- Oct 25, 2012
started drinking around 13 or 14, but didnt have regular access till 16. between 16 and 22 i drank a few times a week. it was pretty normal drinking for that age, i really didnt have any problems other than a bad hangover.How often did you drink when you were on the wagon? How bad did it get? Were you functional or did you drink so much you'd get sick and blank out a lot? Just curious because I struggled with alcohol for a while.
i was working at a liquor store around 22 when i started to take shots and pound beers by myself after work. it a near everyday ritual. then i started taking shots right before i left work, then i started doing them during work (just a couple 99 bananas usually, maybe another two later on, if it was a night shift). i did that pretty regularly, but i had a girlfriend at the time who wasnt crazy about my drinking so it wasnt every single day.
somewhere in there my gf dumped me and i started drinking pretty much everyday. i was about 25 at this point. eventually i graduated to a half pint (200ml) of vodka, and i'd usually drink a 32 oz miller high life with that. then i dropped the beer and was a pretty steady 2 half pint of vodka every afternoon. keep in mind thats 400ml. a bottle of vodka is 750ml. so bascially, i drank a half a bottle of vodka every afternoon from age 25 to 27.
eventually i graduated up to a whole bottle every afternoon for a year and a half or so (this was when it was at its worst). i didnt always quite drink the whole bottle though, and would often finish it first thing the next morning to help me feel a little better (although you dont get bad hangovers when you drink that much that regularly.... you just kinda feel like crap 24/7 lol). sometimes i even drink as much as 1L of vodka if i had the whole day off and started in the morning.
it was by this point that i was drinking all day every starting in the morning. however, i did have a full time job and i never drank or was drunk at work. that may be the biggest reason why i didnt get more physically addicted than i did. but when i wasnt at work, it was drinkin time
sometime around28 or 29 i started to slow down. i'd qwuit for months at a time and pick it back up. start, stop, start, stop... just like that for a few more years, then july 1st 2018 i finally did it. i tried and failed a million times though. the key was to never give up (lol like the asian man in the video lol)
as far as how bad it got... i lived like in fifth all the time bc i was too hammered to clean anything, my health was god awful, i broke my phone at some point and just went without a cell phone for 6 months bc i didnt care or was too drunk to go through with the process of getting it fixed or getting a new one, i was driving drunk all the fucking time and just in general i was a POS and i knew it and i hated myself and i wanted to die, lol. so yeah it got bad.
sick? uuuhhh no not really. when you drink as much as i did, you dont get too drunk or sick, you dont get the spins anymore, youdont even get hangovers really. the worst that would happen is i would throw up sometimes in the middle of the next day but other than just generally feeling like shit all the time lol no i didnt get sick often
and yes i would get black out drunk every night. if i was drinking iw as blackin out. one time i woke up in the bathroom with no clothes on (i lived with a room mate at the time lol). another time i came to on the back porch and when i went inside the house was trashed. guess i went off on a tear or something. i dunno. it was insane