ZombieSupaStar said:
not sarcasm
sorry I cant enjoy watching matches with a guy who is capable of what he did.
You'd be surprised of what the average human being is capable of when put in certain situations.
I am in no way trying to justify what he did, as that simply can't be done, no matter what.
But as someone who has had a very close brush with committing suicide several years ago, I can tell you that when you're at such a point, you aren't thinking clearly...at all.
For some reason you believe that there is only one way out, and at that point it isn't felt as being cowardly. It simply is your supposedly only option to get away from all the pain and all the f*cked up sh*t that's been thrown onto your shoulders.
You just want it to stop, no matter what the cost.
I'm glad I was able to work out my problems myself, and don't want to return to that place ever again. I won't let it come that far again.
Sure, this is not the exact same thing, but there are overlapping parts.
After reading up on family drama's and seeing lots of these in the news, you hear it all the time that kids are not killed out of anger or anything like that, but instead out of a feeling that it's best for them.
Even though that sounds so very, very wrong, I know.
still this does show up in many if not most cases.
No matter what people want to tell themselves, nothing is simply black&white, even if we don't like to admit it.
Almost anyone can come to such a point if they are pushed hard enough, and I hope none of you will ever have to find out the hard way.
Like I said, I'm not trying to justify what he did at all.
Guess I just see it in a different light. As a horrible tragedy instead of a clear cut predetermined murder case.
Instead of demonising him, I look at him with pitty.