I can sense you're in a negative spiral, JokerOfSpades. You're dragging yourself down with things you want to achieve when you're not in a position to take on the daunting tasks that they are. You should do a reset. You should not think about long term goals, but instead focus on getting some healthy routines. I'm guessing you have all these things you wish to achieve, and things you want to do, but you end up procrastinating, doing something to distract yourself, and you end up feeling more dependent on achieving your goals, but have less energy to deal with it.
Going to the gym is a fantastic idea. When you work out, your body works much better. Your body will send out happy hormones and you'll sleep better, which in term will help with your hormones, and so on. Don't think of it as a way to "lose this much weight" or "gain this much muscle" or anything like that. Do it to get a healthy day-to-day life, and rework your entire week to build yourself into a happy human being. They come from those kind of things, they don't come from a girl's acknowledgement. You're seeking it backwards, because the state you're in is a state that will make it less likely for you to be successful in your encounters with girls, and that will not make you feel good. So instead of doing that and digging the hole deeper, focus on yourself for a while, and don't put so much effort into a girl. When you preoccupy yourself and second guess every text you send, you'll get in your own way.
Right now you're at the creek, and you're trying to hold some water in your hands. But you're trying so hard, and you're grasping so hard at the water that it will always escape. It is only when you're relaxed, and you don't grasp at the water, but let it rest in a cup you make of your hands that you will be able to hold it for some time. You won't get this peace unless you rework your life from the bottom up. It will at least be a much harder road to walk, even though it doesn't feel like it, intuitively.
Going to the gym is a fantastic idea. When you work out, your body works much better. Your body will send out happy hormones and you'll sleep better, which in term will help with your hormones, and so on. Don't think of it as a way to "lose this much weight" or "gain this much muscle" or anything like that. Do it to get a healthy day-to-day life, and rework your entire week to build yourself into a happy human being. They come from those kind of things, they don't come from a girl's acknowledgement. You're seeking it backwards, because the state you're in is a state that will make it less likely for you to be successful in your encounters with girls, and that will not make you feel good. So instead of doing that and digging the hole deeper, focus on yourself for a while, and don't put so much effort into a girl. When you preoccupy yourself and second guess every text you send, you'll get in your own way.
Right now you're at the creek, and you're trying to hold some water in your hands. But you're trying so hard, and you're grasping so hard at the water that it will always escape. It is only when you're relaxed, and you don't grasp at the water, but let it rest in a cup you make of your hands that you will be able to hold it for some time. You won't get this peace unless you rework your life from the bottom up. It will at least be a much harder road to walk, even though it doesn't feel like it, intuitively.