How do you guys deal with heartbreak? It has been almost 5 months. She's with another guy, doesn't talk to me, probably hates me, etc. I still am filled with grief, memories, regret, longing... at 5 months I thought I'd feel better.
How do you guys deal with heartbreak? It has been almost 5 months. She's with another guy, doesn't talk to me, probably hates me, etc. I still am filled with grief, memories, regret, longing... at 5 months I thought I'd feel better.
It can be effective but it won't work miracles. Obviously it's not going to fix your life, only help lift and stabilize your mood and anxiety. I've been on Zoloft for over five months...
Anyone have any tips for finding therapists or psychiatrists on a budget? I can't really afford health insurance right now (and since Tennessee didn't expand Medicaid the government isn't going to fine me for not having it this year) and with how little money I already make I'm kind of between a rock and a hard place as far as getting help goes. I'm considering calling up Vanderbilt or one of the other local universities and seeing if they have any students they can dump on me for cheap or something like that.
How do you guys deal with heartbreak? It has been almost 5 months. She's with another guy, doesn't talk to me, probably hates me, etc. I still am filled with grief, memories, regret, longing... at 5 months I thought I'd feel better.
You pretty much just have to be meeting new people, keeping busy, and possibly getting help from a psychiatrist or therapist on the side if needed. I wasn't really "over" my ex for years, even though I broke up with her, but once I started meeting more people again I realized that the feelings I had with her were not "once in a lifetime" or anything, they really can be replicated with other people.
Man, I'm currently under heavy stress. Trying to go out every day, always a couple more meters from home. My Agoraphobia is very advanced, can't leave the house for more than 300m. Haven't gone further tzan 700m in about 2,5 years.
Yesterday I called a Psycholog. Took me a lot to do that. I usually eat all my problems into myself and don't share my feelings with my family. Wish I had a friend to do these kind of things. It was a waste. He was recommended to my mom by a friend of hers. He refused to talk anything on the phone. I am not an idiot so I didn't want a phone therapy but he was so reluctant to even listen. He is 20km away. That is madness for me. I kept telling him I haven't left the house for even one km in yeqrs but he didn't care. "Get better in yourself so that you can come me" Thanks asshole for nothing.
I lost hope many years ago but seeing my family getting more and more sad because if me is really hitting me. But I just can't muster up courage to fight back.
There is a day clinic about 1,5km away. I seriously think that is my last chance at anything. But first I have to get at least good enough to actually be able to go that distance.
Man it sucks so bad. Because of that I'm having constant headaches which I usually never have.
I thought I was feeling better. Not really sure. Ever since the weather has gotten beaten I've taken to wearing a sun screen with.zinc that leaves.me looking goth pale but fine I think. I understand by the looks.I get it's assumed I'm trying to fit an archetype. There's some comfort in being in control of what others think of you so I don't really care.
A bigger problem is my.inability to be as emotional as I feel I should be.
A few days ago a co-worker hit me in the face fairly hard with a towel and I wanted to fight him. I can't fight, and I know that, and I would be overreacting if I made more of it.So I cut myself a little to deal.
today I saw too many beautiful girls and I can't be in a relationship as.I have autism, so I cut myself in.a three inch line and it made me very tired.
I have been cutting.myself a lot lately.for that reason.
mostly small cuts but the latest bled quite a.bit.
I think I'm going to buy a computer and write what I have to say then give up on living as I'm just dead and infecting now anyway. life isn't anything without love, and narcissism only shortly sustains before shame.
I wish I was beautiful enough for someone.to have tried.to love me but I can't be befixed now. I deviated enough to deserve this.
How do I deal with it? Not well.
I mean, I've straight up run off some excellent women over the years with all of my crazy foolishness.
The cliche is that it takes time, but that actually seems to be the most important ingredient. That and trying to be open to meeting someone new. To feel like you've moved on, you've gotta actually move on, you know? I've carried stuff way longer than 5 months, but looking back, a lot of that was my choice.
Some things might always sting a little from time to time, but that daily achey/yearn-y thing doesn't last forever.
You pretty much just have to be meeting new people, keeping busy, and possibly getting help from a psychiatrist or therapist on the side if needed. I wasn't really "over" my ex for years, even though I broke up with her, but once I started meeting more people again I realized that the feelings I had with her were not "once in a lifetime" or anything, they really can be replicated with other people.
Love is crazy, but there is no "the one" so your best bet is to not think about her, and when you start to think about her, remind yourself it's a bad idea and don't indulge on it. Stay busy, don't let your mind wander back. Get a new hobby to occupy you. Hope you feel better.
I'm sorry Patriot but you have no choice but to move on, do whatever it takes to get her off your mind.
If you can't do it, force it. You're stuck in the past and really don't want to be left behind now.
Thank you very much for reading. I honestly think real-life persons will be of much more effective help. The thing is, online help can be shut down and ignored very easily. I live in a very small town. I have no friends. I don't go out at all. I am aware that I am stuck in a spiral. Alone I can't get out. I give up and loose hope too easily as well. At least I am aware of my own mistakes but that is something important. I am not blaming anyone. It all lies at me. There can be as much support from the outside but if there is nothing inside me working for it, then it is to no avail.I've never had substantial agoraphobia so I can only imagine your struggle, but I am sincerely sorry for your suffering. Is there anything anyone there or here on GAF can do to help encourage you to seek care at the clinic that's 1.5 km away? That sounds like a good option.
I've been pushing myself when it comes to meeting new people. I went on sites like pof, okc, and used tinder to meet women these past 5 months. The most recent one I've talked to knows of my ex issues and recently told me she likes me. I... just can't do it. It doesn't matter how cool, smart, pretty, or nice these women are that are interested in me (go figure). I just can't seem to move on.
I got into a huge fight with my best(only) friend of over a decade and I don't know if it will recover. Basically she's an alcoholic and it was taking its toll on our friendship and our outings, it was getting more and more frustrating to deal with, and according to her I sometimes get mean and say hurtful things to her. She has a huge problem embellishing and exaggerating (everyone close to her knows this), but she may be kind of right, but she also refuses to acknowledge that she's an alcoholic and it turns her into a selfish, manipulative, and sometimes mean person, and has a long history of almost compulsively saying little mean and sometimes hurtful things "half-jokingly" for no reason whatsoever. Well some pretty bad things were said to each other last night and now I feel like shit.
To be honest there's been a part of me that for a while has felt like our friendship has kind of run its course, albeit a lot of it due to her selfishness in our friendship stemming from her alcoholism, but she's been the closest friend I've ever had and we normally get along great and I feel comfortable around her in ways I don't around anyone else. I'm just confused right now and don't know what to do.
Wonderful!Feeling very hopeful about getting better.
I'm sorry if this has already been covered elsewhere, but have you sought therapy? I had a particularly bad breakup at age 19 that left me contemplating ways to end everything and therapy helped me immensely.I guess I'll try and see if faking it works.
Thank you very much for reading. I honestly think real-life persons will be of much more effective help. The thing is, online help can be shut down and ignored very easily. I live in a very small town. I have no friends. I don't go out at all. I am aware that I am stuck in a spiral. Alone I can't get out. I give up and loose hope too easily as well. At least I am aware of my own mistakes but that is something important. I am not blaming anyone. It all lies at me. There can be as much support from the outside but if there is nothing inside me working for it, then it is to no avail.
Thank you for reading. That means a lot.
I'm starting to accept that my life can't be fixed and I think I should just quit my job, burn through my remaining savings and just die in peace. My only concern is that I have two dependents that I'll be fucking over but I can't do this any more. How can I make sure they're well off when I'm gone?
My physical condition has deteriorated to the point where I'm moving into a nursing at the beginning of the month. I'm only 45. I already suffered from depression and anxiety before this news came about but not it's in overdrive.
I just keep thinking die, die, die you cripple bastard. I have started to cut back on my pills so I have a extra stockpile when I get to the home. Thank you for a informative thread. Goodbye
I'm sorry if this has already been covered elsewhere, but have you sought therapy? I had a particularly bad breakup at age 19 that left me contemplating ways to end everything and therapy helped me immensely.
Thank God I don't live alone. With my family. They are supportive. Problem is on my part. I can't open up to them. Don't know why but I try to not let them know about my sadness too much. They do know though.Do you live alone? Is there anyone in your household that can be supportive?
I think narcissism is something I've naturally adopted as I need to be loved,but it's a poor substitute for the real thing. I realize it will eventually hurt more than it helps.If you want love than narcissism isn't the way but it hides the shame pretty damn well. Don't know if it's something you can choose though so that may be why it doesn't work for you?
Anyway see a therapist if you can, might be total bullshit but might help you too. You never know.
Aside from reading more articles on the subject, no. And everything I read suggested that those aren't for me, but for people that developed depression as adults. They're able to differniate normal from depressed because they're experienced both. I've felt like this for as long as I can remember.I disagree that your life can't be fixed, for what that's worth. I'm sorry if you've covered this elsewhere and I haven't seen it but have you pursued any mental health treatment, whether therapy or psychiatry?
Therapy will only tell me what I already know. I know I need to figure out what I want to do with my life, because other than this breakup, that is what is killing me. In fact, it was killing me before I even met my ex. It's something I've been needing to figure out for a long time and this breakup only amplifies the shitty feeling I've had from it all, ON TOP of the woman I love leaving me because she no longer loves me (mostly my own fault) and loves someone else. That, without a doubt, is the worst feeling I have ever experienced.
Thank God I don't live alone. With my family. They are supportive. Problem is on my part. I can't open up to them. Don't know why but I try to not let them know about my sadness too much. They do know though.
I need a bit distant helper I think.
Aside from reading more articles on the subject, no. And everything I read suggested that those aren't for me, but for people that developed depression as adults. They're able to differniate normal from depressed because they're experienced both. I've felt like this for as long as I can remember.
I have severe depression, PTSD and anxiety. I just found this thread and it helps me not feel so alone with the struggle.
I hate when I'm not smart. Today in my c++ class, its like I'm on another planet. I'm learning on recursions and algorithms that relates to quick sorting, merge sorting, etc. It's really discouraging when I don't understand what my instructor is talking about. Time complexity stuff is annoying too. I went to a tutor to get help on the homework, and it still doesn't make sense. It sucks being an idiot with so many flaws. I lack persistence and comprehension when doing homework or learning something new.
Not necessarily "adults" but look at your example: those family members developed depression. They had a normal, happy life and it changed. Everything about depression and therapy is about people who have changed for the worse. What if nothing ever changed? I've always been like this. There don't appear to be any resources for people like me who have always had this.I've never heard that therapy is only for those who develop depression as adults, so I'm confused where you got that impression. Several members of my close family have had anxiety and depression since a young age (mostly teen years) and some didn't seek treatment until their 40s and it still helped tremendously.
I am seeking treatment but I keep running into these dead-ends.Please reconsider seeking treatment; you have nothing to lose. I'm not sure if you ever read this post I quoted you in, but it has more info on what to do and look for.
How did it help you?Therapy helped me unpack things and the therapist helped me figure out why it was that the breakup was not just making me feel bad, it was making me feel suicidal.
Not necessarily "adults" but look at your example: those family members developed depression. They had a normal, happy life and it changed. Everything about depression and therapy is about people who have changed for the worse. What if nothing ever changed? I've always been like this. There don't appear to be any resources for people like me who have always had this.
I am seeking treatment but I keep running into these dead-ends.
In the context of my break-up? Well, to answer that fully I'd have to go on and on about the way I relate to women, my feelings about this particular girl (she was my first love) and what exactly transpired but I'll try to give the short version.How did it help you?
I still don't know what to do, what will help me, and no one seems to understand what I'm asking.What is the dead end you've run into?
I need to figure out what I need before I can begin looking for it in the area.Have you been able to look into mental health treatment in your area? There are quite a few resources out there dedicated to connecting the in-need with doctors.
No, in the context of therapy.In the context of my break-up?
What did therapy do to you that it helped?Therapy helped me with understanding, insight and treatment.
How will you know if the person you're seeing is good or bad?The point is that every patient-therapist relationship is different and it may take a few tries to find one that works well for you. But most therapists should be able to help you learn something.
How are you even getting into relationships in the first place with your issues? You're not allowed to date until you've worked on yourself or whatever first so it's weird that you're doing things out of order. Weirder that it worked out. That's another discussion though.I've gone through two more major break-ups since then and they both went much more smoothly.
I hate to come off as potentially rude, especially because you've been sooo patient and well-meaning, but it wasn't. I have all the same questions as before plus more now. I can't keep asking a stranger to dedicate this much time to me for nothing either so I think it's best if you just ignored me from now on. Like, don't feel obligated to answer any of the questions in this post- consider them me thinking out loud.Hope this was helpful. Let me know if you have any questions.
I'm sad, cannot sleep, tired, realized I am pretty bad around other people and so on and so on and so on.
I am sorry I made a mess.
i can barEly make it through work on an easy day. I feel so useless, I need someone, and I don't want just anyone. The only thing I want to do is die, I tried everything else that I could do. There isn't any help, I'd just live longer with some fucking stronger imagination that I could repair as I grow older. I'm twenty-five soon, and I can't endure the daily shame. My short, worthless body that doesn't attract, and my intelligence that is retarded is retarded.
I can't keep cutting myself to try and endure, part of me loves myself, and so I want to be inanimate like the teddy bear I hugged.
how do you continue to be tough when your body fails and you don't enjoy anything and everything starts a hope that only ends reminding you of your inadequacy?
every human being looks at me like an idiot or an enemy, and I'm supposed to think I have a choice?
how do I network here in this place?
I want to hurt myself and make everyone look even though I love them that is the end result.
How much longer can I keep living.
no one should care, it's my failing.
for guys, that have trouble to go to sleep and are not taking other medications - did you try Valerian (Baldrian) herb? My sister managed to get her insomnia (caused by too much stress) in check with this.
I really wish that if I have to poison my social life all the time that the poison could work instantly. I don't want to fuck off people once I get attached to them.
Get rid of it. Or store it with a close friendI bought a gun today. I don't have any concrete plans yet, but it feels oddly calming knowing that I have a quick and easy method for when the time comes.
I bought a gun today. I don't have any concrete plans yet, but it feels oddly calming knowing that I have a quick and easy method for when the time comes.