Thanks. I appreciate every like I get on here, it's brightens up my day a little, it means something I said meant something to someone.
Relate. I think it’s important to not rely on likes as validation, a trap I fall into every now and then, but knowing you could contribute a little bit to someone’s day, whether it be a laugh, a smile, or just something really interesting, feels good.
My problem is mainly manic depression, and anger issues. I don't just feel like I don't belong here sometimes, but anywhere.
Me too, on belonging. All the time. I don’t even feel like I’m the same species. There is so, so much stupid in the world right now, that I feel like belonging is the truly insane, worrying thing.
All you can do is be the absolute best version of who you want to be (assuming you don’t want to be Bin Laden Jr. or something
), and strive to that every day. People are going to get on board, or they’re not. Take good criticism, but understand there will always be someone riled up by you, or that doesn’t like you, unless you blend perfectly into the crowd, socially manipulate, and never make a peep, which is no way to live a life.
I don't think I'll fit in anyplace, and that I'm never going to. When people say something that makes me feel attacked, I just wanna shut down after I have an outburst. Before it was just irritability, but I'm getting concern more that I have actual anger management problems now. I let things get to me too much.
Yep. People like the ones that were insulting you and calling you names for having a perfectly valid opinion the other day... you have to be able to tune that shit out, and focus on the people and things that do matter.
Which I meant to say earlier — finding the right people in your life, and loving, caring for, or sharing friendships with them, is the real goal. They are out there.
I'm a rough spot, a lot of people are this year I'm sure, but I've been feeling like this for a lot of years. Can't really seek help or more therapy, because I can't afford it. I had an easier time affording it when I was unemployed, but now that I'm working, paying for therapy is something I can't even do because my insurance sucks. So I'm constantly coping with my own insecurities, and I'm not doing a very good job of it.
Not the first time I’ve heard this on Gaf. The US really needs to do a better job of getting help to those who need it. I’m not a practitioner of anything, and my ability to help is limited, but I can say that you’re not alone. Either as someone going through these things, or a Gaffer.
Much love, and don’t let people that really aren’t worth anything, dictate how you feel about yourself.