Wow, I've been getting a bit depressed lately, but after reading the posts in this thread, it feels so pathetic in comparison to others. I've not suffered any catastrophic losses or grievous injuries. I feel really bad for those who have and hope that they can find a way to feel better somehow.
I guess I'm kind of in a similar situation to Kastro and Vox, in that I can't make friends (or maybe, I simply do not know what a real friend is). All my doing of course, I ain't gonna be one who blames others for my shortcomings, ever. My greatest failing is in all my years I've never experienced any sort of contact, or semblence of a relationship with a woman, and now, I'm utterly clueless as to what to do.
I did take meds for many years, but I don't think they worked. Perhaps they helped make me less "anxious" around people outside of home, but it was so long ago when I began that I cannot remember to accurately how bad the issue was. Also, it was around after I stopped taking medication, and got it out of my system, when I finally made a life changing decision to start exercising and get in shape, for my health and for social benefits.
That was a few months ago, in other threads I've stated how I've managed to lose most of my fat and have built up muscle. Yet, now I've started to realize that, no matter how much I might change the window dressing of my exterior, I am still filled with uncertainty and fear about being social, especially with women. Given my age, I suppose therapy is probably recommended and I will look into that. I've been thankful to have a great family always behind me, I just hope that, I won't be alone when they're gone.
Oh well, to those who have clearly suffered far more than I, my apologies for rambling on about me, and I hope you can find solace somewhere.
I guess I'm kind of in a similar situation to Kastro and Vox, in that I can't make friends (or maybe, I simply do not know what a real friend is). All my doing of course, I ain't gonna be one who blames others for my shortcomings, ever. My greatest failing is in all my years I've never experienced any sort of contact, or semblence of a relationship with a woman, and now, I'm utterly clueless as to what to do.
I did take meds for many years, but I don't think they worked. Perhaps they helped make me less "anxious" around people outside of home, but it was so long ago when I began that I cannot remember to accurately how bad the issue was. Also, it was around after I stopped taking medication, and got it out of my system, when I finally made a life changing decision to start exercising and get in shape, for my health and for social benefits.
That was a few months ago, in other threads I've stated how I've managed to lose most of my fat and have built up muscle. Yet, now I've started to realize that, no matter how much I might change the window dressing of my exterior, I am still filled with uncertainty and fear about being social, especially with women. Given my age, I suppose therapy is probably recommended and I will look into that. I've been thankful to have a great family always behind me, I just hope that, I won't be alone when they're gone.
Oh well, to those who have clearly suffered far more than I, my apologies for rambling on about me, and I hope you can find solace somewhere.