I don't know any more of the situation other than this post, but from what it sounds like: Bail out.
Don't really want to go into it any further. Not going for advice either since I already know that everyone will respond with "bail out!". Even I can see that this relationship likely has no real future. Some of her traits really clash with mine. They are those little things that annoy me like not answering texts for no apparent reason while she is really busy chatting with other people. And add that she is a huge drama queen and a huge attention whore, albeit really shy in real life. I'm even in the stage of exaggerating all these things to make me feel good.
Don't know why I'm holding on to be honest. This boat might be sailing in the wrong direction but I guess it is nice to be on a boat. I'm high and dry, not swimming. However I might be heading towards a maelstrom in the near future and the water is infested with sharks and piranhas.
Just wanted to get that out of my mind.
I've had so many great times with her but all of the sudden she just changed. Of course, this has me worried. The whole "is it me thing" is acting up right now. She went from the girl who is always online, chatting and everything to someone who just ignores me or is really cold and distant. She does not understand that I'm having troubles coping with her behavior. She must be thinking that I'm going batshit insane. I'm starting to get desperate, I can see that I'm not handling this very well but I just do not want it to end. If just could go back one month, when everything was still fine and dandy.
Welp, it's been taking me like an hour to type this post. Quoted it right after you posted. All the editing and adding sentences I've done have made it a really inconsistent and difficult to read. Instantaneously jumping from sentence to sentence. Fits with my state of mind I guess, it's almost like I'm drunk and talking to myself. I haven't even taken the time to type out this whole backstory for you all to understand. I guess it's a puzzle to my mind and only I have the missing pieces to complete this puzzle. I think I just realized the benefits of writing a diary. Feels great to vent about this, those feelings have to go somewhere. It's really relaxing to think about the things that have happened and especially realizing that you've made mistakes in the past. It's all a huge learning experience for me. I guess the best thing to do is lay low and not to worry.
Now I'm off to listen to Paranoid by Black Sabbath. The lyrics are eerily similar to the feelings I have about my own post.
Need help. WTF do I do.
6 Months ago my roommate tricked me into going on a date with a girl I didn't like or want to like. Physical relationship spawned more quickly than in my past experience and I was enjoying the endless sex. My only victory is that I convinced her that we are above facebook labels and don't need to be FB Official. I am embarrassed to tell people she is my gf unless we are at a distance or she wasn't having a bad acne day.
Yup, she has some acne. Like faint red spots on her face. Not really zits, but moreso blemishes. I don't think she's pretty or beautiful. In fact, I've never even said so. My last gf I told all the time. This one I almost never compliment, yet she is infatuated with me. I need to get away from this person. She has no friends and wants to spend every hour of time with me. She isn't even smart. She asked me when they cancelled NASA last week. I want to be alone. I never have time to play games anymore and I just want her to go away. When I get home from work or class, she's always there. I don't invite her half the time, my roommate invites her over. They're classmates.
I am still with this girl and two nights ago she told me she loved me. I knew she was going to, and I had convinced myself that not saying it back would kill a woman, so I lied. I don't love her, but I said I did. Is lying more hurtful? My thoughts were to just not say it back the next time then tell her I had been having second thoughts.
How the hell do I get out of this? I've met her 11 year old bro+sis and her parents and even her freakin' grandparents. She won't hurt herself when we break up, but she'll feel awful. I just want it to end. I can provide more details, sorry no pics.
I just had to respond to this because your girl is the exact opposite of my girlfriend. It's funny how you want the alone time, but your girlfriend seems obsessive. Meanwhile I'm on my own and my girlfriend is rarely talking to me. I want her to be clingy and obsessive. Now listen to the crazy person here: you should just end it right here. It makes no sense to stay with her when you don't even want to be with her.