A Fish Aficionado
I am going to make it through this year if it kills me
The one person that saved my life is gone.
First post here, even though I have been a long time lurker of this thread.
I have lived with Major Depressive Disorder, anxiety issues and inflammatory bowel issues for a good amount of time and feel like, if nothing else, I could be another person to at least be a listener for others who are going through similar suffering.
The reason I have finally decided to post is a pretty unpleasant change in my days. I have been waking up straight into the brutal aspects of Depression, to the point of crying. This is a recent change in just the past few weeks; it used to be that nights were the worst of the darkness, and I could wake up feeling somewhat refreshed. Has anyone else experienced this routine of mornings being almost the worst part of the day, immediately when waking up? Is there anything that helps? It makes getting on with the day very difficult; harder and harder to put on the mask so to speak throughout the day.
My depression is overwhelming me. I stay in bed for hours with feelings of extreme fear, sadness, anxiety, and regret. I am going to try and find a therapist and psychiatrist to help me.
Anyone else worried that, as a fallout of the tragic Flight 9525, mental diseases will get further stigmatized?
My life is so boring. All I do is browse on the internet.
Figured out where I'll jump its peaceful. Away from children or onlookers.
The water is nice.
That's were I want to be.
Didn't do it today because I had my.mom's new car which I too to detailing place.
Therapy is kinda stupid when you see no progression but only regression. I feel worse every week and really don't see myself having a future anymore.
TBH I expected my depression/anxiety being addressed but the focus on a personality disorder is annoying when I just want results.
Thanks for the suggestion, I asked about that before but I think that'll come at a later stage. They want to focus on psycho therapy first.Are you doing CBT? Addressing certain aspects of your personality disorder may really aid in your depression/anxiety.
Okay so I don't know if I should post this here but here goes.
One of my best friends is suffering from depression and I think she is suicidal. We talk about it sometimes but it doesn't feel like I'm helping. She says she don't want us to be friends anymore because she has bad influence on me. Her reasoning is that I'm such a happy person and deserve better.
I tell her the only reason I'm sad is because I care for her (which I do very much) but she doesn't believe me. She told me that she believes me when I'm saying it to her, face to face but when I'm not with her and she starts to think about it she stops believing I really care for her. She probably thinks no one cares for her and that she is just a burden...
I don't know what to do and I'm really really scared of losing her. I have already told her that she should find someone professional to talk to but she says she doesn't trust them.
Any advice?
For a while there it looked like I was finding a nice coasting point, not fixed but also not broken beyond repair. Wrong again, everything is worse than before and I can't understand why this keeps happening. The worst part is that I was trying, I was doing my best to get better and follow advice and take my meds fairly regularly. I tried to cut out many of the behaviors I know to make my conditions worse and it didn't matter. I had a couple months of peace and now it's like my brain is fighting to take away whatever happiness and hope I had.
I'd rather be miserable and indulgent again than trying hard for no results.
Why does my brain hate me?
on a different note: I feel like I have too much spare time lately, it's temporary but I know it's not doing me any good. staying home makes me think too much and thus go crazy yet I can't really enjoy going out and being around people either right now. the old dilemma. I'm really all out of ideas what to do...even movies or games aren't helping and it's like there's no escape from the downward spiral again ~.~ just needed to vent, any tips are appreciated.
I can relate to this but please keep in mind that results don't always show instantly-the simple fact that you're trying to change your way of thinking means progress to your brain, you may not feel it yet but if you keep it up it will settle in. it just takes some time so don't give up! a couple month of peace is a good start after all if you ask me, so you're definitely on the right track. it's normal for your brain to fall back into old habits from time to time but it will happen less often.
this actually sounds like a good idea. I could take my dog too.trab pu kcip : Long distance day walks really helped me, when I was on the bottom in the 2nd year in college.
I had a mental breakdown on Sunday morning. All things were piling up on me (quite painful breakup, almost got fired at work, problems at home, fear of upcoming eye surgery) and my doctor prescribed me very powerful muscle relaxant for my injured shoulder muscle and when I stopped taking it on Friday, abstinence shock kicked in and pushed me over the edge.
Yesterday was one of the worst days in my life. I was crying for almost whole day, shaking all the time, all long forgotten things coming back to haunt me once more. During the night I thought that black shapes are sneaking from the darkness and are trying to choke me. Really horrible stuff.
First thing today, i called my doctor and told her what I experienced. She took a note in my file and she called me back several hours later, that it is quite often reported that patients experienced weird stuff when stopped taking this medicine. She also urged me to call my therapist (i had mental issues on college) and get a session. Which I did and I will begin on Friday. And I was really surprised how family members listen to me this morning.
again, no med experience but thanks for your advice, I don't think I'll be able to concentrate on reading much since I can't even sit through one movie on my own right now but it's a good idea to be outside and still not overwhelmed by social interaction.Has anyone here every used Gabapentin for depression/anxiety? My doc gave it to me as a supplement to the Zoloft but I can't tell if it's really doing anything. Any other experiences here with it?
Maybe try going to a library? It's going out somewhere, but somewhere hopefully quiet without too many people around. You can just pick up a book/comic/manga and start reading. Experience something new!
I think that dog will be very happy with that, plus you will have a company. Just go out for a walk, even if it rains,you will feel better for sure Thanks for good wishes, really appreciate that.this actually sounds like a good idea. I could take my dog too.
I'm sorry to hear what you experienced, really sounds horrible. :/ I don't feel like I should give advice on medication issues so I'll just say keep seeking out professional help and hang in there man!
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I did it. it was actuallly pretty rainy and stormy but it was fun battling the elements. maybe I'll do it more often. and my dog was happy too, so at least I wasn't a complete waste of time and space today haha.I think that dog will be very happy with that, plus you will have a company. Just go out for a walk, even if it rains,you will feel better for sure Thanks for good wishes, really appreciate that.
Today, I feel a bit better (only one nightmare this night) but atmosphere at work will drag me down in the afternoon and I simply have no energy to even start browsing for a new job, because I will only get more depressed. And I have another issue - when I am down, I simply cannot eat anything. Even soup turns my stomach around. Well, I hope that Friday will be here soon..
I've had my problems with anxiety too, it's a bitch, but it has gotten better. it really depends on your specific situation but have you tried looking at what was posted in the OP? I found some of these things quite useful.Just looking for a bit of advice, hope someone here can help. I've posted a few times about my anxiety and recently it's holding me back from doing something I want to do.
I was just wondering if anyone had any tips to get over the fear of doing something new and being stopped by anxiety or depression? I'm finding it frustrating, there's such an excitement about trying something new that I then panic and think that there will be lots of people there and they could all potentially judge me and make me not welcomed.
(I am a catastrophic thinker)
Anyone heard from Fish lately? Worried about him.
I did it. it was actuallly pretty rainy and stormy but it was fun battling the elements. maybe I'll do it more often. and my dog was happy too, so at least I wasn't a complete waste of time and space today haha.
glad to hear you're doing a bit better. I have the same problem with food...I kinda am starving but as soon as I eat just a bit I feel nauseous, and it's like I'm not even in the mood to eat something. it's really annoying :l maybe wait until you're really hungry in the evening and only then eat something. works for me sometimes. just until things go back to normal of course, I guess it's pretty unhealthy on a longterm scale.
Nothing from his twitter since the other night
Meetup.com may help you find others to do fun activities with in you're area. I have wanted to do this for a long time but my problem is that I lack transportation and It takes alot for me to psyche myself to go out .
Does anyone know of a way of contacting him IRL to at least make sure he is alright?
I was in the hospital. A I don't know for long or what procedures.. I my parents took me.
I'm still very confused.
I was in the hospital. A I don't know for long or what procedures.. I my parents took me.
I'm still very confused.
Take care of yourself. Your friends all have your back. We're all here for you. <3
I I can't speak write still
I should have jumped.