So basically we broke up a little bit more than a year ago after 3 years of being together on a very rocky passionate relationship. Last time we talked was 9 months ago when she wanted to me being tested for AIDS and got upset when i didn't do it and tell her to do it since i was sure i didn't have it.
Two day ago i woke up to her messages, and we talked nicely for a few hours until she told me she had a new partner and i was like "well you shouldn't have told me that" and told her to stop texting me and she got upset because i was not over her.
And today i wake up to her messages insulting me and i told her that she should forget about me and then after it she told me she was engaged and had forgot about me and how happy she was, that they were gonna move to london and what not; i found this pretty funny since she is only 22 and starting her second year of college, we did talk about marrying when we were gonna do it and that we are gonna do it, and frankly i always said yes but never too seriously and i always had doubts about getting married that young.
And when i told her that i dodged a bullet with her she said "i would have never gotten married with you, you are repulsive" which btw i ain't, im overweight but im good looking pal, well dressed, well groomed, and well i don't wanna be mean or anything because she is my ex and i loved her but she was kinda rough to look at (really bad acne which i didn't really care) so i remind her that she isn't one to talk and she started saying that i was so funny, that i was so deluded that she was gonna share our conversation and what not.
Frankly, it pisses me off that she will continue texting me even though she hates me according to her and wont leave me alone, and second that she thinks getting bad feelings because of your ex got someone new means you are still in love, is just the way it is, i told her that is obvious that she misses me but that doesnt mean that she is still in love or that she wanna be with me, which i don't think she wants, like she is getting married but what we shared we will always be there and it was both of us first serious relationship so thinking we are just gonna wake up one day and think about the other as just somebody is so weird. She actually lowkey asked me if i had a gf when we talked 2 days ago so i know she knows how it feels but she just ignores those feelings. One year is not a long time so i feel like she feels she should have 0 positive feelings for me to be with someone new or something like that.
Anyway i just wanted to get it off my chest because well it hurts but i already know how this shit is, i made up my mind a long time ago that i didnt wanna be with her and that she was gonna get someone new (don't care about the time really, for me is only funny in an outsider perspective because i feel is dumb being so young but she always kinda wanted that) and honestly im thinking of just acting like a real dick to her right now so she would leave me alone but at the same time i feel like she is gonna get hte wrong message if i do it "oh he is mad that means he still in love" or some shit like that.
Edit:
Also it pisses me off that she keeps texting me because we don't live on the same city nor have friends in common, she could have died the last few months and i would have never found out, the fact that she is bringing me back into her life pisses me to no end.
edit2:
She tested herself and she didnt have AIDS.
Two day ago i woke up to her messages, and we talked nicely for a few hours until she told me she had a new partner and i was like "well you shouldn't have told me that" and told her to stop texting me and she got upset because i was not over her.
And today i wake up to her messages insulting me and i told her that she should forget about me and then after it she told me she was engaged and had forgot about me and how happy she was, that they were gonna move to london and what not; i found this pretty funny since she is only 22 and starting her second year of college, we did talk about marrying when we were gonna do it and that we are gonna do it, and frankly i always said yes but never too seriously and i always had doubts about getting married that young.
And when i told her that i dodged a bullet with her she said "i would have never gotten married with you, you are repulsive" which btw i ain't, im overweight but im good looking pal, well dressed, well groomed, and well i don't wanna be mean or anything because she is my ex and i loved her but she was kinda rough to look at (really bad acne which i didn't really care) so i remind her that she isn't one to talk and she started saying that i was so funny, that i was so deluded that she was gonna share our conversation and what not.
Frankly, it pisses me off that she will continue texting me even though she hates me according to her and wont leave me alone, and second that she thinks getting bad feelings because of your ex got someone new means you are still in love, is just the way it is, i told her that is obvious that she misses me but that doesnt mean that she is still in love or that she wanna be with me, which i don't think she wants, like she is getting married but what we shared we will always be there and it was both of us first serious relationship so thinking we are just gonna wake up one day and think about the other as just somebody is so weird. She actually lowkey asked me if i had a gf when we talked 2 days ago so i know she knows how it feels but she just ignores those feelings. One year is not a long time so i feel like she feels she should have 0 positive feelings for me to be with someone new or something like that.
Anyway i just wanted to get it off my chest because well it hurts but i already know how this shit is, i made up my mind a long time ago that i didnt wanna be with her and that she was gonna get someone new (don't care about the time really, for me is only funny in an outsider perspective because i feel is dumb being so young but she always kinda wanted that) and honestly im thinking of just acting like a real dick to her right now so she would leave me alone but at the same time i feel like she is gonna get hte wrong message if i do it "oh he is mad that means he still in love" or some shit like that.
Edit:
Also it pisses me off that she keeps texting me because we don't live on the same city nor have friends in common, she could have died the last few months and i would have never found out, the fact that she is bringing me back into her life pisses me to no end.
edit2:
She tested herself and she didnt have AIDS.
