No, my mind isn't "making this up" through anxiety. I've experienced enough shit to be able to point it out when I see it. Sometimes, when I see or hear something said to me, gestured to me or about me, I question myself because I've been noticing so much of these instances, but it's not - there's just a ton of them.
So, no, there's not much wrong with me on that front despite me having some minor problems.
I guess it's safe to say that, from what I mean, is that I'm tired of trying with people. What I do most of the time now is just move in, do what I have to do and get out. I'm not going to bother opening up to someone if they never had the authentic thought of opening up to me.
Most of the time, I just feel like a statistic. Not a customer, a friend, a person, just a statistic. And that is a severe problem in the job prospects of the Bay Area, as I'm currently studying for a degree which will land me in the tech sector.
dude go meet ppl . no one is asking you to open up what ppl are saying is be just a normal person ..... it seems almost like youve decided youre a statistic . If you have none of us can help you. If youre willing to let that go then we all can help .