Thing is apart from that incident the rest of the night was pretty smooth, I talked to some people about jobs and such and had a good time till the end...I felt more confident till I almost got, well, possibly raped? I walk home from the bar too and usually I feel perfectly safe but for once I was pretty nervous.
The dude in question was honestly pretty good looking, I prefer girls but I admit he was handsome---but he had this very odd sense of humor that bothered me. Kept joking about beating people up and punching me in the fact only to laugh it off. He was a pretty big dude so it did frighten me a bit, especially as I'm rather small so there was definitely a power dynamic here and it wasn't the same as two drunk bros duking it out for fun. I never felt I was on equal grounds with him, there was definitely a way he talked down to me and pushed me.
Also racist? He brought up Charlottesville around the time he started to get aggressive for some reason and made some gross jokes about it, honestly that turned me off more than the dick thing honestly---also bragged about using the "N' word, though the bar I was in seemed pretty redneck so I probably was the only one bothered unfortunately. Not to cast a blanket statement, but in my experience white gay guys tend to be the biggest users of the N-word as a casual joke. He also tossed around faggot a lot which I guess was supposed to be self-depreciating humor but that also made me uncomfortable. I don't mind drunk people who curse, provided they stick with non-targeted insults like fuck and shit and such, words that don't actually offend anyone specifically.
Anyway, I never met this dude before and from what I remember he works at a nearby restaurant (though not in walking distance) but his friend mentioned he was from out of town, so I guess just working for the summer? The friend, a girl, was very polite and seemed to be reigning him in the whole time and I believe she was actually in a higher position than him at his job, and was local, so hopefully she'll have a serious discussion with him about his actions. I really don't know if I'll contact the police to be honest, I'm a bit nervous admitting what happened, but I'm seeing a therapist for other issues right now so I'll probably bring it up with her.
The positive thing? I feel like the situation definitely made me realize how gross men can be and to avoid such behavior myself. I've actually been talking to a girl I like recently and this event gave me an "other side" perspective to avoid actions that come across as harassing and possessive. I want to strive to have an equal healthy relationship with someone rather than a weird hook-up.