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JetSetJustin

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So yeah, Buspar... anyone take it? This stuff gives me the weirdest headache when I miss a dose. The worst part is its not like a benzo so you don't "feel" the effect of the drug kick in or wear off so I'm always forgetting to take it. Plus I gotta take it 3x a day. I usually go like hours wondering why the hell my head hurts and I feel like shit then realize I forgot to take it.

Haven't been super great about remembering to take meds lately.

Also, are any of you also super dependent on nicotine. It's been bad. I get 200 pieces of gum from the pharmacy every 10 days and I use an ecig. I guess it's somewhat ok, considering I smoked around 1.5 to 2 packs a day pre-pandemic.
 
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Bit of exciting news today, kind of:

I've been writing consistently in a Journal for a year now. I only just recently realised how long it has been. I picked it up not expecting anything, and ended up just really enjoying jotting down my feelings. You're not going to write a lot every single day, but it helps to at least write about what is bothering you about today. What was good/what was bad. Pen and paper works best, as actually writing it feels more rewarding for some reason.

I would never share what I have wrote, but I like going back and reading what I was struggling with. I sometimes realise that the problems were not that big of a deal, and were just feelings that came. I wrote my first bit from a year ago, and honestly it is crazy to see how much I've developed as a person. My problems have got a lot smaller since then, and the way I write is with a far more positive outlook. My earlier writing was very negative.

Just wanted to share that anyways, it feels like a big deal in my life. Got no one else to share something so private with.

Now, time to write how I felt about today. Spoiler: It has actually been good.


 

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Been feeling like trash the past few weeks. Get irritated super easily, especially with my girlfriend.

Don't know if it's because I'm not being recognized enough for my work (ego is a bitch, and I should stop with it), stress from working a lot, not having my own time, I have no idea. All I know is that I'm getting tired of it, and it's like I'm never happy, like there's always some kind of problem.


99% of the time I just want to tell people to fuck off and leave me alone.
 
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Been feeling like trash the past few weeks. Get irritated super easily, especially with my girlfriend.

Don't know if it's because I'm not being recognized enough for my work (ego is a bitch, and I should stop with it), stress from working a lot, not having my own time, I have no idea. All I know is that I'm getting tired of it, and it's like I'm never happy, like there's always some kind of problem.


99% of the time I just want to tell people to fuck off and leave me alone.
I can relate to feeling that way. There was a period in my life where I was extremely irritable and every single thing annoyed me. Usually I'm super relaxed and keep the anxious thoughts to myself.

You are probably on the money with the reasons you listed. For me, it was not having enough time to myself (I'm a massive introvert) and worrying about others and what they think too much.

What helped me was just to focus on myself, having space away from others and enjoying some quality time alone. The pandemic has actually helped me in that regard, I have had far more time away from others and it has been a blessing. I would like to be around people again, but glad to have been able to appreciate my own time again.

I would try to be aware of yourself doing it and stop yourself in the moment, maybe think how it makes your girlfriend feel. It's definitely hard but becoming self-aware of it is one of the first steps. You also talk to her about it, it does help to let off steam. I'm not an expert, so take what I say with a grain of salt. Good luck, hope you feel better soon.
 

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I can relate to feeling that way. There was a period in my life where I was extremely irritable and every single thing annoyed me. Usually I'm super relaxed and keep the anxious thoughts to myself.

You are probably on the money with the reasons you listed. For me, it was not having enough time to myself (I'm a massive introvert) and worrying about others and what they think too much.

What helped me was just to focus on myself, having space away from others and enjoying some quality time alone. The pandemic has actually helped me in that regard, I have had far more time away from others and it has been a blessing. I would like to be around people again, but glad to have been able to appreciate my own time again.

I would try to be aware of yourself doing it and stop yourself in the moment, maybe think how it makes your girlfriend feel. It's definitely hard but becoming self-aware of it is one of the first steps. You also talk to her about it, it does help to let off steam. I'm not an expert, so take what I say with a grain of salt. Good luck, hope you feel better soon.
Yeah, I talked with my gf about it and feel better about it. I think I do understand why I'm feeling like this, and it's also her fault, actually I think a lot of it it's because of her behaviors.

But I always try to be a better man, I should be able to control myself better.

Thank you for your words. I will focus more on myself, take my time off, I miss it a lot.
 
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Yeah, I talked with my gf about it and feel better about it. I think I do understand why I'm feeling like this, and it's also her fault, actually I think a lot of it it's because of her behaviors.

But I always try to be a better man, I should be able to control myself better.

Thank you for your words. I will focus more on myself, take my time off, I miss it a lot.
I'm glad you talked it out with her. It's not easy to open up, good job. I'm sure you can work things out between the both of you, good luck.

Self-awareness was the first major thing that turned things around for me. Just being aware of my actions and emotions, trying to control them beforehand.
 
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This is going to be a long winded post, but I'm going to share my progress with my reliance on the internet and give some tips to others in a similar predicament with obsessive personalities or internet addiction. I have always had problems with moderation, but the past year or so I've been learning a lot. I figure sharing some advice might help someone, as I notice a couple of users banned themselves for these reasons. It's a shame they are no longer with us. Whilst that is perfectly understandable, and a good step, I think you can enjoy the internet without having to go to the extremes. Just by setting a few barriers.

Saying "Just log out" doesn't work for most people, I know it doesn't for me. It really depends on how much you value the internet. You get in to this habit of just opening up sites without thinking about it, and the first step is breaking out of that.

This is what I personally do, and what you can try:

- Try using a dumb phone or leaving your phone alone stored somewhere when it isn't needed.
A dumb phone helps by limiting the apps. I personally do this, my phone is boring, and that is a good thing. I text and call from it, that's it. It gets put out of reach when I get home. If you have a smart phone, try to put it somewhere where it's hassle to reach, don't keep it right next to you. Avoid the temptation of mindless scrolling.

- Put a countdown timer when you use sites like GAF, Reddit, Youtube etc.
I do this on occasion. I set a timer for say 30 minutes, and when that time is up I have to get off. No ifs, ands and buts. It's time to close the tab and do something else. It keeps me in check.

- Have No Surf days.
Try having a day where you don't use the internet to browse at all. You won't miss much, trust me. Do some reading, watch a movie, play games. Whatever it may be, just get away from it all for a bit. I have days where I don't think about my PC at all, it's refreshing.

- Use a reward system.
I do all my chores first, and then I use the internet. I don't say "Eh, I'll do it later" as that lets me wriggle my way out of it, and forms bad habits again.

Those are just some things you can try. I still have nights where I spend too much time online, but I always make sure to then have a couple of days away from the internet. For now, that balances it out. I eventually want to reach a point where I never spend more time than I originally intended to do. Weekends I give myself a bit more freedom as I don't tend to do much anyways, but I make my week days very productive. I look at my Weekends as my leisure time.

Remember: You're not a bad person for using the internet. You can have fun and enjoy yourself. Just remember if it's becoming a problem or getting in the way of real life things, then you should take some steps to change your habits. Habits are hard to break, but they can be changed.

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I'm always a PM away if anyone wants support with this. I have come so far since my early 20's. I used to never leave my screen.