That's not abusing my power as a mod though; debating as a mod is allowed, so is arguing. It's just it derailed threads and I would KEEP replying over and over again, and sometimes I'd get so stubborn and say things so crassly that people would start to get offended. I wasn't "abusing" my moderation, I just wasn't a good fit for being a mod because I am way too opinionated and stubborn. But my 'decisions' as a mod were not actually breaking any rules, until the editing fiasco (which I totally deserved to be demodded for; and I deserved to have left moderation earlier because I had discussed my opinionated attitude with Evilore like 30x and should have realized I couldn't keep it contained). I followed the TOS for bans pretty explicitly. There were a few exceptions, every mod occasionally bans someone where other mods say 'well maybe we should be a bit more lenient here or there', but my problem was different.
That you feared me is something I can take responsibility for, but I did not ban people for getting into debates for me. On one or two occasions I would even message other mods to watch the discussions in case someone needed a ban because I didn't want to judge a ban in a conversation I was apart of.