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So my past week certainly has been... interesting
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Count Dookkake
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Why tell him something he probably knows?
And why in such a rude way?
And why in such a rude way?
TheGreatDivide
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Hahaha
LyleLanley
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You're a mess.
So if he said he felt confused like some sort of he/she freak would you be so cool with it?
User 100115
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Cause he's taking steps to make his life better?
terribletwo
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some sort of he/she freak?
Sky is blue. Grass is green. Water is wet. Fire is hot.
Should we go on listing obvious things?
I have a mental illness. I've spent more than my fair share of time regretting the things I have done because of this fact.
But I've come to understand something: a mental illness is no different from a physical illness. A diabetic needs to live his life a certain way, and that doesn't make him a bad person. I have to take some meds and go to certain doctors for my illness. So what?
I'm just happy I live in circumstances that allow me to battle my disease. I have parents who care and understand and want to help, and while the system obviously isn't perfect what with the arrest and all, I did wind up in a place that got me the help that I needed.
I've decided I don't give a shit what people think about my disease. If you're gonna judge me based on an illness I struggle with, then you're not somebody I wanted to be friends with in the first place.
And you know what? It's your loss. I've spent years telling myself that I was a horrible person because of this disease, but I've finally realized that's not what defines me. I am a good-hearted person, friendly and fun, loving and caring. This whole ordeal helped me realize that I'm a stronger person than I ever knew, both physically (fighting off several guards after an overdose that should have killed me and being tased) as well as mentally (keeping my cool throughout a humiliating bullshit arrest, to the point where I was even able to converse and joke with the officers). I have come out the other side with a clearer idea of who I am, who I want to be, how to make that happen, and the shocking realization that I am closer to my ideal than I have ever dreamed.
Yeah, I'm a mess in some ways. I'm working on those. But I'm a good person.
Billie's a transsexual. She would probably be offended if I'd used an offensive slur against transsexuals, is the point.
And honestly, yeah, the first reply is right, I probably should cut back on my use of the word "retard," even though I did mean it literally in this particular instance. Habit sometimes overrides my consideration for the feelings of others. I remember it being a bit of a struggle to stop using "gay" as a pejorative, and I imagine it will be an even bigger one with "retard," but not one that I'm incapable of overcoming.
That doesn't make that first reply any less shitty and missing the entire point of this thread.
Some advice, for anyone, from someone who's been there and back again. Take it or leave it.
Own your mistakes. They make you stronger. You can fix them or at least put yourself in a position where you can learn from them. But don't dwell on them too much either.
Don't look back so much. Deal with what's in front of you. Big problems that seem insurmountable are just a lot of small steps. Put Frodo on your back and take on Mount Doom one step at a time. You'll soon be dropping that burden into oblivion and moving on.
Get out of your own head. The mind is a complicated place and it's easy to get lost in there so take a step back and let it do it's job. You're still the boss and will need consulting from time to time for the big stuff but for the most part it can take care of the smaller things by itself.
Have fun people.
Own your mistakes. They make you stronger. You can fix them or at least put yourself in a position where you can learn from them. But don't dwell on them too much either.
Don't look back so much. Deal with what's in front of you. Big problems that seem insurmountable are just a lot of small steps. Put Frodo on your back and take on Mount Doom one step at a time. You'll soon be dropping that burden into oblivion and moving on.
Get out of your own head. The mind is a complicated place and it's easy to get lost in there so take a step back and let it do it's job. You're still the boss and will need consulting from time to time for the big stuff but for the most part it can take care of the smaller things by itself.
Have fun people.
and it sounds like you've got just the right people with you to stay that way.User 100115
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The bolded made me teary, Kevin. You are awesome, you inspire me so much.
SilentProtagonist
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This is pretty awesome.
NotTheGuyYouKill
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If I could I'd brohug you right now.
Dark_AnNiaLatOr
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Thanks for the enjoyable read. Was kinda like a movie, and good luck in life.
Out of Working Order
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Good luck, Kevin. I've seen your posts here and there in the past, and have been able to identify in some ways.
Hope you get yourself back on track.
Hope you get yourself back on track.
Mistake
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Glad to hear you're alright kevin. I've been down a similar road myself, and it's no fun. Do your best to remember there's still beauty in this crazy world.
The legal system is definitely messed, I could probably write a book by now. But try not to think about it too much, as it will only bring back some stress, plus it sounds like you'll get out of it just fine. You have a great family, and things are looking up.
Today, I drove 3 hours to go to a convention and concert that Metroid Metal is playing at. Metroid Metal, if you haven't heard of them, is a band that plays Metroid music in a Metal style... hence the name. In line with the fact that Metroid is my favorite series, they are my favorite band.
Despite the 3 hour drive, I made sure to get here in time for the Q&A panel at 3:30.
After the host welcomed everyone and the Mini-Bosses and Metroid Metal introduced themselves, the panel quickly began to take a turn towards awkwardness. I was the only audience member with any questions, and the host was clearly struggling to come up with topics of conversation.
About the third time the host asked the audience for questions and I looked around to see that nobody else had any questions, I did something that shocked even myself: I raised my hand, and when called on, climbed to the front with the host and proceeded to spontaneously co-host the rest the panel. When the audience and the host were unable to think of anything good to ask, I pulled something out of my ass, from the somewhat relevant - "Super Metroid vs. Metroid Prime?" or "Avengers vs. TDKR?" (since it was specifically a comic convention) - to the utterly bizarre - "Ice Ice Baby vs. Underpressure?" - I helped keep the panel fun and interesting to the very end.
I, Mr. Shy and Awkward, basically saved the panel by being fun and spontaneous and confident.
I swear, it's like I truly did die when I took those pills, and I was replaced with a completely different person when I woke up.
I'm not trying to turn this thread into my personal Livejournal. I'm just trying to show everyone else like me, those depressed and anxious, that there is hope, that you can change.
Maybe I should write a book.
Despite the 3 hour drive, I made sure to get here in time for the Q&A panel at 3:30.
After the host welcomed everyone and the Mini-Bosses and Metroid Metal introduced themselves, the panel quickly began to take a turn towards awkwardness. I was the only audience member with any questions, and the host was clearly struggling to come up with topics of conversation.
About the third time the host asked the audience for questions and I looked around to see that nobody else had any questions, I did something that shocked even myself: I raised my hand, and when called on, climbed to the front with the host and proceeded to spontaneously co-host the rest the panel. When the audience and the host were unable to think of anything good to ask, I pulled something out of my ass, from the somewhat relevant - "Super Metroid vs. Metroid Prime?" or "Avengers vs. TDKR?" (since it was specifically a comic convention) - to the utterly bizarre - "Ice Ice Baby vs. Underpressure?" - I helped keep the panel fun and interesting to the very end.
I, Mr. Shy and Awkward, basically saved the panel by being fun and spontaneous and confident.
I swear, it's like I truly did die when I took those pills, and I was replaced with a completely different person when I woke up.
I'm not trying to turn this thread into my personal Livejournal. I'm just trying to show everyone else like me, those depressed and anxious, that there is hope, that you can change.
Maybe I should write a book.
Atramental
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Wow. This is quite a turn around. And in such a short amount of time as well!
That's really good to hear, Kev.
That's really good to hear, Kev.
User 100115
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I could never do that! Omg you rock so much. I would have flailed and blushed and ducked for cover. Can I start fangirling you now?
And yes, you should write a book.
Fiction I really must say you have been nothing but a class act. I was banned for a week for a TLDR misdameanor and saw your comments in the thread that got locked. (Ugly guys w/ hot girls). So yeah your comments towards Kevin were nothing but awesome.
Kevin also you are a great guy man. Glad you are doing better. I go through my own mental shit to brother so I feel ya. Glad you are doing better bro , you are a great poster.
Kevin also you are a great guy man. Glad you are doing better. I go through my own mental shit to brother so I feel ya. Glad you are doing better bro , you are a great poster.
User 100115
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How have the last couple of days been Kevin?
Perspicacity
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Really glad to hear this. I struggle with a mental illness as well and while I've bottomed out a couple of times, I'd like to think that those experiences have shaped me into a better person. Keep this thread going, will be nice to hear more of your story.
I'm lttp here but good on you man. That's pretty awesome.
Snkfanatic
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This is great Kevin, glad things are getting better for you dude!
Not much. The weekend's catching up with me.
Looking into becoming a Certified Peer Specialist. Basically they're looking for people with mental illnesses and gone through recovery to help other people with mental illnesses in their recovery. Seems like the perfect job for me. Hopefully I get accepted for the training.
Also trying to figure out how to make a move on this single milf.
User 100115
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Oh that would be so awesome. I always find that helping other people keeps me from drowning in my own crap, so it could be totally perfect.
Officially, Major Depressive Disorder and Generalized Anxiety Disorder.
I just like to say depression, anxiety, and anger are my own little cocktail of fun.
She's milfy.
User 100115
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How is it going Kevin? Anything new to report?
SMT
this show is not Breaking Bad why is it not Breaking Bad? it should be Breaking Bad dammit Breaking Bad
Hey Kevin, I was following your thread last time, and was surprised to see you banned.
You're a pretty brave individual for not having lashed-out at the cop with a warrant for your arrest, I mean you got all your energy back from a therapeutic stay only to be evicted from your home.
You are also patient, I'm glad it's all sorted out.
Keep trying with girls eventually until you find one that says yes.
You're a pretty brave individual for not having lashed-out at the cop with a warrant for your arrest, I mean you got all your energy back from a therapeutic stay only to be evicted from your home.
You are also patient, I'm glad it's all sorted out.
Keep trying with girls eventually until you find one that says yes.
Baconsaurus Rex
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I didn't include you on my favourite gaffers list, but I have to say it Kevin: I love you
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