I'm in pretty good physical shape which is nice. Also busted a fat nut earlier and the volume was good as well as the distance.
My advice? Go seek out some therapy and a psychiatrist for some anti-depressants. You may roll you eyes while reading this but it really helped me out when I needed it dude. Hope you feel better.My life is consistently shitty. So I have consistency going for me, which is nice.
Thanks, man. Nah, I get that this is legitimate advice and you are right. But I guess you know the drill. There's a mixture of "I don't need it, I can fix myself on my own" and "I am afraid/too uncomfortable to talk about all this stuff with someone. I also don't want to bother anyone.". Joining GAF (was on ERA at the beginning) was already a big step for me actually. Just to communicate with people on a (somewhat) regular basis without feeling that I need to put a mask on all the time (even though, all I am really doing here is basically fancy shitposting; Shout out to the mods for not banning me). Ah, well, shit's complicated.My advice? Go seek out some therapy and a psychiatrist for some anti-depressants. You may roll you eyes while reading this but it really helped me out when I needed it dude. Hope you feel better.
No problem but I would still highly, highly consider it. Trust me, everyone who resist therapy says the same thing but the reality is they are there to help you. They would not have picked the profession if they didn't care about people because its not worth going through that level of education just for the money and those people will make shitty therapist. Obviously I can't force you but as someone who has thought the very same things as you, it really helped me out bud.Thanks, man. Nah, I get that this is legitimate advice and you are right. But I guess you know the drill. There's a mixture of "I don't need it, I can fix myself on my own" and "I am afraid/too uncomfortable to talk about all this stuff with someone. I also don't want to bother anyone.". Joining GAF (was on ERA at the beginning) was already a big step for me actually. Just to communicate with people on a (somewhat) regular basis without feeling that I need to put a mask on all the time. Ah, well, shit's complicated.
Anyway, thanks for the reponse, man.
Today was my second therapy session after being reward from the hospital. It went well.
It’s my 8th day since release, counting the release day, and I have left my three times in that span. It’s an improvement. That probably sounds weird to normal people but keep in mind that the 10 weeks prior to hospitaliatoon I never left my house once, so I’m taking baby steps.
I think the meds are working, a little. Mentally I feel less anxious and less agitated, most of the time. It’s more subtle than I hoped for though. Soon I’ll be asked to step up the dosage, we will see how that goes
I had to take half of an Ativan this morning to get through the appointment. It’s the first one I’ve taken in 4 days, which is good I guess, but I hate that I still need a strong sedative to get through public encounters. Again, baby steps
The therapist agrees that exercise is best medicine for anxiety and I need to start exercising again. I’ve lost a lot of weight but my knees are still an issue. I’m looking into those stationary bikes where you sit down all the way, I’ve read they are easier on knees than treadmills or standard upright bikes
Also, as 888 recommended in my hospitalization thread, in trying to log off and step away from the phone/computer once in awhile as well.
It’s all baby steps. I still grt the short of breath /tight throat and chest feeling when I leave my house but I haven’t had a full blown panic episode. My vitals (blood pressure, pulse; oxygen level) remain mostly normal throughout these outside excursions and that’s an improvement
Baby steps
Good day so far
thats still pretty messed up tho
Damn 4th child what’s wrong with you? congrats budWife had a Dr checkup to verify that our unborn child is healthy and normal. So good so far. This will be our fourth.
I also payed off some debt this past week (US tax return windfall). Feels wonderful to have 100s less in obligations each month.
Bills coming around the corner:
Thanks. I don't know what else to say other than we like having kids.Damn 4th child what’s wrong with you? congrats bud
I broke my power walking record time today. Feels good.
Haha. I haven’t reached the “look at me” sports skins stage yet, but you never know. I’m currently rocking proper training singlets and proper sneakers (instead of my Cons) and even wearing a sweat band (wrist).Must've been the new lycra.
Haha. I haven’t reached the “look at me” sports skins stage yet, but you never know. I’m currently rocking proper training singlets and proper sneakers (instead of my Cons) and even wearing a sweat band (wrist).
I would have laughed at someone like me a year ago. Life is funny.
Is your belly wobbling while you do it?dw I'm laughing at you
I finally transfered from a medical surgical floor to radiology department. Thank goodness no more bedside care
I'm in pretty good physical shape which is nice. Also busted a fat nut earlier and the volume was good as well as the distance.
And a trip to the clinic on Wednesday!I have a great sex vacation coming up. FMF threesome tonight, then swingers club. Group sex tomorrow night after a glow party. Groupsex Sunday. Normal sex all Monday with a trip to the beach. MFM Threesome Tuesday.
And a trip to the clinic on Wednesday!