so. deleted the game.
35 hours played, from which 34 were walking around getting stuff, just so you can get killed from someone you didnt even see..
I mean it's fine that you don't get the game, but I feel like you aren't even making an attempt. Have you done some research online for some tips and stuff? Also, there is a link to a mumble server in the OP that has a lot of helpful, friendly gaffers in it almost 24/7 that will definitely help you get your bearings and group up with you. But I don't think it's necessary to enjoy the game. I played the mod (100+hours) and about 40 hours of the standalone solo. You have to be very careful, and you will die, but that's sort of the point of the game.
I just can't believe you could play the game for 35 hours and not figure it out unless you weren't putting any effort into it. It's not exactly an intuitive game, but it's not Rocket science.