I've read some self-help books. Actually, I'm bouncing back between 4 of them at the moment (obviously, I'm in desperate need). They are:
Self-Coaching: The Powerful Program to Beat Anxiety and Depression
Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Can't Stop Talking
Meditation: The First and Last Freedom
The Five Simple Steps to Emotional Healing
I've never really had a consistent work-out routine. I've been getting into hiking more. And have been wanting to add some mass (I'm scrawny) by doing some body-weight exercises in my own home.
My diet isn't the best. I was eating something like 75% raw for a couple of months last year and felt pretty clear-headed. Fell off when I went on vacation for the weekend and ate nothing but crap.
I've also immersed myself in social situations. I took the job at that retail store just so I could get out of my comfort zone. Correction from earlier, I only worked there for a year. I worked two years at a grocery store a few years prior. I also used to go out more often than I do now. I feel like a hermit. I have only one friend that I see weekly (besides my significant other). My SO has voiced his concerns to me about having to make excuses to his friends as to why "his man" isn't with him at events. "He has no energy", "He doesn't want to", etc.
How does one think their way into not giving a shit? I've tried. I'm sure if I was healthier it would be a bit easier to do.
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also try not to look at myself in the mirror for some reason. Is it possible to know you are "good-looking", but still have a low self-image? I guess that's the thing, I do not feel comfortable in my own body. I feel like I want to crawl out of my own skin at times.
I didn't think I had mental health hang-ups until I took LSD. At least I wasn't fully aware of them. So, uh, I guess something good came out of my freaking-the-fuck-out LSD experience. Drinking doesn't even work on me if I'm not somewhat relaxed to begin with. I can take 5 shots and still be anxious and self-conscious and quiet.
I'm getting on it. Being fit is definitely a goal of mine...