowgod/

 

[Nasser]

You can still pull though it as you have done in the past with other problems when they seemed the end of the world to you. Please hang in there and seek help

 

[thesaucetastic]

I endured a hard morning following a hard night, I'm settled in my convictions like werther. Two people today pointed out how pathetic this is.It needs to end. I'm quitting both jobs and going to the beach to die where there's no finding me.
Please stop asking me to suffer so you can use me. There's nothing that makes me happy and no desire. Women were never there so they were just the last possibility of something new. Point is, it's not just loneliness, it's everything in view, everything you once loved, quietly leaving and nothing new.
My journals and my book that explain me-which wasn't capable of being edited- won't be legitimate until I'm dead. People should know what they do and who they kill.

Please don't do it. Please. Things may be bad right now, but with time, these feelings will pass. One day, you'll be able to look back and it won't hurt.

Don't give up on yourself yet, because we certainly haven't given up on you.

 

[Volcane]

I endured a hard morning following a hard night, I'm settled in my convictions like werther. Two people today pointed out how pathetic this is.It needs to end. I'm quitting both jobs and going to the beach to die where there's no finding me.
Please stop asking me to suffer so you can use me. There's nothing that makes me happy and no desire. Women were never there so they were just the last possibility of something new. Point is, it's not just loneliness, it's everything in view, everything you once loved, quietly leaving and nothing new.
My journals and my book that explain me-which wasn't capable of being edited- won't be legitimate until I'm dead. People should know what they do and who they kill.

I don't see the point of this thread, if you're just going to give up. Surely, this was a cry for help.

You need to seek medical attention, as you appear to be suffering from depression. My mother went through years of depression and tried committing suicide several times by downing lot's of pills.

She went into a psychiatric hospital, and went through several treatments, but she is happier now, and got to see the birth of her Great Grandson.

Don't give up, there is always help out there. Just think there is always someone worse off than you.

 

[Mobius 1]

Would it be out of turn to notify the police to be on look for a potential suicide in the waterfronts in his/her area?

 

[dluu13]

Would it be out of turn to notify the police to be on look for a potential suicide in the waterfronts in his/her area?

He's still on GAF atm, according to his profile.

We're not asking you to stay so you can suffer.
Cryptic, you should go see a doctor. Even a walk in clinic should be able to advise you, but you have to do this yourself.

 

[TheJollyCorner]

cryptic, just hang out in here and talk to us.
Tell us some of the things you enjoy... some of the things that actually make you feel good.

Please don't do this.
There are a lot of amazing strangers here that want to talk to you and help carry some of this emotional and mental weight for you.

Just sit down somewhere and open your heart up. We're here and listening.

 

[Az]

What's up dude? You said you don't like your job. Got anything on your mind you'd like to do? Any skills you think that could get you a better job? PM me if you want, I can put a resume together for you and help you post it to the big job sites.

 

[cryptic]

I'm going to work. If the police approached me my death would occurr very quickly as there is no family they can shuttle me to so they can't help. 10 or so therapists/psychiatrists say my view of the world is correct.
My stress is logical, my views are philosophically sound.
Please stop trying to quantify misery.
Ha. A guy just sarcastically said "single" as he passed to get his girl to laugh. I'll just cutting into me until there's nothing left.
Nothing is helping, nothing is being said.
Tired and full of holes but trying "Thattaboy!" Right guys?

 

[BruiserBear]

Many people go through rough periods of mental struggle during their lives, but these are almost always phases, and they come and go like a cloudy day. While you're in the midst of a hard time, it may feel like it's never going to get better, but that isn't the case. You will come out of this. Get yourself some help, and you can start to turn things around.

Better days are ahead of you.

 

[OverBlood 3]

I know it sounds simple but whatever you've got going on in your life that makes you unhappy, stop being part of it, even if that means quitting your jobs. Your happiness is more important than working in something you hate.

When things get too much, there's no shame in stopping everything and revaluating your life and changing things.

 

[Cmagus]

Things can be hard sometimes man but that doesn't mean you should give up. I'm in the same boat work wise, I work 50+ hours as well and I'm not a fan of my job as well but I've also set goals to work towards while keeping in mind that one day I'll reach it.

You cook and you often hang out around cafes have you ever considered working towards your own business? maybe having your own cafe where you can cook and socialize with guests when they come in? Sounds like you're in a rut and currently have little motivation something we all experience but maybe a goal is something you need to keep you going and giving you something to work towards.

Suicide is not the answer ever and you know you might feel like crap this week but things can change like that. I've been there man, pretty much flat broke and working just to get by and just barely getting by it sucks but sometimes you need to have a rough patch to push yourself onto greater things.

 

[cryptic]

thank you thank you. my number is 413-682-4214. need suicidal encouragement. angry guy please call

 

[Sadsic]

go to hospital

 

[MoonsaultSlayer]

Write.

 

[sometimes i game]

Cryptic, aside from calling the prevention hotline, there's a really cool site called Meetup.com. You can find tons of fun (and even free) stuff to do with other people who are looking to make friends as well, bonding over shared interests. I really recommend doing a few of these, it's a great way to have fun and meet people.

 

[Neuromancer]

Please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, cryptic.

1-800-273-TALK (8255)

 

[Randolph Freelander]

I'm going to work. If the police approached me my death would occurr very quickly as there is no family they can shuttle me to so they can't help. 10 or so therapists/psychiatrists say my view of the world is correct.
My stress is logical, my views are philosophically sound.
Please stop trying to quantify misery.
Ha. A guy just sarcastically said "single" as he passed to get his girl to laugh. I'll just cutting into me until there's nothing left.
Nothing is helping, nothing is being said.
Tired and full of holes but trying "Thattaboy!" Right guys?

I pray that you get help, and I suspect that those therapists might challenge that this particular view is correct. It does not need to be like this.

God bless.

 

[Jenov]

Take a break, watch a good movie from your childhood, get some awesome nostalgia going. It's not worth doing anything you can't take back.

 

[Volcane]

I'm going to work. If the police approached me my death would occurr very quickly as there is no family they can shuttle me to so they can't help. 10 or so therapists/psychiatrists say my view of the world is correct.
My stress is logical, my views are philosophically sound.
Please stop trying to quantify misery.
Ha. A guy just sarcastically said "single" as he passed to get his girl to laugh. I'll just cutting into me until there's nothing left.
Nothing is helping, nothing is being said.
Tired and full of holes but trying "Thattaboy!" Right guys?

Should've replied with a witty repartee, such as 'why? you offering',

 

[Sylver]

Can I ask if you believe in something else post this life?
I ask this because I'm atheistic and I cannot understand why would you want to cut your only once life.
Change, man, change everything you do. It's pretty hard to change but you need to do this, it's easier change things, it's easier change routine than hurt yourself.
Have you thought in meet other cultures, other ways to enjoy the life?.
Wrong things don't deserve you pay with your suffering.

 

[stufte]

Cryptic. Everyone in here has said it 100x, but I'll say it again. Shit sucks sometimes man. IT DOES, but this is temporary and there ARE resources out there for you. Asking for help is the first step to feeling better, it may not seem like it now because of how hopeless you feel. YOU CAN FEEL BETTER. YOU CAN BE HAPPY. You just need to ask for help. 1-800-273-8255 Call that number man. Just fucking call it.

 

[Prez]

It seems most people in this thread don't have a basic understanding of autism and how hard it is for the OP to make changes in life.

 

[TheJollyCorner]

It seems most people in this thread don't have a basic understanding of autism and how hard it is for the OP to make changes in life.

So what suggestion(s) would you give cryptic?

 

[Camp Lo]

It seems most people in this thread don't have a basic understanding of autism and how hard it is for the OP to make changes in life.

I don't that's for damn sure. Dude just posted what I'm assuming is his number on here. Someone in that area code should reach out and help this guy.

 

[Tapiozona]

It seems most people in this thread don't have a basic understanding of autism and how hard it is for the OP to make changes in life.

So? What do you want people to do? Not encourage him? I don't even understand the point of this post other than to just be a contradictory ass.

OP, like many have said, life is full of ups and downs. Things will get better eventually. Take some time, get some help. There are many people who love you and many people who you have yet to meet that will love you in the future. Get through these hard times so you can experience those people.

 

[stufte]

It seems most people in this thread don't have a basic understanding of autism and how hard it is for the OP to make changes in life.

GTFO with this attitude. No one is saying he should do it on his own, wtf is your problem?

 

[Prez]

So what suggestion(s) would you give cryptic?

I really wouldn't know, we'd need to know a lot more about the OP. I've been diagnosed with mild ASD myself and have major social problems too, but I'm very motivated to be social regardless, about to graduate in a social profession so I've had lots of opportunities to practice my social skills during my studies and I'm hoping to move to another country soon. Then again in my profession there are plenty of opportunities abroad that most other people don't have.

So? What do you want people to do? Not encourage him? I don't even understand the point of this post other than to just be a contradictory ass.

OP, like many have said, life is full of ups and downs. Things will get better eventually. Take some time, get some help. There are many people who love you and many people who you have yet to meet that will love you in the future. Get through these hard times so you can experience those people.

GTFO with this attitude. No one is saying he should do it on his own, wtf is your problem?

Yeah you really have no clue what the OP is going through. Neither do I but I've been in a very dark place for years myself and I know that many of your encouragements are not making any difference, especially when you're socially dysfunctional and you feel totally rejected by society.

 

[Prez]

Someone in Springfield, MA, should buy this guy dinner and talk to him if they can, imo.

This is a good plan, let's hope someone follows up on this.

 

[stufte]

Yeah you really have no clue what the OP is going through. Neither do I but I've been in a very dark place for years myself and I know that many of your encouragements are not making any difference, especially when you're socially dysfunctional and you feel totally rejected by society.

That's where you're wrong. Autism is a fucking spectrum for a reason. It's not a diagnosis that is exactly the same for every individual, so don't go trying to put people down for trying to help, because all you're doing is insinuating is that he's incapable of getting the help he needs.